You can see my long history of sobriety then benders in my postings. Some long runs, but always ending up in a disfunctional bender!!
So I talked my doc into BAC! I was so pleasantly surprised he was open minded and thought it merited a try! I talked to him about Dr. A's book and all my MWO friends and everything I learned. He complemented me on doing research and thought it was a great idea. He even agreed to let me take charge of my own titration and said he'd start me with a "large supply".
I got an initial dose of 90 10mg tabs with 3 refills. I started Friday. My first day I ended up taking 4 10mg doses spread evenly over the day. Really didn't notice much difference except improved sleep. I got
Day two I went up to 120 mg spread out over the day. I felt great! Slept great. I love feeling good and not worrying about driving (bac is NOT on the list of "DUI" drugs in my state). I felt tranquil and anxieties are gone. I also learned that 10mg is nothing in my case. I gotta take 20mg at least.
Day 3 so far I'm up to 80mg about halfway through. Probably will be on the order of 120-140 by the time I'm done.
I'm a little worried about a couple of things.
1)My doc wrote the label with an initial instruction of take 3 10mg per day. I'm a little worried my pharmacy is gonna hassle me when I go back to refill in like 10 or less the way my dosing is going
2)I'm worried that my doc will freak out about the high dosages I'm using. It seems on par with what other MWOers are using. I'm gonna buy the book and show it to my doc when I go back for my follow up in a month. I don't wanna be cut off.. I don't think I can afford the kind of dosages I need if I have to buy it on the internet either.
Anyway.. enjoying the way I feel, don't even want a drink right now. thats progress for me.
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