This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

[taw]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Red....how are you doing? Inquiring minds want to know.....

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Happy New Year, my friends! (once again )

Reading all your posts here really brightened my day. I think when I brought my thread up after 2 months, it probably wasn't what people expected to read. I'm not good at playing Pollyanna Perfect. Especially if it's not the truth. I also think it might have been the wrong time. I was looking for a distraction from the other stuff on MWO. The stuff that continues to worry me.

Taw, thanks for thinking of me. I would be doing better if I didn't just lose my post to respond to all of yours. :H I like to think I'm here to help you, but it's nice to know it's reciprocated when I need it. :h I think you already know much of what I was trying to communicate.

Ru, I really, really missed you! I can't even express how much your post lifted my spirit. I'm glad you understand what I was trying to say. I think you have a gift for understanding me. I think you have a gift for understanding in general.

Bruun, I've been thinking about that book. I know it's an awakening for many. I will order it and I'm looking forward to reading it. We are the same in our issues. I'm not dirty. I worry about germs and bacteria and such, but I'm not a good organizer of the rest (an understatement :H) The papers, especiallly with 3 kids and two in school, the appts, activities, it's impossible for me. I'll let you know about the drug, but who knows when I'll get it. This overseas shipping business is for the birds! At least it's an option though...

LL, I'm so happy you liked the song and it reminded you of your prime! I'm glad the bac is working it's magic, and you feel that you may be getting some freedom from the beast.

Bebe, thanks for coming here. Happy Special New Year to you, sober one. :l

And the real reason I lost my post is because I couldn't copy and paste this song for all of you (I was having technical issues, and we know I'm no computer techie. I was messing with things and lost it.) The song is because I think you are beautiful people. Although, I picked it because I think it might be more in line with the music SP likes. Or is it not techno enough?

http://youtu.be/e2oRqyn7ToQ[/video]]

xxoo,

Redhead

[Bruunhilde]

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Hiya Red,

I forgot to say how sorry I am about the foreclosure, its been a fear for so many of us for a while now. I hope it somehow ends up being a freeing thing after the trauma of it all. Sometimes I think back to living in an apartment without any maintenance/cost and how good that was, in its way. Of course, they probably wouldn't let me bring my 90lb dog and two cats now, so that's a problem. Having kids and a nanny would make it really tough to fit too. My heart goes out to you.

[RudyB]

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red, what a great song, thanks! and thanks for your response to mine, so good to read, and makes me even happier to be back here.

yeah, shit, me too, so sorry about the foreclosure. ow. i like to think that things -however expensive and difficult- work out for the best. is there a silver lining somewhere in it all for you? sure do hope so.

bruun, please remind me what is the title of the book again, the jason vale book?

since i mentioned it in my last post, i'll report here that i did have my few drinks last night upon my return. i had my allotted three ales and found myself feinding for more, so i got dibs on a fourth (friend didn't want his share), had a little smoke of something special, and was then soon done with the drink. it felt like a close call, how much for a minute i wanted to go overboard. i gotta say, without the smoke i probably would have. (naturally, i feel a little vulnerable reporting this, but i remember where i am -on red's thread at mwo- and realize that this is just the kinda stuff we're meant to air here.) it's like what you said, red: it's hard to report what ain't perfect, but it is harder still to make things up into a shiny story that ain't true.

and good god about the paperwork and keeping things straight!!! me too! i just got a huge heloc and had a moment of panic when i wondered where i had put the paperwork so i could figure out the interest rate and payments and other whatnot (that it's taking me a friend to figure it out for me). some of us are not cut out for tidy organization, but we do manage to keep the ends from fraying most of the time, don't we? ay caramba!

missed you, too, red.

[SlipperyPete]

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Do you have any resolutions/goals for 2012, Red? I've never done those before, but I think it might be a good idea now that I could actually follow through. I just want to keep on growing personally. On New Year's day I felt a wave of peace flow through me, and I let go of all the grudges/frustrations I had with people. I even let some guy I can't stand sub on my soccer team :H

I'm not sure why you'd think I'd listen to Chris Brown, but here's a song that I'm sure we can both enjoy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=03VtulIT778[/video]]Aloe Blacc - I Need a Dollar (Oliver $ Remix) - YouTube

[Bruunhilde]

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Ru, something like Quit the drink easily. Written by a brit so you know its title is rubbish version of English and the guy is a total used car salesman, but never mind that. :H

Pete, that is awesome. I'm working on that desperately because I had a week off of work and I'm having night terrors about going back. Ridiculous I know, I'm so lucky to have a job and still have my house, its that crazed anxiety that underlies all, erupts like the Stay Puff Marshmallow Man on Ghostbusters, on a weekend before the return. Its one reason I hate to take time off, going back is just a bitch even if I work during it, which I did. DUH.

Anyways, that's awesome, and do share on your progress.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Yikes!

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

The title of the book is The Easy Way to Stop Drinking. I mean the one by Alan Carr.

Bruun, I hope you have a good day at work tomorrow. It totally sucks being off and having to go back. I'm sure I can find a rental that will be suitable. I'm not sure if I can find, and afford one to fit the nanny too. She needs an extra room. She'd planned to move out west, Washington or Oregon by the early summer. Not that I can bear to let her go. She just got back today from a lengthy holiday with her family. I am so very glad she's home (my home). I am hoping I'll be here by late spring (I have good attorneys ). But nothing is for certain.

Ru, I believe there's a silver lining. It always works that way. The best path is the hardest one to take. I just have to figure out the next step. What I want to do with my life, and where I want to live. The whole wide world is open to me. That's a silver lining. I hope I have enough time to make that decision...I always have a hard time making decisions. I'm glad you have a friend to help you with organizing paperwork. Can't beat that. I woke up a few days ago, to no internet or phone. I forgot to pay the bill. That happens sometimes, when I don't take meds (or so it seems). At least it wasn't the electric. I forgot that once, it really sucked. It took 24 hours for them to get it back on. At least we like candles. :H

SP, I haven't made any resolutions yet. I'm so very happy you've made some of you own. Do you want to share? Or will that mean you won't do them? I think if there was one I'd like to make, it would be to quit smoking...again. I might own the world's record for smoke quitters. Maybe I should buy Alan Carr's book for that. Regarding the song, fair enough if you don't like my choice. I think we'll both enjoy yours. I like that song.

Alrighty folks, goodnight.

Redhead

[ifulovelife2]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

RED!!!! Great to see your thread up and running again. Well, it would be better if it returned with a "high folks, all is good, my life is a perfect dream full of butterflies and rainbows" but it's good to see it (and you), nonetheless.

Modding. Yeah, it's the alky's dream to be 'normal', isn't it? I think I'm there. Not normal...obviously, but successfully modding. I have alcohol a couple of times a week and when I do, it's unlikely I'll drink more than 2 or 3 beers. This is on a greatly reduced baclofen dose. I'm down to 75mg/d (from a high of 350) and have been for several weeks. It works for me but we're all different.

I'd be interested to know which of your supps was messing with you, when you work that out. Also, I'm looking forward to reading about your modafinil experience

[spacebebe01]

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:HHi Red youve aroused my curiousity about the supps and the modanifil as well.

Bruun about brits and the used car salesman and ohhhhh I just cant be arsed:H

[beatle]

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redhead77;1235045 wrote:

I've also pretty much stopped taking my Adderall. I'm finding some issues with this, though. I have little get up and go. I think my adrenal glands, or whatever, are very used to the stimulant. I never developed tolerance, and quite frankly the stimulant (or locomotor effects, I know what it means now ) were bothersome to me at times. I felt every milligram of the Adderall, and I'm not a fan of the hyped up feeling. Sometimes I felt I needed something to make it go away...to bring me down (even a drink). I did/do enjoy the mental focus it gives me. I need it.

My organization around here is shit without it. I've always been that way. I can't get organized without a deadline... I've ordered modafinil from an online pharmacy... It appears to be a pretty great drug for ADD (although it isn't getting prescribed for it) without the usual locomotor effects of the stimulants. It will give me mental focus without making me feel that I'm going to jump through the roof (which isn't good for anxiety, my friends). It is rather expensive, so this is a downfall. Unless I can find a MD to prescribe it to me. I'm going to ask mine, if it works. Right now, I take half a bronkaid twice a day. Just so I can move. Forget working out right now. :H

Have you tried Phosphatidyl Serine?

[Bruunhilde]

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PS Neva, thanks for the Stay Puft man, LOL.

[taw]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

inquiring minds want to know.....how are you???

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

I just saw this in my email. I first thought, my thread must have gotten hit by a spammer. :H But noooo! Shame on you Taw. I say this with love, of course. :l Right now I'm making Redhead's Rainbow Chili and then I have to work on a school project with one of my kids. Real exciting stuff Taw. I think I know where you are going with this though....I'll be back later (sometime) to give an update.

Love ya's,

Redhead

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Rainbow chili??? Yum. What's that?