So here is where I want to update my use with bac. BEFORE bac my daily drinking for YEARS had become in the 12 pack range. My long time partner and husband is also an alcoholic and we've drank together for decades. We are both in our late 40's and knew we couldn't keep going like that forever, even though we didn't miss work or get DUI's or become violent, etc... it starts to come down to HEALTH and wanting a decent life span, and realizing the hangovers were harder and harder to tolerate and recognizing that the "party" was more and more like a stupor of watching TV, sleeping, doing nothing. So about a year ago we started bac. I went into it thinking YIPEE I can go alcohol free with ease and problem SOLVED. Of course I was wrong.
Here is what happened. Almost immediately bac reduced my cravings, and my stress. At 25mg three times a day my drinking became half of what it was, with ease, and often times less than half. That is where I have pretty much stayed the last year, and my husbands experience has been similar. Being the alcoholic that I am my thinking became "This is okay I am moderating on bac".... after a year I have to face who am I kidding...... a six pack a day -- even with my less days thrown in there --- is NOT moderate. There is still a price to pay for that buzz I love so much. The hangover I used to get after a 12 pack I eventually started to get after a six pack... or maybe I should say the hangover relief I found in my initial reduction felt so good it felt like not even having a hangover, when in reality there is still a hangover after a six pack too.
I'm now to the point of wanting to remove the six pack. Health needs to be a priority. In the last several weeks I've increased my bac by 10-15 mgs per day, and I'm feeling a reduction in craving which I define as being satisfied with less than six beers per night. Four and sometimes three is doing the trick. I'm also feeling some side effects. What's weird is I have somnolence during the day which is VERY bothersome, but at night I have insomnia!! This combo is really driving me crazy and I need some energy. I have too much I need to accomplish right now and the lack of energy is hurting me. If I could get some decent sleep at night I think I would be a lot better off. Why doesn't the somnolence happen at night?! Strange.
Anyway I have xanax on hand at all times for anxiety/panic attacks. I only use it a couple times a month because I am very afraid of becoming physically addicted. By the way bac has reduced my need for this by at least half, and I have a history of some pretty bad attacks. Years ago I took xanax daily after the death of my father for about a year, and the withdrawl when I tapered back off was really horrible and I do not want to go through that again. However, I recently found if I take my last bac dose and a .5 xanax at bedtime I can actually sleep for about 6 hours which felt wonderful!
My question is- does taking bac keep one from getting physically addicted to xanax? I thought I read something like that here, but I can't remember what thread. If not, what can I do to sleep because I can't/won't do xanax if it means physical addiction.... but the lack of sleep is hurting me.
Thanks in advance for any advice which would be most welcome.
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