This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

[Murphyx]

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[redhead77]

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Wrong Murphy. I can't say with certainty that all paths don't lead to the same place. I just choose to follow this path. It is the right one for me. I know most Christians wouldn't say this. Another reason some may pray for my soul. I lived with a Jewish family for a period, when I was young. They were amazing people. I admired their culture and was fascinated by it. They also helped me a great deal with everything else.

I have a friend who's a Buddhist. I find what he tells me interesting. Very different from what I believe, but it gets me thinking.

I think it's about spirituality more than religion.

I suppose the path to sobriety is the same. There are many paths we can take. I choose baclofen. If another chooses a different way, and gets there, all the power to them.

I have removed the patient discussion part of my post. I don't want to worry I said too much. I fear my baclofen blog at times becomes my personal journal. I didn't use names or probably anything that could get me in trouble. I just feel better not having it there.

Maybe I'll start journaling soon. I always worried about writing in a journal, because someone might find it and read it. :H:H:H

[RudyB]

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hide it really well! i kept a journal when i was 20 and my bf was 11 yrs my senior and a paranoid jealous jerk. fresh back from my trip to mexico, he read my journal, and photocopied it! he said if he tested positive for hiv he'd sue me, as i had expressed in my jounal a crush on a mexican musician. nowhere did i say i even got near him physically (cause i didn't). but somehow he thought he had a case. lesson learned? don't go out with jealous freaks. i haven't done that, but seemed to have gone to the opposite extreme: find guys who don't really care ('cause they're gay, for example). onward and upward, though!

[Murphyx]

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OK, clearly Christianity has changed a whole fucking load since I was involved in it.

redhead77;1128224 wrote: I have removed the patient discussion part of my post. I don't want to worry I said too much. I fear my baclofen blog at times becomes my personal journal. I didn't use names or probably anything that could get me in trouble. I just feel better not having it there.

Terrific. I've also removed my response, 'cos otherwise it just looks like I'm a freak.

[redhead77]

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You are a freak Murph. In a good way. Should I remove this religious response? I look like a freak too. And we know I'm no freak.

[Murphyx]

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redhead77;1128277 wrote: And we know I'm no freak.

Hmmmmmmm.....

[redhead77]

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Oops, I forgot the laughing emoticon!

[bleep]

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Why are people afraid for other people to know about this? It's half the problem, I think. Understandably, I'm not thrilled to be alcoholic (having thought about this long and hard Red, you are right, we are still alcoholics, I think), but I didn't have much choice in the matter (more brackets - actually, I did, but that's another story, I'll save it for my thread). As such, I see no harm in someone knowing about it. Fuck them if they want to pass judgement - it is simply a very easy way of weeding out the assholes before getting to know anybody.

At the end of the day, I think I am a better person for having gone through all of this. I certainly aren't as shallow as I used to be. I think. And I have at least one interesting story to bore people with now.

[redhead77]

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Ahh Bleep. You are right. The problem lies in the way society views the alcoholic/addict. It is a disease, but I don't believe society treats it like one. There were whispers about my alcoholic patient. Why are we wasting so many blood products on him, when he's just going to go home and do it again? With any other disease, even if we thought the patient was going to die, we wouldn't consider it a waste to use our resources to treat it. It's terribly sad. Addiction is a heavy burden to carry. It's hard to get life insurance if you admit you've been an alcoholic without 10 years of recovery time. The truth is, he probably did go home, and is drinking. We all know the statistics of the ones who white knuckle to stop drinking. They're not good.

I have to tell you guys/gals, I'm taking a break from MWO. I wanted to write and explain, so nobody worries I've fallen of the face of the earth. I have been spending an enormous amount of time here. I know it doesn't seem as much as some of you, it is for what I've got going on. I'll check in periodically and update you on my progress. Some of you know how to reach me, if you feel the need. I do check my emails and I will clean out my PM box. Onward and upward for some of you. Good luck to all of you. :l

Redhead

[Murphyx]

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Going to miss you Red. :upset:

[LadyLush]

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Red,

On for a minute but that is why I took and am taking a break. MWO took over my life.
But no regrets; all of you guys have given me bac the REST of my life.

Thanks to everyone,
and Red stay in touch!

Lady:l

[RudyB]

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sorry to see you go, red.

[bleep]

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Have fun Red! See you around...

[redhead77]

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Oh crap. I was gonna ditch for a while, as I stated previously, but I have nobody to talk to. Not about what I've already talked about, on here. I need to unload, and I hate to make you guys hear it, but it is a need. I went out with LL tonight. I decided to shuck the first date rule. And I went for it. Things did not work out as planned. Older men, may have certain issues. Not all of them, but certainly this one. At first I thought it was me, but then I realized it isn't. The guy digs me. Other than that, certain parts may be miniscule compared to how a person looks. Not that I'm judgemental, but oy vey this was extreme.

I guess some parts of night went well. I'm still alive. No kidneys were extracted. No real issues.
Except, I may still go blind. I ended the show. Wanted bed. Wanted here. Not that the show would have been much.

I was able to go out with him without getting loaded. This would be a first. I am grateful to baclofen for this.

I have much more to say about other things. My indifference, what I did by titrating down, what I might think about it. I can't talk about it now. I don't know when I can. I guess I popped in sooner than later, and I hope you all don't mind. I'll be back, when I can.

[bleep]

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Alas, alas alas. I leave it to Murph to come up with some witty response.

Certainly, LL will not be thanking us if he reads this thread, much as I thought he would be. I am however grateful to him for getting you to return! C'est la vie, I suppose.

The most important part of the night was a success though, I suppose, there will be other LL's, one hopes!

I am looking forward to hearing your thoughts.