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    #46
    Wheeee! or Yikes! Progress thread for Tracy

    Pretty decent day. I am up to 140 and just took three doses given the new ideas that smaller doses more frequently is not helpful for a lot of folks. Tomorrow, I'm going to try only two doses. If that works okay, I'm going to work, 20 mg at a time, to get it to a single dose in the evening. Sure would be cool if it works. I've only had one beer today, about six hours ago. The only reason I finished it was because it was becoming too warm to drink. We went to our fav Mexican restaurant where normally I would have enjoyed their stellar margaritas. All I wanted was iced tea. I have another beer beside me now because I was hoping it would help me sleep. It's getting warm too. It's way to soon to call *switch* but it cannot be far away. I'm staying at 140 and will bump up again next weekend. Now, on to other things.

    And, to think, they laughed at me . . . they said it was bac-brain because they did not understand the elevated intelligence and gifted gardening skill behind my technique.



    Is that the most ravishing radish sprout you've ever seen or what? It germinated because I meditated on it. There is a theory of things, it's a psychics theory in quantum organics. It's called Heidegger's Uncertainty Principle (or Heidegger could have written "Being and Time" which is on the same subject, as near as anyone can tell). With some things, there is uncertainty. Like, if you try to watch an electron, it will hide from you. This is because the electron does not like being watched because it is uncertain because it is not psychic. We all know what happens with watched pots! There is nothing less intuitive than a pot full of water. Maybe Smart Water would be different, but I haven't tried to boil it. Radishes, on the other hand, like being watched, starting when they are just tiny seeds. That's because they are psychic and know you want to see them, so they want to see you too. I'm puzzled as to this: If the radish is psychic, why doesn't it know that you are going to pull it out of it's happy home and chomp on it? Heidigger did not not explain that part in his book, which was all about gardening, near as anyone can tell.

    Meet "Madman Max," the neutered pup with the plenitful pecker:



    His wanker apparently likes being watched too, which fits right into to Heidigger's theory, which was all about dog dicks, as near as anyone can tell. Heidigger wrote about such profound because he was one serious dude.



    All this deep thinking about recondite roots, quantum organics and distinguished doggy dongs has worn me out. I need to sleep (assuming such a thing is possible, which Heidigger also wrote about in his book, which was all about how to sleep on high-dose baclofen, as near as anyone can tell).
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    Tracy

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      #47
      Wheeee! or Yikes! Progress thread for Tracy

      Hmmm, only 2 beers eh? But lots and lots of serous drugs I think.

      That's one of the funniest posts I've seen in a long time, my bac smile turned into a guffaw. Thanks Tracy. :thumbsup

      And that reminds me, I must go buy my seed potatoes today. If I don't hurry up and start chitting, I ain't gonna have no spuds this autumn.

      The unexamined life is not worth living

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        #48
        Wheeee! or Yikes! Progress thread for Tracy

        "Radishes, on the other hand, like being watched, starting when they are just tiny seeds. That's because they are psychic and know you want to see them, so they want to see you too. I'm puzzled as to this: If the radish is psychic, why doesn't it know that you are going to pull it out of it's happy home and chomp on it?"-Tracy

        If I promise to keep it a secret will you send me a teeny weeny pm to let me know what you are on? I think I would like to give it a go....:alf: :nutso: :H

        I like the puppy by the way. Does it eat radishes?
        I am a sobriety tart. AA/Smart/RR philosophy, meds/diet/exercise/prayer,rabbbits feet/four leaf clovers/horseshoes. Yes please.I will have them all thank you very much.Bring them on


        There is no way the bottle is going to be stronger than I am.

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          #49
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          Oh by the way Tracy.Im heading down to do the lottery in a few hours. Not sure what numbers to pick though...You wouldnt be a dear and ask your radish for me would you? :H
          I am a sobriety tart. AA/Smart/RR philosophy, meds/diet/exercise/prayer,rabbbits feet/four leaf clovers/horseshoes. Yes please.I will have them all thank you very much.Bring them on


          There is no way the bottle is going to be stronger than I am.

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            #50
            Wheeee! or Yikes! Progress thread for Tracy

            TracyA;1075656 wrote: Perhaps I should hop on over there because my angels and goddesses really need help! The former because they have been relegated to the land of folklore, along with shape-shifting seal people and goblins (except, of course, for the ones that sprinkle fairy dust on psychic radishes and the flesh and blood angels here). The latter because they have been banished to the land of ancient myths, right along with magic girdles and cyclops.

            The demotion has caused a mass identity crisis for them and is wreaking Tartarus on their self-esteem. It's a heartbreaking to watch downward spiral of their storied souls. :upset:
            The radishes are brilliant. But this last post on Murph's thread seals the deal. I think I love you. Will you marry me? Wait. do you do housework as well as garden and speak to radishes, and hosts of 'mythical' creatures? and I really need someone to help me return phone calls on time.
            what else? I think I've got the rest. I'll share the kitchen with you, if you'd like. That might be fun, to cook together.
            Oh. I hate weeding. If you agree I will actually plant the garden with vegetables this year, instead of the flowers i was planning. I used to let the veg go to seed and mostly shared them with the little foragers, whom I love dearly. I was planning on having at least one tomato plant this year just because the squirrels/mourning doves have come to depend on a sweet treat, I believe. But if you come I'll plant the whole thing with veggies!
            (your husband and dog are not really invited, though. They can visit!)

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              #51
              Wheeee! or Yikes! Progress thread for Tracy

              TracyA;1075433 wrote: recondite roots, quantum organics and distinguished doggy dongs has worn me out. I need to sleep (assuming such a thing is possible, which Heidigger also wrote about in his book, which was all about how to sleep on high-dose baclofen, as near as anyone can tell).
              Seriously, you had me at hello. Or at least at recondite roots.

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                #52
                Wheeee! or Yikes! Progress thread for Tracy

                Sorry for not responding sooner to folks. My sense of humor went AWOL yesterday. I have since captured the deserter and dragged it back into my brain, but the poor thing was kicking and screaming the entire way!

                Coal, I asked 萝卜 (that's her name) what to chose for lottery. She said this: "01110010 01100001 01100100 01101001 01110011 01101000." I don't think she understands that you only get six numbers in the lottery. Sorry.

                Ne, I'm flattered that the lady of such charm and finesse wants little ol' me for a wife. :giggle: :blinkylove: :heartsnflowers:

                I do housework (only sometimes, especially while titrating up, you should my house!). And cooking together would be great fun!! The thing is, I want a wife. I don't want to be a wife again. One wife-ship in a lifetime is plenty for me! And if you were my wife, you'd also be the Mister's wife and, like it says in the Bible, no man should serve two masters!

                It's lovely that you feed the critters. We do too. I grew a little forest of sunflowers for the pollinators last year because I worry about them. And while I might consider a life where the Mr. only had visitation rights, I could not do that to Madman Max. He depends on me too much, all day long - "Let me out, let me in, take me for a walk, pet me, give me water, give me food, give me snack - no not that teeth cleaning snack, the dried chicken breasts that you buy for me even though they cost a small fortune." Oh my goddess, I'm a wife to a dog! :dang:

                The only thing I'm on is bac. Yesterday was a bac-wards day. I was trying to do my bac only twice a day, which necessitated taking 80 mg in one hit yesterday morning. It didn't pan out so well, really ill, and I was having a very sad day anyway. I didn't start feeling better until mid-afternoon. By then, it felt so good to feel so much better, and the beer was yummy, yummy in my tummy! I didn't go crazy on it but had far more than I'd been having. The only good part was that I took another 80 mg right before bed and slept like a rock (Why do people say that? Rocks don't sleep). So, after that little failed experiment, I decided to do something novel: I'm going to do what the doc tells me to do. It's going against the grain of my consistently impatient and naturally rebellious nature, but I shall keep the agitator under control. :b&d:

                My husband was a bit irritated with me yesterday after seeing me feel so crappy all day. Him: "Are you pushing this?" Me: "Yes." Him: "Are you trying to be a gold medal champion in that MWO place? "No, I want to get it over with!" Him: "Is this what that doctor told you to do?" Me: "No." Him: "Go easy and do what the doctor told you to do!" Me: "Okay."

                So, today I'm cutting back to where I'm supposed to be on the meticulous schedule dictated by Dr. - 40 mg., three times a day.

                Here's to hoping that it's better day for everyone on MWO (raising glass of iced tea).
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                Tracy

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                  #53
                  Wheeee! or Yikes! Progress thread for Tracy

                  TracyA;1076292 wrote:
                  My husband was a bit irritated with me yesterday after seeing me feel so crappy all day. Him: "Are you pushing this?" Me: "Yes." Him: "Are you trying to be a gold medal champion in that MWO place? "No, I want to get it over with!" Him: "Is this what that doctor told you to do?" Me: "No." Him: "Go easy and do what the doctor told you to do!" Me: "Okay."
                  I have had this EXACT conversation EXACTLY with my husband and with my sensei (he was my bac-buddy-guide through the thick of it) SEVERAL times.

                  They are ALWAYS right. about just that one little thing though. (the others I continue to pretend don't exist, of course.)

                  I really don't like taking them far apart from each other either. Not sure if it's because of 7 months of regular-ish dosing or what, but I am going to stick with doc's orders. Until next time.

                  It's a good start to the day for me, hope it is for you.
                  Ne

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                    #54
                    Wheeee! or Yikes! Progress thread for Tracy

                    I forgot.
                    Thanks! :blush:
                    The rest of your post is also very, very funny. I am not just a wife to my beloved Goose, I am her slave. pathetic but true.

                    I nominate recondite as the word of the day. (-dealing with very profound, difficult, or abstruse subject. -difficult or impossible for one of ordinary understanding or knowledge to comprehend )
                    I WILL use it at least once today.

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                      #55
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                      Once again, I don't know how I missed all this and I'm bummed I can't see the doggy dong picture. Luckily my pup has one so I can look all I want. Thankfully his doesn't need visual attention (or any other except what pup gives him) from me and only once has he come out of hiding, in significant and frightening proportion.

                      Funny ass posts Tracy, love your humor and your erudite style. You take the recondite attitudes against mythical or mystical creatures by minds with no imagination or willingness to see outside the physical world and play them with style and attitude.

                      I feed the critters too, but am no slave to my pets. They take any and all advantage, will walk all over me while I'm asleep, meow at my head at 2am to get under the covers, or come over to the bedside and whine to go out just so they can sit by the pool. Again at 2am, when I'm theoretically sleeping and resting up to earn a living to put a roof over their heads. I'm not taking any shit (except the usual plowshare they give me in the box and yard).

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                        #56
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                        The thing is, I want a wife. I don't want to be a wife again. One wife-ship in a lifetime is plenty for me! -Tracy

                        Amen! Good luck with the 40mg tds.
                        I am a sobriety tart. AA/Smart/RR philosophy, meds/diet/exercise/prayer,rabbbits feet/four leaf clovers/horseshoes. Yes please.I will have them all thank you very much.Bring them on


                        There is no way the bottle is going to be stronger than I am.

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                          #57
                          Wheeee! or Yikes! Progress thread for Tracy

                          A small supply of the med that I wrote about before is on its way (with great thanks to my MWO friend for sending it :l). It does spook me a little. I tried crystal meth once, 25 years ago. I knew immediately that I liked it WAY too much and never touched it again. This is not speed though.

                          My hope is that the med will help with the apnea. In the treatment for apnea, the med is used to fight sleepiness caused by poor sleep due to apnea. Since my apnea is caused by baclofen, because bac depresses the central nervous system, I’m hoping the med, because it is central nervous system stimulant, will actually counter the apnea itself.

                          It’s not just apnea at night. Breathing is an issue throughout the day. My sinuses feel wrecked, and that has got to be baclofen. It’s not normal pollen-related (wrong time of year for that anyway). I have to breathe through my mouth to get enough air. Perhaps I should quit smoking? :egad: I'm actually very excited about the study in Canada regarding nicotine cessation and baclofen.

                          At any rate, I am going to ask the good doc about it the med. I am determined just to follow his orders, so if he nixes it, I will to and will pass that info on.

                          40 x 3 worked very well yesterday. At no point did I feel ill or fight having to stay awake. I had to fight wanting to strangle people, so the bac glow is certainly gone, for now.

                          Hubs told me to stay away from here (my participation on MWO kind of disturbs him). One thing he mentioned stuck with me. When I was in AA, I had a really horrible time and the unhappiness I was left with stuck with me for a long time. He is afraid, since I’ve jumped into this (the forum, not the medication) with both feet, that I am putting myself in a position of being hurt like that again. He may be right. A very nice moderator wrote me and asked me to please be kind. :new: But, boy howdy, do the lurkers support me in PM. I think it's a really important topic.

                          My capacity for kindness on the subject is really very limited, so this is a good day to get stuff done! :yeahright:

                          So, I’m not going to stick around and watch the forum all day (will NOT, not, not?). I’m going to focus on working outside because something about being outside makes me feel better, and breathing is way easier! Something else sprouted in the garden, but I don’t know what because I can’t remember where I planted what (gardening with bac-brain). Possibly carrots, but that would be pretty dang quick germination even for a carrot. So, it will be a surprise!

                          Good day to everyone.
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                          Tracy

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                            #58
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                            Someone thought you weren't nice and reported you to a mod? I'd like to see that mean thread, I can't imagine.

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                              Hey Tracy, Bruun, CF and NE. That's as far back as I went. Tracy I hope you don't mind me popping into your thread(I'm pretty sure you wouldn't). I never read the Meds Section but the past few days of drummed up drama has caused me to want to figure out what all the fuss was about. So I've been reading the drama thread and a bit in this section.

                              I've learned a bit and reinforced some of what I already knew in the drama thread.

                              The posts I've read in this section represent(imo): honest, articulate, immensely humourous individuals with a desire to stay sober, educate and support others with the same goal. I detect no hidden agendas in your posts Tracy, unlike some others.

                              I've even opened my mind to the possibility of bac if "my way" does not pan out.

                              Although some of these thoughts have been on my mind I only decided to post when I read that you were receiving lots of supportive pm?s. I am not surprised.

                              I wish you well fighting the good fight Tracy and too bad if an onslaught of posts on a very important subject interferes with the ability of some to navigate to their favourite home thread.

                              Difficult discussions are just that, difficult, but if you can?t come to the table offering to listen, learn and share, then stay home would be the appropriate advice, as I?ve seen you give.

                              Start by doing what's necessary, then what's possible and suddenly you are doing the impossible.


                              St. Francis of Assisi

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                                Ringing Cedars;1077463 wrote:
                                I wish you well fighting the good fight Tracy and too bad if an onslaught of posts on a very important subject interferes with the ability of some to navigate to their favourite home thread.

                                Difficult discussions are just that, difficult, but if you can?t come to the table offering to listen, learn and share, then stay home would be the appropriate advice, as I?ve seen you give.
                                Well, I've tried. Like I said, it's not subject that I have much patience with.

                                Thanks so much for the kind words. :l
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                                Tracy

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