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[SlipperyPete]

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Good luck with the hypno, Rudy. I think you're on the right track with wanting to quit so you can run farther. That's what I was thinking, that it would help me for soccer (aka the manliest sport in existence), and I haven't smoked in 3 weeks. I'm still waiting for a huge coughing fit to signify that my lungs are clearing themselves out, but I suppose I could do without it.

[Doggygirl]

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pete, congrats on your 3 weeks smoke free! dumping the smokes was such a bitch.....i hope your journey is smooth!

dg

[ifulovelife2]

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Rudy, good luck with the hypno dude. I saw a documentary about hypnotists and every single one of them sexually molests their hot-chick clients when they have then under. Actually, come to think of it, "Hypno Fuck-Fest" may not have been a documentary after all. That explains the dodgy background music.

Pete, I always assumed soccer was a 'sport' for pre-teens and girls, but now I know you play, I have totally changed my point of view. Congrats on the 3 weeks ciggie-free. You'll smell all nice and alluring in the locker room now.

[Bruunhilde]

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A Course in Miracles, Sally, you've done that? How about adding your two cents on the topic - there's a spirituality tab in holistic if you feel it's approprite for that or here is good too. Thanks for the advice re time change.

Ru, agree that when you have a relationship with a man, you and the women who know him very well can bond over things -even more so when you've both had abusive romantic relationships.

Happy Friday everyone!

[sjm]

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Bruun, I've dappled in ACIM over the past 15 years; it gets mixed in with all the other spiritual work I've done, so I prefer to "use" it as it comes up.

About your Uncle G, Rudy--he fell off the wagon about a year ago; according to B (my SIL) he doesn't want to quit. She attends 3-4 meetings a week (AlAnon and AA--she was alcoholic decades ago), which she says help her mucho.

Okay, Rudy, we're waiting for a report on your day...patiently.

[spacebebe01]

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Hope the hypno went well today Rudy

[redhead77]

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My mother studied A Course in Miracles for years when I was young (during her sober years). She was so devoted, she set time aside everyday for it. She also worked in small groups and workshops to study and learn. She was the most spiritual person I've ever known. Whether the beast had her or not.

Hope you had success today, Rudy, with your quitting smoking.

I'm listening to a song, and it reminds me of your situation with the ex. I'm pretty sure the meaning of the song is about something else, but just the line...you better run, better run, faster than my bullet, reminds me of what I'd tell the man living on my property if I were you. :H

http://youtu.be/SDTZ7iX4vTQ[/video]]Foster The People - Pumped Up Kicks - YouTube

[RudyB]

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reddd! i LOVE that song! i haven't heard it in so long - thanks for reminding me of it. yeah, it fits. the ex is really just AWFUL! it bears repeating: his own brother called him an emotionally vapid sociopath, and the two of them get along!

anywhoot, hypno seems to be working very well, thank you. a traffic jam made me late, but my obese witch doctor took it in stride and took his time. (gross out, brenda! really, i'm glad i didn't read that until after i went, although i;d have had nothing to worry about, as i am not a bit hot!) for you grommet, i'll describe that he chatted a bunch at first, just casual talk about smoking, how things are going for me, what kinds of stressors might've made me start again, what's going on now. finally, fifteen minutes later, he encouraged me into a relaxed state -which was easy- and talked about my being a non-smoker for the next hour at least. i was so relaxed, and a few times i think i dozed off, but every time he mentioned pot (which i asked him to help me with), it was as if he said it very loudly, and i took it right in. since yesterday afternoon, i haven't much thought about smoking either, except in the spirit of wanting a treat, something to make me feel good for a couple of minutes. but every time i land on a smoke as a treat, it just doesn't have any appeal; there is no pull.

today has been fairly pleasant, though i can't say the same for my mood this morning, when i was -yet again- a very cranky, mean mother, in flashes. but i apologized, and did eventually collect myself. you see, with the time change, his sleep is all off, and he's waking up at 4:30; it's maddening. and i just get so pissed at his father for being so selfish.

one thing quitting smoking may do for me is give me a better sense of control in my life, such that other things that bug me don't have so much power over me. i'm hoping that, somehow, being smoke-free will help me deal better with life's challenges.

i went for a row this morning, and that lifted my spirits. my boy is still hanging with the neighbors, so i'm going to steal a nap -guess that 11 hrs last night wasn't enough! (every time i've ever quit, i have noticed an unquenchable thirst for sleep.)

i know i've missed stuff, but i'll be back. thanks for waiting so patiently.

xo rudy

[sjm]

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:yay::crazymonkey:I'm back on the rooftops, Rudy. shouting for joy! I love you, I'm proud of you, I know you are in control of your life. I know that you KNOW that too, each day more and more surely, as you return more and more easily to who you really are when exterior "forces" threaten to throw you off center. xo Mom :h

[spacebebe01]

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Well done Rudy! the hypno sounds really cool, I have never had a day without a cigaret since I was about 15 and Im 49 now, when I am more secure in my sobriety I would love to try something like that. I hate the fact that I am so addicted to smoking, its foul, it stinks, it is so bad for my health, it is very expensive but I am scared to even try to stop, ridiculous. I wont even buy an ashtray for my house because Ive been saying for years that I dont need one cos Im going to pack up so I use an old chipped saucer! and still I have never managed one day. Good for you, your so brave.

[RudyB]

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thanks, gals. the hypnotherapy really does work. it feels effortless, which is pretty wild. i'm sitting on the couch to read and write, which i never used to do, because i'd be sitting on the floor and blowing smoke up the chimney. i feel so civilized!

[LadyLush]

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Rudy,
Way to go! Write my friend because we adore it!

My mom has been addicted to smokes for years. She condemns me so bad that I can not just "pass" the wine up.
My mom has brain cancer; she has been battling it for years. MY mom is very, very, strong, and self willed. Mom is 76. After one of her surgeries I went to see her. I have 4 other brothers and sisters and she made me, the sweet naive one, sneak her outside, with IV attached to sneak a smoke! The others wouldn't do it,
(middle child syndrome. Swear )
My point here is an addiction comes in many forms. Don't judge anybody.
Anyway, mom comes back from Barcelona today and I will see her tomorrow.

Love you guys and DG, the virgin vs coconut on Brenda still makes me grin!

LL:l

B&R, started a sentence in after...I know!

[rangiatea]

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My baclofen trial did not go well

[RingingCedars]

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rangiatea;1207580 wrote: My baclofen trial did not go well

That's why it's called a trial.

[RudyB]

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raingiatea, like i said to you on the thread you started: use bac wisely and it could save your life. make your best effort not to use it to get high; it could be your only shot.

holy ding-dong carts* dear readers and chimers-in, my eyes just flipped open with a clack after two delicious hours of sleep, upon the happy re-realization that i am no longer a smoker. how good and how pleasant it is to know that i won't be hurrying downstairs to 'stoke the fire' so i can suck in some smoke. pffffft deep draw of sucky not-air - horrible way to start the day! it still appeals in some vague, primal way, but it doesn't draw me in with its trance, and that is a wonderful liberation.

* somehow 'ding dong carts' is what we called ice cream trucks in our world in vt (prob just my family, in fact, right mom?); the reference fits, as it's all about the treats!

grommet, i think if you're keen to stop with your occasional snus, hypnotherapy would do the trick in a jiffy, especially since you've come so very far already on your own. good for you!

pete, hooray you for quitting! you're doing so well at such a young age ~ many others would say 'oh, i'm a babe yet, i'll get away with it.' bla bla bla.

lush, i'm a middle child, too. lately people have been mentioning our particular pathologies, and i gotta say, they do ring true. no fair your mom went to barcelona! how is her brain cancer? can one be cured of that? ya know, i would've taken her out for a smoke, too (but the whole time would've been in terror of getting into trouble for it).

ok, back to sleep.