This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Terry K, good to know, I'm not going to be a fat blimp forever. You're going to laugh at this (hopefully), but talk about memory problems. I have left my groceries at the store twice. The same store I've shopped at for years. It was the same lady when I had to go back and collect them, too! Talk about people thinking you have issues.

Speaking of issues, I have a number of them. Ne and Bruun, thanks for your thoughts. I am very aware, I need to leave the vanity behind, and just deal with my alcohol problem first. It's just hard to be a buffalo.

Now is time for TMI. You guys know I'm the queen of that. He (the ex) may be now doing what he's supposed to, as far as supporting his family. What I did not say, is that a couple of weeks ago (not many), we were thrown together for a few days. Of course, history tends to repeat itself. At least in my life, cause I let it.

I really thought he was changing. To my own detriment. It turns out, after all of that, he had a girlfriend that's 15 years younger than he is. A girl that's barely legal. One whom he is now ignoring his children for. So, I got busy with all that she has. Would have been great to know ahead of time. I most likely would have made more reasonable decisions.

I am trying to get a grasp on my train wreck of a life. No more talking about just bac with Dr L. I think I need to focus more on my issues. I think I should have labeled my thread, "This Redhead's Disaster Thread".

[bleep]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Red, hubby sounds like a tool, to be honest. Sounds very similar to me pre-baclofen, actually. I'm pretty hopeless when it comes to situations like this, so I'll refrain from giving any advice, other than to say that people don't change, barring some miracle (baclofen, in my case). Miracles are usually hard to come by, so don't count on it.

The SE's sound grim. Drinking will be exacerbating them, but I was advised to stop drinking on my way up as well, and I remember thinking what useless advice it was. If I could just stop drinking, i wouldn't be here in the first place! It does help though, even just a random night of sobriety sprinkled here and there helps. It seems to give the baclofen a chance to work, to really get into your head.

You will be amazed how your life seems to sort itself out once you are indifferent. Or, it's not that it sorts itself out, it's that suddenly you become much more capable of getting through shit than you were. Everything seems surmountable. I have had some terrible personal moments, and sober, I am capable of dealing with them. Before, I would have stuck my head in the sand and hoped they resolved themselves, which they seldom do.

I'm pretty sure you'll notice a similar effect.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

:H
What bleep said. Especially the part about things being different when you're indifferent. TRUST ME! LOL. okay, don't. But it's true.

As to the Tool: Sister, we've all done it. Or maybe not. But I've done it enough to count for at least two or three other women. Maybe a whole harem. Whatev. Pretty soon you won't ever have to do it again. Neva eva.

Manage the SEs and take really good care of yourself. Eyes on the goal, so up/down/sideways, just kttdp and get there.

xxoo
:ls
Ne

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

I met with Dr L today. I asked him about his name here on the internet. He told me that he can't control everyone, and he doesn't read it. I asked if it would be better shared by pm with needy people and he said he thought that might be wise.

He said he's had a few "strange" calls as of late. His intuition tells him they aren't looking for help so he ends the calls, and refuses to go on. That got us talking about all the people who will lose money with this therapy, alot!

He's now getting so many calls for help, that he can't help everyone. I had asked him in a previous visit, if he was worried about Northwestern knowing that he prescribed this. He said, absolutely not. They are already believers, but hesitant to prescribe because they might lose research grants. He refuses to get involved in the grant business because he said they will try to control him.

The good news is, some of his colleagues are finally jumping on board to help him with the "case load". He is now teaching a few colleagues about baclofen and protocols. They will soon be prescribers. The other good news is Northwestern is finally starting to listen. He said it is just hard to get around who funds everything. Some people without our best interest are the funders. I said, you mean like big pharma? He smiled. He said, big pharma definately doesn't have our best interest in mind.

I didn't just talk about baclofen. I also talked about my issues. We again talked about intuition and the cerebellum. It turns out, one area of my brain works extremely well. I just don't listen. I'm going to start listening folks. It's always right.

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Oh, and I'm slowing down my titration. I'm going to listen to him on this. It also helps that I'm damn close we think. We hope. Who really wants me to not be around here that much anyway?

[Murphyx]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

redhead77;1093600 wrote: He said he's had a few "strange" calls as of late. His intuition tells him they aren't looking for help so he ends the calls, and refuses to go on. That got us talking about all the people who will lose money with this therapy, alot!Blimey, that's a worry. Not a surprise though. We can expect them to reach out in all sorts of ways.

redhead77;1093600 wrote:
The good news is, some of his colleagues are finally jumping on board to help him with the "case load". He is now teaching a few colleagues about baclofen and protocols. They will soon be prescribers.

Excellent news. Now we just need him to train up a couple of thousand docs around the world and we'll be sorted.

[bleep]

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redhead77;1093605 wrote: Oh, and I'm slowing down my titration. I'm going to listen to him on this. It also helps that I'm damn close we think. We hope. Who really wants me to not be around here that much anyway?

Good news indeed that you both think you are close. I'm looking forward to your indifference story! What are you currently on red?

Concerning your other post, it is a bit alarming that he's getting strange calls. If someone is trying to stop this, it will be a blow if they succeed. It obviously won't matter on a global scale, but he's certainly helping out on a micro level. It would simply reinforce my already shitty perspective on the current state of the world!

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

I'm not worried about it bleepster. He's not either, which is most important. Not with associates at Northwestern getting on board and maybe Northwestern University. Look into Northwestern. It is an extremely prestigious college with a major addictions program. Talk about a school to get on board. It's respected here. I don't know if it's considered ivy league, but it might be.
HUGE!!!!!!

What we should do, is worry about who we put his info out to, so he doesn't get strange calls. PMs only.

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Oh, I'm on 180 bleepster.

[spacebebe01]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Hi Red, Ive just been trying to read through your thread as Im new on bac and need to start making contact with other women on bac. You have certainely had major changes in your life going on and I really do admire you for carrying on.
Good Luck

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Yes, spacebe ALOT. I have been quiet on here lately, trying to deal with some of it. I have more interpersonal things going on now that at any other time in my life, and it's at the time I picked to get sober.

The drug is magic. In the past I would have been drinking myself into an oblivion daily, with all that is happening. Tomorrow, I will go up in dose. Today is day 7 (I think), I lost track this week.

EDIT: Welcome here spacebe. I am so glad you have joined us!

[bleep]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

I'd be thankful you picked now Red! No time like the present, and all that crap. Would have been nicer to have done it 10 years ago, but now will do.

I found that baclofen actually enabled me to confront a few issues in ways I couldn't have done before. Like you, I seemed to have a very full plate during my baclofen journey, and the new-found focus and clarity were invaluable in dealing with certain aspects of it. I hope you are seeing a similar effect.

[spacebebe01]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Thanks Red, I'm really pleased so far with my decision to try bac, I'm on day 8 of bac now and the way its stopping my cravings is fantastic. I went on holiday with my family last week and only thought of a drink 2 times! Last year when we went to the same place and I was trying to remain Af I was sneaking to the bar on my own to knock back large vodkas. I agree so far this is definately magic for me, to be rid of the fear I have lived in and didnt even recognise it is truly magic.

[LadyLush]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Hey Red,

I've missed you! So you are going down a bit? 180 just knocked me. I just read Charlie's thread and I think there is a side of us that will not face the point of giving in (not you, me).
Anyway, I am glad you are hanging in there. I have some tough shit going on too and have no idea how I would handle it without Bac...well yes I do...drink, drink, drink.

Hope you hang in there and keep giving me inspiration.

lady:l

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

No Luscious. I'm not going down, I'm going up tomorrow. I'm at 180 right now. I'm a little worried about it, but I'm still not there, so I'm pushing through. 180 has been hard for me too. Plus, I'm changing my dosing. I'm taking more less frequently. It's making me feel like I have the heepie jeepies.