Oldwineskins--
Thank you for sticking your neck out there. I only started here and on bac last week, and have never posted before online anywhere, so I am no expert and not completely comfortable doing this either. But the experienced people on here have all been very very kind and helpful to me---ans they don't seem to be a bunch of nut cases (at least not any more so than I am!).
I think we're all kind of groping around in the dark for answers here....for me, the added stigma of being a mother who drinks is just something that is not talked about enough. I've only gone to a few AA meetings, and tried to go mostly to women's groups, and I found many times they would just gloss over the fact that they had lost custody of their children or ended up passed out in front of them. And I wanted to shout, "Wait! Could we back up a minute here and talk about how you got from there to sobriety???" But the meeting would just go on like, no big deal.....
When you say you're not in the gutter or anything, I say it doesn't matter...I can relate so much...I wouldn't be trying bac out of I hadn't sunk so low in my own estimation that this is my last ditch effort. Reading the posts here helps me keep my eye on the prize...and reading reading reading books about AL....in between laundry, cooking and schlepping....
I feel very lucky to have the chance to hear all of your (our) voices and I think this is a safe place to share the things that are so painful to talk about as mothers.
Thank you so much Oldwineskins. I love that name...reminds me of a boda bag I had on a ski trip once. Please keep writing and sharing your particular challenges...I hope the bac works for all of us...KT
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