just got my own bac!

[ik1966]

just got my own bac!

wow.......
what a beautiful little paradise!!!!!!

[SlipperyPete]

just got my own bac!

That place looks like fun! Glad you got the pics working

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

hey y'all. thanks for your photo appreciation moments!

sometimes i make acronyms for mental lists to help me keep track of things when i don't have paper. this morning's acronym is se's. you'll see why.

six pack
six pack
exfoliant
ex boyfriend

six pack 1: don't remember if it was on this thread or another, but i want to clarify that i DON'T have six pack abs. i have those developing but have no real ambition to achieve them. i just wanna feel good and be strong (murhp, lest you think i'm trying to be loOp).

six pack 2: i am reluctant to report this, as i know it begs the question what're you doing with ale in your fridge, for chrissakes?!, but i've put ale in my fridge a couple of times over the past couple of weeks. have had a few, but usually i very quickly lose interest. and this is okay with me. i have remained vigilant, and very far from whence i came. i am perfectly fine with status quo. and when i don't want the rest, i dump it, which happens more often than not. it's ritualistic and very satisfying.

exfoliant: a wonderful outgrowth of my sobriety are the callouses on my hands from all of my hard work and rowing (tho i shouldn't have them from rowing; means i am gripping the oars too tight). these callouses save money, as they provide the exfoliant to rub off dead skin so i don't need to buy that type of fancy skin care product.

ex boyfriend: my gay?/bi? ex and i have remained friends to this day. good friends. i have realized something, and so has he: he is seriously, deeply depressed. THAT is why he wasn't into sex and didn't pursue me the way a boyfriend should. over the winter, maybe he was just as much turned off by my black-out drunk episode as he was depressed, but his gloomy state has worsened for sure and it is sad to see.

well now, love those acronyms. and love this sobriety! it is such pure joy to wake up and chat with my son in the morning, un-hungover, preparing to seize the day. this morning he observed that his daddy is younger than me, but he is taller and stronger. it is enchanting to watch his 4 and 5/6ths yr-old mind figure things out!

g'day, folks! love ya!
rudy ru

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

omg! these se's! i was playing uno w my son, a cuppa coffee in, and i was falling asleep! i lay down for a solid hour-long nap! (batman and the carpenter babysat.) guess i ramped up again last night: 80 mg in a few short hours. ergh! that could be it, right? i must be more mindful!

ok, 3 cups in and now for a quick run. i should have the energy needed to scurry off to do some errands. then, a nap, if needed.

[Murphyx]

just got my own bac!

RudyB;1161781 wrote: hey y'all. thanks for your photo appreciation moments!

sometimes i make acronyms for mental lists to help me keep track of things when i don't have paper. this morning's acronym is se's. you'll see why.

six pack
six pack
exfoliant
ex boyfriend

six pack 1: don't remember if it was on this thread or another, but i want to clarify that i DON'T have six pack abs. i have those developing but have no real ambition to achieve them. i just wanna feel good and be strong (murhp, lest you think i'm trying to be loOp).
Well it did look like you might be turning into a scary man-woman for a minute there.

RudyB;1161781 wrote: six pack 2: i am reluctant to report this, as i know it begs the question what're you doing with ale in your fridge, for chrissakes?!,

but i've put ale in my fridge a couple of times over the past couple of weeks. have had a few, but usually i very quickly lose interest. and this is okay with me. i have remained vigilant, and very far from whence i came. i am perfectly fine with status quo. and when i don't want the rest, i dump it, which happens more often than not. it's ritualistic and very satisfying.
Cool. Whatever you feel comfortable with. There're no club rules you have to follow, just whatever works for you. I've gone through several phases: like your one, complete abstinence and a single shot in the evening. As long as we have control, that's what counts.

RudyB;1161781 wrote: exfoliant: a wonderful outgrowth of my sobriety are the callouses on my hands from all of my hard work and rowing (tho i shouldn't have them from rowing; means i am gripping the oars too tight). these callouses save money, as they provide the exfoliant to rub off dead skin so i don't need to buy that type of fancy skin care product.

Utterly gross, but yet eminently practical.

RudyB;1161781 wrote: ex boyfriend: my gay?/bi? ex and i have remained friends to this day. good friends. i have realized something, and so has he: he is seriously, deeply depressed. THAT is why he wasn't into sex and didn't pursue me the way a boyfriend should. over the winter, maybe he was just as much turned off by my black-out drunk episode as he was depressed, but his gloomy state has worsened for sure and it is sad to see.

But it's great for him to recognise the problem (and you) as it means he can start to do something about it. I'm sure you will have suggested a potential remedy or two. Hmmm, if he does start to fancy you again, I wonder if it'll be because the depression has lifted or because of your manly abs and calloused hands? :H

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

ha ha murph you make me laugh. just the extra kinds of breath i need to take me out the door for my run. thanks. huggie wuggie.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

so, i've gone and done it again. i was out all day and forgot my bac! now i have about 120 mg of my 180 to catch up on!!! what do i do? do i take most of it, all of it, some of it? i don't know which would lead to the best outcome/least se's w the jumping all over or od'ing all at once... i'm not concerned about the drinking side of it; i'm too tired for that!

[bleep]

just got my own bac!

just take what you'd normally take, plus maybe a bit more. in the grand scheme of things, it matters not a jot. tomorrow, resume life as normal, and life will be as normal.

perhaps alas, perhaps yay.

[bleep]

just got my own bac!

how very zen was that!

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

zen, indeed! but if i take what i'd normally take, i'll be pounding 120 mg in the next few short hours before i zonk into weird dream/not dream world full of hallucinations and scariness like i had last night and the night before for this same exact reason! durrr, rudy! what's the harm in skipping 40 mg, give or take?

[SlipperyPete]

just got my own bac!

I've found that as long as I space out the doses by 20 mins, I can pop quite a bit in a short amount of time without feeling all weirdzies

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

ok, thanks guys. pete, that's kinda exactly what i'm doing. so far, so good.

[Murphyx]

just got my own bac!

No Rudy, that's not what Bleep meant. He meant take whatever you normally would at this time of day. Not to try to fit all of it in. It doesn't matter if you've missed some from this day. Just start tomorrow off as normal and all will be well.

[bleep]

just got my own bac!

That's what I meant to say. It would have been much easier if I'd just said that actually.

a missed dose is irrelevant, if it's here and there. if you start doing it all the time, you'll notice that you'll notice those ales in the fridge.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

rhanks, guys. i did somehow manage to get most of it down without too much nonsense. no hallucinations, just delicious sleep with my trustee two thirty am moment at the computer. but bac to bed soon...

oh, and i did have ale in the fridge and had one and a half. doesn't trouble me a bit. i love that it didn't appeal to me. don't know why i bothered.