Hey!
Hey Nev
things are good, 200 mg yesterday(where i will now stay for a few days). Was headed to country but my Mum decided she wanted a lift down this morning and stayed in London, met some friends and had some drinks. Was gonna be AF but am so keen to 'test the waters' at the mo cos I feeling so much more in control, its bizarre! Sure enough, had the equivalent of 4-5 pints over a 4-5 hr period, merry, went home at 2am...met a nice girl , drank two pints of water before bed and got up this morning and drove my mum to the country. No silly bender. No bad hangover. No shots last night. Just stuck to the beers, stayed in control. All in all, thats very encouraging for me, really feeling around 200mg that I have the ability to make decisions about my alcohol intake if i do decide to drink, rather than the other way round...
I had set out to do 30 days AF which I have certainly not succeeded in but at the same time, massively encouraged about the way i handled drinking this week. It feels different. It's also apparent to me how crap I am at staying AF! Alcohol still has a big allure to me and 'makes a night out', makes it more fun etc etc....this is something I am still working on and am starting a course in vedic meditation on Tuesday which I am very excited about(already do alot of meditation but wanna take it to next level) and am focussing in the long term to take my bac dosage higher and to keep working towards my goal of being a very moderate drinker.
200 feel good but in next ten days or so, I wd like to take it to 250 and see how I feel there. Definitely feeling some big improvements recently
Cheers, hope all well
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