well that was the scariest fucking ride home from work i've ever had. all day i felt so out of it, like my brain and my eyes were swimming. i couldn't even walk straight at moments. so i took a 5 hr energy drink and that seemed to help a bit, at least w the feeling that i was going to fall asleep, but my head still feels swimmy. i've been up to 110 mgs for about 3 days. i'm hoping that this frightful se mellows out soon.
the good news is, i'm in no mood to drink. drove right by the bottle store without a thought of pulling in to make a purchase. so i'm hopeful that this will all pay off. today will be my first day af in weeks i think. i can't believe how bad my drinking has gotten, bad in the sense that i've become - i became - a daily drinker. it's as if i knew i would soon be saved from myself, rather, from the bitch demon who took over my head, so i let loose and drank like there was no tomorrow. at that rate, there would have been no tomorrow... so good for bac, for probably saving my life.
i've also possibly had a tick bite, and am concerned about lime disease. wouldn't that be a shitty thing to add to the mix?! guess i'll look into the meds mixing thread to see if, should i need antibiotics, i'll have a problem.
thanks for your input murphy. no worries about unsexy. i am feeling refreshingly unsexy these days, so won't be inviting anyone into bed with me.
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