just got my own bac!

[ignominious]

just got my own bac!

Thanks Is.

[redhead77]

just got my own bac!

I wanted to tell you I appreciate teachers. I know today is the last day of teacher appreciation week. Just a thought, to let you know, we do care about how much work you put into teaching our children. I know this has nothing to do with bac. I still think it matters. Thanks Rudy.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

thanks so much red. sometimes i feel more like a lion tamer than a teacher... but, just the same, i appreciate the acknowledgement. between attempts at controlling the paper airplanes and spitballs, i suppose i might squeeze some real education in... here and there. it can be very disheartening. but i like to think i'm reaching one or two younguns.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

just checking in to say hi. sunday evening here. just took an hour to have two beers, and don't have any more. don't much care, either. curiouis if it's the bac or just being exhausted... prob a combination of both.

spent a good time buzzed yesterday and fri eve was over the top. i'm tired of this. so tired. so glad there's hope. addiction is a horrid prison.

going up to 25 mg today, after a couple of days on 15 mg. not what the doctor ordered, but not hugely more than, either. having no se's that i can detect.

hope everybody's doing okay out there.
rudy

[Murphyx]

just got my own bac!

RudyB;1111586 wrote: just checking in to say hi. sunday evening here. just took an hour to have two beers, and don't have any more. don't much care, either. curiouis if it's the bac or just being exhausted... prob a combination of both.

spent a good time buzzed yesterday and fri eve was over the top. i'm tired of this. so tired. so glad there's hope. addiction is a horrid prison.

going up to 25 mg today, after a couple of days on 15 mg. not what the doctor ordered, but not hugely more than, either. having no se's that i can detect.

hope everybody's doing okay out there.
rudy

It could be the bac; lots of people start to react at low doses. Either way, you're determined to make this thing work, so it will.

Goooooooooooo Rudy!

[Ne/Neva Eva]

just got my own bac!

RudyB;1111586 wrote: don't much care, either. curiouis if it's the bac or just being exhausted... prob a combination of both.

addiction is a horrid prison.

going up to 25 mg today, after a couple of days on 15 mg. not what the doctor ordered, but not hugely more than, either. having no se's that i can detect.

Hiya Rudy.
Funny, that. Bac or not? It doesn't much matter, does it? The point is to not drink against your will. Not drinking is a good place to start, right? (says the woman who insisted on drinking as much as her body would tolerate all the way up. ugh.)

It IS a horrid prison. Which is why

perhaps following the doc's advice might be a good idea. (says the woman who never did it, not once)

Either way, the SEs can make or break it, so they're to be avoided. And maybe, just maybe, a slow titration is the key? Not sure, though, so...whatever!

And, What Murphy Said.

Ne

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

wild stuff, this bac.
as i said in earlier posts, i'm going a bit stag here, doing slightly more more quickly than suggested by the good dr L, with whom i'll talk tomorrow eve. today i am going up to 30 mg/day. still, the only se i'm experiencing is a much-lessened interest in drink. and cigarettes, too, give thanks~!

i went for a run after work, and smoked no cigs on the way home! didn't even miss them. i think i'm onto something good here. woooo hoo!

thanks murph and se, as always, for your thoughtfulness in responding. it helps a lot.
xox rudy

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

ps
am having a couple few beers here -not vodka!- and i'm amazed at how slowly they're going down. last night when i had a couple, they just gave me this uncomfy full feeling. today, i might be feeling an ever-so-slight buzz, but i'm not all amped up to get to that checked-out high feeling i used to feel i NEEDED. amazing! (i have no more booze and am not debating whether or not to go out and get more. i won't. i don't WANT to!)

thanks to all of you who have influenced me to have courage to do this potentially life-saving thing of rewiring my brain via tic-tac-like pills. i'm so encouraged by the immediate effect they seem to be having. i loved waking up un-hungover this morn, having a great day at work, smiling much more than usual. and i am thrilled that i'll do so again tomorrow. phew.

[bleep]

just got my own bac!

Things seem to be going really sweetly Rudy, it's great to hear. You are indeed reacting at a low dose, which I'm sure bodes well for the rest of your baclofen experience.

The smiling all the time is due to your brain producing more Oxytocin, also known as the love hormone. Look it up on wikipedia, very interesting stuff.

I don't think there is anything wrong with tweaking your dosage if your body responds well to baclofen. It actually makes more sense than following a one-size-fits-all titration schedule.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

hey thanks, bleep. i'm going to look up that oxytocin now. sounds suspiciously similar to some very popular -and addictive- pain meds...

one thing i'm experiencing that might be bac-related: a fluttering of my eyelid. all day. not too troubling, but distracting. wonder if that's the start of face sagging that scares some people...
either way, the bac is definitely worth it. thanks for the encouragement. as you can see, i'm very hopeful.

[bleep]

just got my own bac!

Well, unfortunately, the oxytocin doesn't last for ever, and will fade soon enough. Just enjoy it while it's around!

Fluttering eyelids sounds familiar, don't let it bother you. As you say, it's distracting, but not serious. Like most of the SE's, really.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

yeah man (now that i know you're a man!), i will enjoy it. are you telling me this particular grinning might wear off? darn. thought i was onto something new here, a new way of feeling high. ergh.
anyway, i buzzed around the oxytocin google thing, and found some interesting stuff, but if you care to elaborate on it, i'm all ears - and fluttering eyes.

love my luck w bac so far. hope it lasts... i suppose it will get even better...

[bleep]

just got my own bac!

It unfortunately does wear off. But, soon, indifference comes knocking, and that leaves its own sort of joy on your face. That lasts forever. Or it has so far, anyway.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

yep. can't wait for that happy feeling of being free of al. those times have been the best of my adult life. give thanks for having something to look forward to!

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

I thought I'd post on my own thread for a change. It's hard not to go into 'all about me' mode on the other threads, and I find them so much fun so I'm there more.

On Murphy's thread I just posted about an experience taking too much bac (I forgot they were 10 mg, not 5!). So I've landed myself in bed with horrible GI stuff going on. I think I'll pull through, but I feel very weak and shall just stay in bed.

I had a heavy-drinking Saturday, a moderate Sunday. The blood in my vomit this morn was frightening. And when I saw it I asked myself if that was what I needed to get committed to quit al. I think so. I've had a few of these types of scares, not the blood, but the scares that tell me it's time to get serious about sobriety. Just want to report that today I feel like I'm ready to amp up my efforts to be al free. I'm so sick of carrying around all this weight, these hangovers, these urges that I can't/don't/won't combat. So what's my plan? ...Take the right dose of bac! COok and eat well. Get more exercise. Be with people. Take supps. I can do this.