Moms on bac
Whew busy moms--
I love all the cross talk and support here....for me, it is so much better than AA where (in my meetings) no one could give support in the moment for what another woman might be going through right then...thank you all for sharing here....it is so healthy for all of us to have this place to be real instead of pretending and tap dancing as fast as we can and saying, "I'm OK....Really!"
bkyogagurl, I am so glad you didn't run away from here....believe me, there is nothing to be ashamed of that we haven't all done before and more..... I am an escape artist expert---it's how I ended up living in Hawaii with my daughter, drinking myself into a hole, while my husband is working his a** off in CA. How's that for a great escape job? Really not proud of that....Please keep on sharing even the hard parts....then we can all celebrate the successes together!
Sassy--I am so sorry to hear about your fall and nausea/vomiting! I think knees buckling is definitely part of bac...I had one day of nausea after upping my level. I switched to Bleep's very sound advice of spreading it out (to 1 pill every hour instead of 2 every three hours) and it helped tremendously....more of a constant drip all day long. (BTW--I think it was so sweet of your son to bring a "sick" bowl to you....That's love!...even if you missed the target!)
Redhead---My heart goes out to you...with everything you've been handling, I'd be pulling out my last red hair! I don't think your "spaciness and forgetfulness is" is weird or bad (even when not on bac I've done spaced-out things my friends and family would just shake their heads over....wallet on top of the car, losing checks at the bank, losing passports and airline tickets, even children!...I could go on). Anyways, the main thing is try to give yourself a dozen pats on the back--at this point in your life, it sounds like you're trying to take care of so many things. (And still showing up at baseball tryouts!!) We are pulling for you here....
Hopeful Spirit---
Thank you for making this your home. You have a lot of insight to share...you have already shared much meaningful stuff, especially about being willing to have discussions with your 13 yr old about your drinking... Talk about facing the music! That is very, very brave and I think we could all learn from you re that issue. I've only had one discussion with my 26 yr old and none with my 12 year old...so please let us know how that develops for you.
I agree---having this board is keeping me ever-mindful (and hopeful) about why I would take pills without a prescription (on the down low) from India. And yet.....after 2 weeks, I am starting to feel moments of a slight change in my obsessive thinking about booze. Wanting it disappears--even if only fleetingly, it's a start and I'll take it. (And I am normally a complete skeptic about some magic bullet solution for drinking).
Last night was another improvement for me. While cooking, I finished the last half of the wine that I hadn't finished the night before (a first in and of itself!) Anyways, I had water during dinner (another rarity) and then after dinner, when my hubby and daughter were in the pool, when I would have said "I'm just going to run out to the store for some 'milk,' I didn't!!!" And just stayed and watched them from lanai.....I have to say, I barely knew what to do with myself, since I didn't have the constant sneaking in and out to sip sip sip from the cup in my closet and the mug in the kitchen. But I kind of just thought to myself, "Yo, self! Look at you! You're actually sitting here laughing (and not too obnoxiously loudly) with your family and being here in the moment." It was kind of like an out-of-body experience.
Anyhow, thanks to you all for being here-- fellow moms stumbling along this trail with me. Trudge. Trudge. One foot in front of the other........KT
Whew busy moms--
I love all the cross talk and support here....for me, it is so much better than AA where (in my meetings) no one could give support in the moment for what another woman might be going through right then...thank you all for sharing here....it is so healthy for all of us to have this place to be real instead of pretending and tap dancing as fast as we can and saying, "I'm OK....Really!"
bkyogagurl, I am so glad you didn't run away from here....believe me, there is nothing to be ashamed of that we haven't all done before and more..... I am an escape artist expert---it's how I ended up living in Hawaii with my daughter, drinking myself into a hole, while my husband is working his a** off in CA. How's that for a great escape job? Really not proud of that....Please keep on sharing even the hard parts....then we can all celebrate the successes together!
Sassy--I am so sorry to hear about your fall and nausea/vomiting! I think knees buckling is definitely part of bac...I had one day of nausea after upping my level. I switched to Bleep's very sound advice of spreading it out (to 1 pill every hour instead of 2 every three hours) and it helped tremendously....more of a constant drip all day long. (BTW--I think it was so sweet of your son to bring a "sick" bowl to you....That's love!...even if you missed the target!)
Redhead---My heart goes out to you...with everything you've been handling, I'd be pulling out my last red hair! I don't think your "spaciness and forgetfulness is" is weird or bad (even when not on bac I've done spaced-out things my friends and family would just shake their heads over....wallet on top of the car, losing checks at the bank, losing passports and airline tickets, even children!...I could go on). Anyways, the main thing is try to give yourself a dozen pats on the back--at this point in your life, it sounds like you're trying to take care of so many things. (And still showing up at baseball tryouts!!) We are pulling for you here....
Hopeful Spirit---
Thank you for making this your home. You have a lot of insight to share...you have already shared much meaningful stuff, especially about being willing to have discussions with your 13 yr old about your drinking... Talk about facing the music! That is very, very brave and I think we could all learn from you re that issue. I've only had one discussion with my 26 yr old and none with my 12 year old...so please let us know how that develops for you.
I agree---having this board is keeping me ever-mindful (and hopeful) about why I would take pills without a prescription (on the down low) from India. And yet.....after 2 weeks, I am starting to feel moments of a slight change in my obsessive thinking about booze. Wanting it disappears--even if only fleetingly, it's a start and I'll take it. (And I am normally a complete skeptic about some magic bullet solution for drinking).
Last night was another improvement for me. While cooking, I finished the last half of the wine that I hadn't finished the night before (a first in and of itself!) Anyways, I had water during dinner (another rarity) and then after dinner, when my hubby and daughter were in the pool, when I would have said "I'm just going to run out to the store for some 'milk,' I didn't!!!" And just stayed and watched them from lanai.....I have to say, I barely knew what to do with myself, since I didn't have the constant sneaking in and out to sip sip sip from the cup in my closet and the mug in the kitchen. But I kind of just thought to myself, "Yo, self! Look at you! You're actually sitting here laughing (and not too obnoxiously loudly) with your family and being here in the moment." It was kind of like an out-of-body experience.
Anyhow, thanks to you all for being here-- fellow moms stumbling along this trail with me. Trudge. Trudge. One foot in front of the other........KT
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