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[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

petey, don't worry. as your mind sharpens into sobriety, i'm sure you'll think of some ways to blame your parents. meanwhile, it's gotta be obvious by now, but i'll say anyway that lack of self-worth was also for me severly aggravated by drinking. think: poison ivy scratched raw, scabbing over but still oozing. ok, no, that's not quite right. better: a deep gouge from when you broke a rung on an old wooden ladder and slipped, with watery juice-vodka from last night poured slowly over it from the same cup in which it slept. yeah, that's it.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

i am so proud of myself for making the right choice last night: evening's entertainment was 'the office.' i had such a beautiful, long sleep.

in the middle of the night during our bathroom break, my son asked me in spanish: 'mommy, how come you have to use toilet paper when you pee, and i don't?'

(ok, jokes! the medium was english.) it was the second time he asked me that, and i had a jolly time explaining!

the other good one was when he asked me why i have to sit down to pee. i explained something about the direction of flow and getting it into the toilet. his response: 'but auntie a [my sis] can pee standing up.' hilarious!

[Bruunhilde]

just got my own bac!

But does she get it in the bowl? Great story Ru, good morning.

[GingerDust]

just got my own bac!

LOL. Yes. Aim would be an issue.

[Lo0p]

just got my own bac!

RudyB;1191100 wrote: and our food! tonight it was poached chicken marinated in garden herbs, acv, and olive oil, brussels sprouts steamed to perfection and dressed with butter and umeboshi vinegar, volunteer mustard greens and kale, and salad. oh, and new red potatoes. all but a very few ingredients were killed here. i mean grown here. the chicken was slaughtered at a plant that processes hormone- and antibiotic-free birds, and it was purchased the same day by me.

That all sounds amazing! But I actually prefer the cheap, bulk, hormone bloated chicken. Where else am I gonna get my roids?

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

glad i can be entertaining. here's more...

when i was in the trapeze club, there was another wild woman who peed standing up (i can't verify my son's assertions about sis; i'll have to ask her). i was bewildered but impressed; it was really no trick, just strange, and i admired her lack of shame. we were skinny dipping at the pond and she had to go, so she just spread her legs right there for all to see and, knees straight but not locked, let 'er flow! i saw her recently for the first time in ages and she gave me the biggest, warmest hug. i guess that was a bonding experience for us, that and putting our lives at risk constantly.

oh yeah, and we would often rip our palms with the pressure and torsion on the bar. we'd pee on them to help them heal faster. i swear it worked. you know, pee is just vitamins, minerals, and water. (some people even drink it for this reason.) it only stinks when it sits around exposed to air.

it was so nice to wake up today without the guilt and dehydration of a hangover. but i was so tired ALL DAY! i took two naps. i CAN"T do this for the rest of my life! is there anyone on hdb who doesn't feel this way, ever? or who doesn't feel this way, often? or who doesn't feel this way every single day?! loOp?

more pee stories are welcome. poop was so yesterday.

[Bruunhilde]

just got my own bac!

LOL, more pee stories, I have to belly up to this, what pee story do I have?

Do doggy pee stories count? My dog is so tall, I can pet him while he and I are walking, I'm 5'5". But when he pees, he almost always gets his front foot, so he pees just standing because he's a little tall-gawky and doing the manly leg-up thing doesn't work for him unless he needs to sterilize his front paw or get trapezing which is rare. So when my female pup met him, when I just adopted him, he was standing there peeing, and she went to see what he was doing and got peed on, her head! It happens at the dog park all the time, hilarious! My dog is the Pee Shooter, everyone gets a blast if they stand too close. Plus he pees for so long, they all HAVE to find out what's so fascinating that he's just standing there with that "I'm taking a fine piss" look on his face.

Yeah, I admire that chick who just peeled back the folds and jetted it out like a guy. Damn, she must have a fine sex life.

[Isolde]

just got my own bac!

Bruunhilde;1191051 wrote: Oh Is, someone posted you should take magnesium, was it Roo? It made me think of magnesium's other properties and one is to help the body detox from whatever, including meds. So maybe it would be good with HDB, help your kidneys and liver or whatever get rid of the build up of whatever is stuck in there. Also will loosen your stools if you take alot at once so beware. Although I'm thinking you are well aware of all this being so brainy and all. Also, I've worked at various financial institutions and some have the day off and some don't, but all the branches of the banks are always closed so the retail folks get it off even if we corp types don't.

I actually posted about taking magnesium for bruxism (tooth grinding)! :H And damnit if I didn't forget to take it last night! Tonight then. Thanks for reminding me! AND I'll put my damn mouthguard in tonight (well, maybe... ).

[Isolde]

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I went all fancy for Burning Man and bought myself one of these:



Let's ya pee standing up! Rather than riding your bike to a port-a-potty in the middle of the night, people keep a pee jug in their tents. They actually give away pee funnels for the girls, but you gotta squat for that. This baby actually lets ya pee standing up! It's very liberating!
And hey, if someone's ever in the bathroom at home and I've REALLY got to go, it's nice to know I've always got the option to go outside! :H

[Isolde]

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RudyB;1190969 wrote:
happy monday.
how you feelin, is?

I still wasn't feeling too great yesterday. Climbed into bed at 5:30 to zone out and watch tv, fell asleep early, woke up with a pretty intense anxiety attack, knocked back out, then laid wide awake from 3am on (damn HDB SE!). Went ahead and got up at 5am and took a shower, which helped me feel a little bit more human, but was just too dead ass tired and out of it still to be able to drag my ass to work today. But I at least worked from home (I'm so glad I can take that option when I need it). Energy-wise, I'm feeling much better today. No xanax today and no naps either! (I did go back to bed from 7:30 to 8:15 though.) I have an appt. with my doc tomorrow for some lingering bothersome symptoms.
Oddly enough, my appetite is completely gone. That never happens. So far today, I've had half a bowl of oatmeal. My stomach's not even upset, I just have no desire to eat.

In any case, I'm happy there's at least some improvement, thanks for asking! :l

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

sounds like you need some trapeze lessons, is. then you could throw away that silly-looking apparatus.

bruun, she didn't even spread the folds! and yes, dog stories do count.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

glad you feel better, is. sorry about the anxiety, though. god i don't envy people who suffer that! it must truly SUUUUK!

(what's your work, anyway, if you care to share?)

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

harlan, that's what we do here! you're welcome to chime in any time. but if you're being sarcastic, please feel free to check out the consolidated baclofen information thread, which is full of useful information.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

it's on pete's thread, too, but i just can't help shouting from the rooftops:

BacloFUN: Baclofun

murphy's new blog!

[Ne/Neva Eva]

just got my own bac!

RudyB;1191609 wrote: but i was so tired ALL DAY! i took two naps. i CAN"T do this for the rest of my life! is there anyone on hdb who doesn't feel this way, ever? or who doesn't feel this way, often? or who doesn't feel this way every single day?! loOp?

... poop was so yesterday.

:H to the last.

Ruby, the somnolence goes away. I think. I have been very tired for several days. I don't know what to attribute this to...Boredom, maybe. It's the first time in a while I haven't had a looming deadline, and I find myself putting off til tomorrow today's to-do list. That in itself is very annoying.
There are several other factors, too. But I can't rule out the bac, because it's the constant factor, you know?
I had a really profound happiness factor going on for months and months after indifference. I had tons of energy, was absolutely thrilled to wake up and get each day started with zoom-zoom. Even the onerous stuff was doable and easy! I thought I recognized the same in you.
One day I woke up without it. I was just me again, and that day all I wanted to do was sit on the couch. It freaked me out, I don't mind telling you! But since then I've found a happy-ish medium. (Not talking about the kind that talks to dead people! :H) I still employ other tools to get my zoom on, though! Caffeine, etc...
(btw, I think bronkaid, if I'm not mistaken, is an upper! Are you taking it before you go to sleep?)
And Ru, it might help to keep your body in bed! I know it's hard and I used to love the 2am MWO visit. But I love the 4:30am well rested wake-up more.

I take the cue of somnolence as a distinct clue that it might be time to go down (or up!) a notch. Just me, but it's worked so far. That's one of the reasons I didn't stay at 200mg. I was comfortable there, until I wasn't any more.
Hope it's a good day!