This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Oh, one other thing. If you have a strong family hx of AAA, especially if it's a first degree relative, you may what to get yourself checked out Murphy. It is even more important if you have a hx of hypertension. Just a thought.

[redhead77]

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terryk;1177549 wrote: This scanned journal article (in the) https://www.mywayout.org/community/f2...ml#post1112163, mentions the longterm safety and efficacy of baclofen, starting on the 2nd page, upper right with "There are several references to long-term, high-dose treatment for spasticity. Jones and Lance summarized their experience with 113 patients with spasticity treated with baclofen for up to 6 years. Baclofen dosage ranged from 30 to 200mg daily..."

-tk

Thanks for reminding me of this tk. I sometimes forget.

[redhead77]

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Bruunhilde;1177257 wrote: Wow, Red, I can't believe no one asked about this - please 'splain! Which right and left? Details details!

In this case, it would be the right and left arm. The right arm gets creams, oils, lubes, whatever... that smells good. The left gets powders, creams, lubes, that taste good. In practice you could put it on any right or left, well anywhere! No, Murphy, they don't have strawberry. They have more exotic flavors like mango and pomegranate. :H I just knew you wondering.

[redhead77]

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Well, that was brief. I'm glad you stopped in to say hello.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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I know. weird, right?

[Bruunhilde]

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redhead77;1179961 wrote: In this case, it would be the right and left arm. The right arm gets creams, oils, lubes, whatever... that smells good. The left gets powders, creams, lubes, that taste good. In practice you could put it on any right or left, well anywhere! No, Murphy, they don't have strawberry. They have more exotic flavors like mango and pomegranate. :H I just knew you wondering.

I think my dog would be very romanced if I tasted good when he licked my arm.

Glad you're taking care of the AAA worry, I always prefer to get it out of the way when I worry like that. I had an ultrasound on my ovaries a couple years ago because of a PCOS diagnosis plus my family's ovarian cancer history. Speaking of which, Dr Oz did a show about cancer yesterday and I'm worried I have esophagal/gut cancer due to all my problems clearing my throat and throwing up in the past ten years. AL is a big risk factor.

[RudyB]

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red, i thought of you instantly as my son said this evening, midway through our very long, second picture book (by sven nordqvist, of course), "mama, let's just take a short nap, okay?" those words were music to my restless ears!

how in HELL do you do it?! i mean, DID you do it, before your nanny came to save the day? and before you stopped drinking? i don't know how you got THREE chitlin to sleep EVERY SINGLE NIGHT! all on your own.

so this post is my humble tribute to you. my post of deep admiration to a single mom who has pulled herself out of the muck of addictive drinking into the higher-life of sobriety. i don't know how you get those children to bed now, and i sure as hell don't know how you did it before, before baclofen and your new way of living.

you're a strong woman, to say the least. lying down when you'd rather crawl the walls is no small feat, no matter how much you love your offspring. it's women like you who give hope to the world. we need children who are loved to become the adults who steer the ship of this great, wide world we inhabit.

with unwaivering respect, yours truly,
rudy

[Murphyx]

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redhead77;1179961 wrote: In this case, it would be the right and left arm. The right arm gets creams, oils, lubes, whatever... that smells good. The left gets powders, creams, lubes, that taste good. In practice you could put it on any right or left, well anywhere! No, Murphy, they don't have strawberry. They have more exotic flavors like mango and pomegranate. :H I just knew you wondering.

Passion fruit is my new favourite.

[redhead77]

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Bruun, you don't have to have a partner to try the products, or a dog. They have plenty of things for flying solo. Trust me.

Murphy, if you like passion fruit, you'd most likely enjoy mango.

I'm on roids peeps. I was wheezing so badly, I had to go back to the doc. My spo2 was only 93%, and while not critical this is low for me. I'm also on a second antibiotic, he's treating me like I have community acquired pneumonia. I sound like shit. I'm pretty sensitive to steroids, so if I'm aggressive and irritable, you get it.

I also quit smoking...

[redhead77]

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RudyB;1180760 wrote: red, i thought of you instantly as my son said this evening, midway through our very long, second picture book (by sven nordqvist, of course), "mama, let's just take a short nap, okay?" those words were music to my restless ears!

how in HELL do you do it?! i mean, DID you do it, before your nanny came to save the day? and before you stopped drinking? i don't know how you got THREE chitlin to sleep EVERY SINGLE NIGHT! all on your own.

so this post is my humble tribute to you. my post of deep admiration to a single mom who has pulled herself out of the muck of addictive drinking into the higher-life of sobriety. i don't know how you get those children to bed now, and i sure as hell don't know how you did it before, before baclofen and your new way of living.

you're a strong woman, to say the least. lying down when you'd rather crawl the walls is no small feat, no matter how much you love your offspring. it's women like you who give hope to the world. we need children who are loved to become the adults who steer the ship of this great, wide world we inhabit.

with unwaivering respect, yours truly,
rudy

I didn't answer this right away Miss Rudy because I couldn't. I don't deserve respect for the alcoholic hell I put my kids through. I frequently put them to bed drunk, or very close to it. I suppose it's time for some self forgiveness, but I can't help rehashing it. I can't change the past, and luckily children are resilient. My oldest seems to have forgotten already. The youngest kids knew something wasn't right (I'm sure), but will never know me as a drunk. There's a lot of work to be done after all of this. And all the work has to be done, while you're trying to kill the beast. Earning trust again. Setting limits and having your kids realize you mean it. You're not going to drink and give in. They push and test, and push and test again. It's hard.

Reggie, I understand the sober brain going over all the stuff we did as drunks. I'm living that right now. I'm still trying to clean up the messes I created when I was drunk. I have lost or thrown away important paperwork. I have spent money on stupid things, that I never would have. I reflect often on the very bad things I did to my kids like effing up xmas, or the time I got so drunk (while they were awake, I did try to get my drunkest after they were in bed, but in the end it was more frequent that I was drinking very excessively with them awake), I guess I tried to get up the stairs to bed, but ended up passing out on the stairs. My kids were so scared, that they couldn't wake me up. I was out cold. They thought I was dead. The next morning, I wanted to be. The time I woke up after passing out and realized the gas to the stove had been on for hours. The time(s) I woke up to the front door wide open in the dead of the night, during winter. Not only was it not locked, but it was wide open. That happened a few times, because I'd go out on the porch to smoke when I was drinking. I could have gotten us murdered or blown us up. Oh, these things eat at me. Sometimes I'd even say they can be a drinking triggers because I just want to escape from the thoughts.

PS. Reggie, I unfortunately, can't respond to your posts at work. I wish you wouldn't delete them. I do understand. I do the same thing on occasion. At least it was there long enough for me to read it.

[redhead77]

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I think I'm going to take a little time off MWO. I'm feeling very bitchy and even a little depressed. I don't know if it's because I've quit smoking or the drugs I'm on, or what. Most likely it's a combination. I'm feeling very irritated with some of the posts, and I'm not in a place that I can just let them roll off. I think it's best to ignore most of these things, and I'm not. Some of you are struggling right now and I'd like to chime in and help, but I just can't. I guess i'm struggling too in my own way.

Luscious, welcome back. I'm glad you are here. I was never offended by anything. I knew you were struggling. My arms are open to you. Imagine a big cyber hug.:l

Windy, you're living through hell right now. I wish I could say something to help. I believe Ne said everything I could have, and better than I could right now. If you can afford to, I hope you're able to take today off too.

Rudy, your very critical ex does it for a reason. He feels inferior inside, so he projects it on you. He wants you to feel as badly as he does. I'm glad it's not working. Don't worry about your garden. You planted it at the height of HDB. I think you are awesome to take on, and accomplish such a feat, considering the circumstances. Next year, you'll be able to stake your tomatoes. And it will all be perfect.

Till we meet again y'all. :l

[Murphyx]

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:l Red :l

[Bruunhilde]

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Hey Red,

I second Murph's :l. I'm so sorry you're going through the regrets and rehash. I'm doing it too, and its depressing as hell. I never had kids because I thought I'd beat them like my mom did, my temper is something awful. But the result is that now I'm alone because I prioritized my stupid job (financial security) and my solitude and my lover Al above all else.

I'm glad you are such a great mom that you recognize what's going on with the testing; you're going to get through this and you'll be stronger for it. You will ALL be so much healthier this holiday season, in every possible way. You've escaped a punitive marriage, and alcohol. Those are two HUGE accomplishments. Most people can't do even one of those - women often feel they must stay in a marriage "for the kids" but in the end, I'll tell you from experience, the kids don't benefit from the fighting. They just learn marriage is bad.

The regrets thing just kills me. This is why I'm interested in the meditation Redthread endorses as a way to gain peace and freedom. God, I need that.

Also, take time away from MWO, I do it periodically for the same reason. I don't understand the posts, I can't comprehend the intentions behind some things people say, and rather than get into multiple debates and bad feelings, now I just leave.

This post is meant to give you support and companionship, and I hope it reflects that. There are many of us with difficult regrets, all-consuming regrets. You still have time to make your kids' childhoods happy. You're young enough to start your life again and you have everything organized so this can happen. You're persistent and a hard worker, and you're obviously dedicated to your children. You are a great role model for those who read and need your story to help them launch their own.

Rock on, Red.

[LadyLush]

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Red,
On my way to bed so I am reading here and there.
Learn how to spell my friend or I will squash you in a spelling bee.



Love, love, love you my friend!

LL:l

Still reading, I love you girl and I am here. Sorry to be joking :-(((( I will get back to you.

[RudyB]

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heya red. i get it about the grumpies, and about everything else, every last thing! how the fuck did you quit smoking?! i am sure that has a ton to do with your mood, and with your cough. almost every time i've quit, i've coughed.

setting limits and sticking to them with the children. oh my god! that is HARD! while drinking or not.

and fucking up with them while drinking, oh i have stories, too!

and losing paperwork, well, you know i do that while sober, so don't go feeling too bad. it happens to the best and the soberest of us.

i hope you won't be gone for long, though i understand your inclination to take a break from mwo. there does seem to be a lot of negative crap around here lately, and it's a crying shame. what the fuck, people?! i've decided to avoid the threads where it predominates, as it makes me feel like my posts are out of place, pollyanna or something. but they're not; we need to keep this a positive place, dammit!

take good care, red, as i know you will. big fat hugs for the likes of you.

xo rudy