My Birthday! Hello World!

[LadyLush]

My Birthday! Hello World!

Good Morning Everyone and/or Afternoon to some!

I would first like to differentiate between sober and alcohol free or abstinent.

Sober is defined as
1) "Restraint" in the consumption of alcohol
2) Not Drunk

Alcohol Free / Abstinent is
1) abstaining from alcohol beverages
2) Forbearance

I don't want to be rocking the boat drinking a couple of drinks and saying I am "sober".

Anyway, Murph I am going to stay at 60 because I pulled a couple of "fog" stunts yesterday

First I took my dog, a Malamute, to get groomed in the morning.
I came to work and had a doctors appointment for my annual physical. I was given a cup for a urine specimen. I used the bathroom, flushed the toilet, and while washing my hands saw the empty specimen cup on the counterops!:
I went home after work and went in the backyard and called my son saying the Malamute was missing; I forgot to pick him up :nutso:

My side effects again are minor and I only find humor in the above. I really, really do feel good. Even with my "fog" moments there are times to the other extreme where I have exceptional mental keenness (sp?). I am loving this ride.


I have to open my department. It is 8:00 central here. I will check in later all!

Lady

[Bruunhilde]

My Birthday! Hello World!

LadyL, I love that conversation with your therapist! You rock! I am in awe. Keep posting!

Murph, I think LadyL has two things going for her, 1. she's AF during this (as far as I can see) and 2. she has no major blood pressure or other issues (other meds) to mess up her cocktail of monotherapy on bac. That's big.

Lady, correct me if I'm wrong on any on of this.

[LadyLush]

My Birthday! Hello World!

Bruun,

You are correct. I craved alcohol like crazy the last 2 nights but a doctors appointment and my daughters soccer kept me straight with the help of willpower. It is still amazing because my norm would be to drop her off, get a 4 pack of wine, and drink in the car.
With a 4-pack you don't need a cork screw!

Side effects so far are:
The allergies which may not be Bac and only coincidental they started on the 14th. It will be 80 degrees here one day (like today) and 30 tomorrow.
Kind of a slimy feeling in my mouth at times??? (I haven't heard this that I can recall).
A mild headache or rush sometimes?
A little ditzy sometimes..
Really that is all to speak of

Good effects are:
The anti-depressant effect
The strong "sharp mind" effect
The wake up with no anger whatsoever....Someone cuts me off in traffic I wave with all my fingers instead of one:hallo:
I have a girl who sits by me beating the shit out of her keyboard and I would normally :hateputer:
The dreams...I LOVE the dreams.

I'll think of more but again, I am in a happy place right now and so GLAD I found this site and all of you.

Lady

[bleep]

My Birthday! Hello World!

That's great Lush.

I too have lost my road rage. I used to be famous for it, now it's "pffft, whatever, you moron" and I get on with life. The driving is still bad, but I don't lose my cool now. I almost miss it, actually.

A slimy mouth doesn't sound very pleasant, not heard of that one either, so well done, the proud discoverer of a new SE!.

I love the "sharp mind. That still hasn't faded, and I hope it never does.

[Bruunhilde]

My Birthday! Hello World!

At 60mg, I had anything but a sharp mind, LOL.

[Murphyx]

My Birthday! Hello World!

Bruunhilde;1065409 wrote:

Murph, I think LadyL has two things going for her, 1. she's AF during this (as far as I can see) and 2. she has no major blood pressure or other issues (other meds) to mess up her cocktail of monotherapy on bac. That's big.

Bruun, don't for one moment think I am not aware of the BP issue. I completely understand your situation and totally understand what you're going through and why you're taking the course you are. Your circumstances mean you need to take a slightly different path, but you'll get to the same destination eventually.

RE: the road rage thing. Me too. I often (to my eternal shame) got in to fights with other drivers. And when I say "fights" I don't mean the wussy American definition of the word, I'm talking full on broken knuckles and the pigs get called sort of fights. But now...I just smile at the other person's anger. Strange, strange, strange.

[Charlieboy]

My Birthday! Hello World!

Just read your story and I am incredibly happy for you that you have found yr way out of the hell, wishin you all the best for ongoing success!
Cheers
C

[LadyLush]

My Birthday! Hello World!

All,

Charlie I am still on my way but the steps on the ladder are getting shorter!
Murph, as always I am laughing my ass off :bat
I can't say anything but the fact you have made this journey so much fun!:bday3:

A side effect I forgot and I remember from other threads and putting my top down on the way home!

MUSIC - All of a sudden it sounds incredible...I don't miss a word or a beat! It is as if all my senses are enlightened!

Wil be back after visiting others!
Still laughing...pig? Shame on you!:tsk:

Lady

[beatle]

My Birthday! Hello World!

Hi LL, happy belated birthday, and let the party continue!

[mistysmoma]

My Birthday! Hello World!

Yes LL I remember you well..Im still in the same situiation, and still AF..135 days..{had to go count em}..Again, good luck to you..wish you the best.

[mistysmoma]

My Birthday! Hello World!

Sorry. just realized I posted on the wrong thread..oops..LL, will reply on the proper thread..

[redhead77]

My Birthday! Hello World!

Happy belated birthday Lady. I'm glad you are doing so well, with minimal SE's. Can't wait to hear more about your positive journey.

[LadyLush]

My Birthday! Hello World!

Thanks all,

I forgot to mention the side effect of tinnitus, I never notice really unless I mention it and then I focus on it. Again, minor in the scheme of things.
I have slept 2 nights extremely well. Night #2 and night #11. It was extremely relaxing and peaceful. I remember after one of my C-sections having a morphine pump for pain and rest and the feeling was comparable. Day #12 today and I am going to tit up to 80mg. I am ready to get this show on the road and I am ready for the fight between alcohol and Bac, which I consider the 2 sides of the brain and reprogramming of such. :tempted:

Have a great day all

Lady

[Bruunhilde]

My Birthday! Hello World!

How are you doing with you drinking, or are you AF?

[LadyLush]

My Birthday! Hello World!

All,

It was time to test the demon. My norm on a Friday night was to drink like there was no tomorrow. I went up to 80 mg. yesterday and thought I was doing fine so.... GIVE me my wine! The Bac kicked my ass. I don't know if brain zaps are a normal se effect, but Jesus, Mary, and Joseph. My brain was "popping" this morning. The good thing is the other se's left, or I think they did. I would have guessed my brain had left also if not for the "zaps"!
I may be an exception to the rule (anomaly?) but my se's seem a little off the norm and I am not getting the lethargic tired feeling that all of you seem to get. Maybe it is coming and just hasn't shown its ugly head yet? I was hurting but once I hit the half way at 40 mg. today it seemed tolerable. I am not stopping. Estoban took all the words I would like to say and said them eloquently.

Estoban:

Nothing severe except for the cravings. But, I'm calling this my "healing crisis". It is the last throes of my addiction.
Thanks everyone. Without being able to read about your experiences, I might have assumed that this just wouldn't work for me. Instead, I'm actually encouraged by these negative effects".
(Thanks Estoban, I still don't know how to copy quotes :-)

The respect I have for Baclofen increases every day. I know I am at the beginning of the end of this addiction. The fight ended from the first pill I took. I am so mad people won't listen to me....but they will.
I allowed alcohol to win so many battles.....I know Baclofen is here to win the war.




Thanks again to everyone...

Lady

(as always Murph, Bishops Finger..LOL, you did NOT help making me laugh with the brain zaps!:-)

Ditto, Ditto, Ditto