just got my own bac!

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

luscious, have you ever tried lucid dreaming? where you know you're dreaming and you direct events by your own choosing? i've never tried very hard, or succeeded, but it would be a fun new project.

and please, take my thread! rather, add to it however you want. i'm not possessive; i love reading all of what you kind people write. and you're wise to point out how one sentence can impact another in ways you mightn't imagine.

and the grammar and spelling stuff: we all get a's just for being here, taking risks, writing poorly or well, sharing our gems so others may see and reap bounty. if anybody reading feels intimidated by the banter on said things, please don't. remember, i am a dork at heart, and we're just having fun, and none of it matters nearly as much as what is in your/our hearts and minds.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

btw, to keep you abreast of every last of my moves, cause i know it's very important to you: i didn't make it to the guy with the tools, and the very fine knob (my mechanic). postponed until next week, details unimportant. but i remembered another thing that he said that hints at a rebirth of his own convoluted desire: he mentioned that when i left him a msg that i was about to nap, he wanted to come join me. we did take sweet naps together. only reason it ever led beyond sleep was because of my inclination to initiate action.

[LadyLush]

just got my own bac!

Rudy,

I have not read everything yet, but by stating "dream thread" I meant a thread that keeps me interested:l
Yes, and dreams are a part of this ride too!


LL:l

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

my son is now with his dad, sleeping, i am sure, on his way to 'the albany area,' as he so cutely apoints it. for the first time in ages, i am not thinking that i hear him crying out. i could get used to this time alone!

tomorrow: rowing lesson; graduation party for an ex-student; birthday party for a friend. the last event there is something to look forward to. he and his wife are both very successful models, so i imagine there will be many pretty things to look at. if not touch.

speaking of touching, homeboy still has not responded to my text. screw him. or not, i see. i love the lack of felt emotion as i type this. i've come a long way from when it hurt to be stood up. his loss. my sleep.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

oh goodie, doNa lush. glad to be of entertainment here. i'm sure there's lots more on its way, so please do stay tuned.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

...and tell murph that there's no apostrophy in 'its' unless it's a contraction of 'it' and 'is.' i can't believe he doesn't know this!

[LadyLush]

just got my own bac!

Rudy,

Sorry what is "doNa"?
Guys, do not worry about them! L:let them lose sleep thinking about you!


LL

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

oh, that's (phonetically) 'dohn-ya,' as in Spanish for mrs. i'm trying to think of as many different ways to address you as possible (take a look back and you'll see my many successes thus far), a la beatle, who likes to play with words.

HI BEATLE! welcome home!

yeah, the train man finally responded, calling me 'sweetie;' he never uses my name. eew. said he wouldn't be by tonight. i am relieved. and i think i'll cast my shag net far and wide, 'cause, even if i don't want much right now, i can do far better than this!

i'd rather take a nap with a gay guy at this point.

[LadyLush]

just got my own bac!

Rudy,

Thanks for clarification. Naps are better than nothing when we are the ones that don't want nothing:l


Stay cool girl!

LL

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

I AIN'T NO HOLLABACK GIRL!

[bleep]

just got my own bac!

active thread here! clearly a result of no mechanical aids in absolutely any sense of the word. i thought red's idea of getting the mechanic to fix hopeless guy's car was a great one, but then i changed my mind - this guy is playing too hard to get, which guys don't and shouldn't do. as murph says, it is time to cast the net wider.

when you're getting directions on your love life from someone like me, know that something is amiss rudy!

lush, it's great to see you posting a bit!

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

gotta run to my lesson but want to report a small victory. i was having some ale last night, not chugging it, i had plenty more in the fridge. i kept wanting to crack another one, i opened the fridge at least twice. but i kept steering myself back to the tea. i went to bed sober. again.

definitely feeling done with train man. oh my god! yuck. he texted late ! to say he wasn't coming. durr. shocker. i have more dignity than to deal with that. and bleep, give yourself some credit. your input on the matter is GOOD! yeah, who needs sex when you've got mwo - clearly it gives me some kinda thrill!

[taw]

just got my own bac!

Missed a lot on here yesterday!!

Great to see you back Lady! I am with you on the smoking Rudy....the less I drink the more I smoke...hmmm...and I concur with the rest of the class on the train man...I am taking your lead and working on myself first, for once....not worrying about a shag right now, but if one were to present itself..I would probably freak out! You sound so happy and healthy Rudy! I am proud of you!

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

thanks taw! i do feel pretty happy. in fact, i'm charged up. i wonder if it's cause i only took 40 mg this morn, and just now took 60. i guess the fatigue might be along any minute...

i just got back from my rowing lesson. how fun! i have a new exciting physical thing to do, with people. i made a new friend or two, too. just as i was noticing my dearth of local friends, i come up with you guys (as local as my laptop!), and people are streaming in. two professional women in one week! (most of my girlfriends from brooklyn still poke about in unfulfilling work, and i would've been there too if i hadn't thrown myself into grad school.) i'm not against blue collars of course -just look at my choices in "men"- but it's kinda cool to meet people who have a lot going on that doesn't include finding a better work scene.

the gal i met today is an er dr, and she knows a dr moving up from the city who wants to connect w the locals here. to boot, he's a spaniard! (and half japanese.) i'm not going to think about shaggin him until i meet him, but here again my call to the universe is being answered: i've wanted to draw more spanish-speakers into my world, and so here they come. (the gal's hubby is from bolivia.)

so folks, the moral of this post (unlike others of mine, which have no moral or morals) is the law of attraction. put it out there, act as if, keep your vibrations high, focus on what you desire, not on what you lack, and watch it come pouring in.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

oh my god, and murph! i love this anecdote, it's especially for you. there was a man in rowing class who had a snappy sense of humor and a charming british accent. i kept thinking of you, that that's probably how you speak, and what an uncanny resemblence in humor. eventually i asked him where he was from, and, you guessed it, he's from wales! (north coast, collwyn bay, to be specific. may be wrong on the spelling, do correct as you know how much i care.) he even made a racy joke about my liking the water bottle bumping me in the rear; he knew me so well after such a short time!

fun stuff, this: getting out more.