I had a very strange experience today, that has never happened before. I havent been taking bac for about a week I think and am still AF, I had to go to my local shop to get some bits and this shop it called Bargain Booze no prizes for guessing what they sell most of, anyway I have been there 100's of times in the past (talk about stating the obvious). But when I have been there while AF I had either ended up buying a bottle, not bought a bottle but struggled to make that decision of not thought of the drink or ignored it. Today tho I was getting served when I noticed a bottle of Sambuka in a set with little glasses and I thought how nice it looked, my eyes then started scanning the rows of colourful shiny bottles and thinking how attractive they looked and how nice they would taste, the next thing I knew I was wanting to sit in a wine bar or garden or some such sociable place and drink from these lovely bottles, I totally freaked, grabbed my bag of crisps, tobacco and toilet rolls and ran out of the shop without my change (it was only 1penny so I wont loose to much sleep over it).
I cannot remember ever thinking this way about AL, I had no thoughts of the effect, to my knowledge I was not stressed, I had not socialised with AL for many years my attitude to AL for a long time has been that it gets me to where I want/need to be and it doesnt matter what it tastes like its the effect I want. Not sure what the hell happened to make me think like this, but it occurred to me what the indifference you all talk about is, and how wonderful it must be for you to have it.
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