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[Ne/Neva Eva]

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hmmm. the binge and fruition.

The binge? Totally understandable, imho. You're on HDB and suffering mightily, in a place not at home where you are able to drink with abandon. Not getting enough nutrition, not supplementing that, just compounds the effects, maybe. I think that's why I want a beer, very occasionally, in the early evening. STP pointed it out, and he's right. Carbs and sugar. My body craves those now because I'm not in the habit of eating them, I drank them for too many years. I don't, however, crave alcohol.

Fruition? yeah, it can be a gift to induce sleep. No way I could do it when I got up too high. And even as recently as two nights ago I was in a beautiful place to have that happen and simply couldn't. Unrelated to bac, I just couldn't turn my mind off. Kept writing stories for my thread, or responding to something I'd read here! :H Poor Ed. My satisfaction starts with my mind. His doesn't. :H :H

[beatle]

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bleep;1119001 wrote: That doesn't make any sense! The moment you forgot to take a supplement, you went on a binge? And continued to binge right up until the time when you saw your Omega 3 capsules?
that's pretty much it, yes.

bleep;1119001 wrote: What harm is there is stopping them all? Do it for one month then only. All your arguments aside. One measly little month...

The harm has already been established. And I don't buy your idea about supps, bleep. Although I buy just about everything else you say.

[beatle]

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Thank you Ne for all the advice. VERY good advice that I am taking it VERY seriously.

Now I am going to edit my fucking post.

[tiptronic_ct]

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Jeez... my mouse pointer was poised to hit the "Quote" button...

[bleep]

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Still not buying it. Doesn't seem to matter though

Sigh.

Okay - next plan. You are right around the corner from Ne's house. I think you should go there and take lots of baclofen. I think a room got painted in your honour anyway, so it would be a shame not to go and see.

Plus, I want a report on her pantry - is it really alphabetically ordered by ingredient?

[RudyB]

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golly i am jealous of you folks living near each other. anyone in the hudson valley in ny?

[bleep]

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Don't get me started Rudy!

[beatle]

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RudyB;1119850 wrote: golly i am jealous of you folks living near each other. anyone in the hudson valley in ny?

I don't know where bleep got that idea. just ftr, i live a continent away from Ne. (Unless he has inside info about my undercover wanderings (which he does, obviously), that put me atm about 400km (250 miles) away from what I believe to be the Ne residence. Hardly around the corner, but a hop skip and a jump compared to my usual geographic location.)

[RudyB]

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ok, so y'all are speaking in tongues here. i mean, i can't keep track of where everyone is. and i will give myself a break on my own thread, thank you very much, and skip the shift key. (but watch me use it elsewhere, just to try on my own new effort at being a better person. ha!)

bleep! where are you? remind me, please. lurkers, please chime in! is there anyone here benefitting from these brilliant posts who could be my local friend? i hear from a reliable source that sometimessomepeople make friends on these threads. i can only imagine the benefit that would provide...

[moglor]

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I'm happy to be anyones' friend, but I live on the other side of the continent from you, Rudy. :-)

-John

[bleep]

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I am lurking in Zimbabwe Rudy. My closest ally is Tiptronic, who is a mere 2 500km's away.

Beatle, it's really very simple to work out where you are, I just analyse the timing of your posts, and compare them to your normal posting history, and voila, I can see your time zone.

Also, Ne told me you were just around the corner, which helped.

[beatle]

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bleep;1119981 wrote: I am lurking in Zimbabwe Rudy. My closest ally is Tiptronic, who is a mere 2 500km's away.

Beatle, it's really very simple to work out where you are, I just analyse the timing of your posts, and compare them to your normal posting history, and voila, I can see your time zone.

Also, Ne told me you were just around the corner, which helped.

Bleep, as you know, that's a very temporary location, and I live in Scandinavia (and have for most of my adult life.) I know you know this, but I'm just writing this to clarify it for other readers.

p.s. I've been posting actively over on Holistic, with some very important advice about supps (IMHO), if anyone is interested.

[beatle]

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RudyB;1119850 wrote: golly i am jealous of you folks living near each other. anyone in the hudson valley in ny?

Rudy, I wrote you an email about this, and friendships in general on MWO, I hope you got it. If you didn't, please email me.

[beatle]

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p.s.
I just calculated my al consumption over my 3-day binge, and it was approx 350ml vodka per day, plus the odd beer thrown in there. While this may seem like a lot for most people, it is still less than I consumed daily pre-bac (often 500ml/day), but felt like much more -- except for not feeling the nice part of being drunk.

Just thought I'd mention it, because it is of a little relevance, but not much in terms of my moving onwards from here.

Speaking of which, I have decided not to post anymore on my progress (or lack thereof) for a while because it has come to a point where I don't think my posts are helping anyone and I think all the incredible people who have been supplying me with incredible advice, have run out, given the place where I'm at now. I'm not saying they have written me off, just at an impasse as to how/what advice they can offer, and I understand this.

I will say that Ne's last missive (starting with hmmm...) was one of the most uplifting I have received and it will take me a long way... I will refer back to it many times in the days to come... but still, I think until I figure out a way to get through this (not that I'm giving up), my constant posting (on my bac journey) at this point is not likely to yield much satisfaction for anyone, advice givers and receivers. And perhaps it is distracting me from concentrating on the goal.

So, I think based on Ne's missive and some of my own soul-searching, I will take a break from posting on my journey for some days, and hopefully get back here soon (everyone knows that word, soon, is very flexible in the beatle universe:H) when it seems constructive to do so.

Note: Just to be clear, I don't mean I'm leaving MWO or even this thread. I just mean the posting of my bac journey needs a rest for a while.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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yeah, I thought I had to do that, too, beatle. But I desperately needed the support, so I just stopped posting anything having to do with my titration and/or drinking. The advice stopped, the judgement (if there was any, which there wasn't, not really) stopped. And I still got to track my own journey and get support and help and love from my mwo friends...

so perhaps you can just post, and I'll refrain from suggesting anything other than this:

YOU ROCK! Go on girl! Find indifference. We're here, waiting at the end line, for you to get off one hell of a long roller coaster ride. I'll bring the brush so you can make yourself presentable. I think bleep should bring some goat's milk and a fresh egg (you're not vegan, right?) for sustenance. God knows you'll need it. RedT and RedH have got the supps for you. What else? dunno. Will ruminate on it in between bio101 homework.
:h
Ne