just got my own bac!

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

huh huh ha ha ha, murph. i love you!

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

btw, my boy is chowing on seaweed. it's good to see he takes after his mama in more than just the physical way. (you guys should see him. he is soooo cute!)

[Murphyx]

just got my own bac!

And I thought it was just us Welsh who loved seaweed. Bara Lawr is a Welsh delicacy. Personally I think it sucks arse though. :H

[TX Git Slinger]

just got my own bac!

Hi Rudy, I just got my Bac-stash in the mail today as well. They are 25 mg pills. I took a half a couple hours ago and am not really experiencing side effects. I'm tempted to take the other 12.5 mg since i have no plans or anywhere to drive tonight. I'm chomping at the bit but don't want to titrate too quickly. Interested in seeing what your experience will be since we are starting at the same time.
Best of luck to us both!

[taw]

just got my own bac!

Have a "game" plan yet, Rudy? What will you do? Truth be told, I don't think I could do it...God bless daycare! And a job that only gives me furlough days and not a lot of time off! Yea, I nominate myself for mother of the year, NOT! Hopefully when I get healthier my outlook will change!

[bleep]

just got my own bac!

Hey Slinger,

Congratulations! It's an awesome thing you've started on. What's your plan with your titration? You don't want to go too fast, even if there aren't SE's, but at the same time, don't bugger about. That's why it helps to document the process, so you know where you are going.

Best of luck!

[bleep]

just got my own bac!

Oh, didn't respond to your game plan much rudy, sorry about that. as i see it, you have some free labour for your gardening projects. i keep forgetting about the caps thing, so it's coming and going...

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

hey bleep, keep the bar high: capitalize away! no worries about the game plan. i'm still sitting with it, wondering how the hell i'll do it. i was thinking of having a 12 yr old waldorfian boy move in with us so he can play w son all the time and keep him away from the screens. if only! (but i WOULD do it in a heartbeat; it is so DIFFICULT to do this alone.)

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

last night (actually, this morning) when i went (bac) to bed, i was hallucinating every time i closed my eyes. i'd see big ballons of color engulf my vision, i saw faces, and more brambly sticks i think. then, after a bit of that, i'd close my eyes and think, oh god, now i'm blind. then remember that my eyes were closed and it was SUPPOSED to be black.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

ftr, it's my second or third day at 190 mg. wild stuff!

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

so hey there murph~! (and everybody. hiya youse!) i couldn't wait to tell you this. remember that loose snus i got, well it has coffee in it (it's the energy formula). today i was hoeing out the fridge (a lotta hoeing going on around here, just not the sexi kind), and i found a cut up apple, slightly brownish but still good enough to eat. (can you guess where this is going?) as i was eating this apple, i noticed it tasted strangely like coffee. hmm, maybe i packed it next to somma dem beans. now, i had originally begun eating the apple to avert a cigarette craving. sure was a refreshing alternative! and as i was reflecting on how good it felt to eat the apple instead of smoke, i remembered that i had put that that strange tobacco in my mouth not long ago. an ah-haa moment, to be sure! i fished around with my toungue and, lo and behold, only came up with a tiny soft chunk of the offender, the rest of which was in my belly. then i was extra-glad that i had eaten the apple, hopeful that it would cushion the unwanted visitor to my belly.

[taw]

just got my own bac!

Oh my! Guess I need to get me some apples!!! How have they been doing since the post? Working as a smoke deterrent?

How is the game plan coming along?

[Murphyx]

just got my own bac!

Rudy, that's gross. The whole loose snus thing is well dodgy. It's a small step away from chewing tobacco. I can see you sitting on your step, drinking alcohol from a jar, shouting suggestive remarks at the men who pass by and spitting out huge brown gobs which mostly make it out safely, but some ends up on your filthy dungarees. As your child ventures out you say quit astanding there bein all crine youngn and git back inside and cleen yur momma?s house rilly good now, lessn you wanna git yerself a hidin agin, dagnabbit!

I'm pretty sure you all live in Appalachia. :H

[Ne/Neva Eva]

just got my own bac!

RudyB;1136818 wrote: oh god, now i'm blind. then remember that my eyes were closed and it was SUPPOSED to be black.
:H. I wish there was a bigger, brighter laughing emoticon for when I want to express a good guffaw.
those damn bac SEs. the room goes dark when you close your eyes? hmmm. the other SE, when the room lights up when you close your eyes, is a little more disconcerting until you move on. I think bleep liked it. bleep likes everything, though. he's our own little Mikey. (did you ever notice that that commercial made no sense? they wanted to find out if it was a good cereal, so they gave it to mikey because "He likes everything." If they really wanted to know if it was any good they would have given it to someone with more discriminating tastes. Right???)

RudyB;1136900 wrote: then i was extra-glad that i had eaten the apple, hopeful that it would cushion the unwanted visitor to my belly.

ugh. but beautifully written!

Murphyx;1137024 wrote: I can see you sitting on your step, drinking alcohol from a jar, shouting suggestive remarks at the men who pass by and spitting out huge brown gobs which mostly make it out safely, but some ends up on your filthy dungarees. As your child ventures out you say quit astanding there bein all crine youngn and git back inside and cleen yur momma?s house rilly good now, lessn you wanna git yerself a hidin agin, dagnabbit!

I'm pretty sure you all live in Appalachia. :H

This one almost, almost made me spit out my coffee, murphy.
How did you know? Tho I'm pretty sure there aren't a lot of computers in homes in the parts you're talking about. just sayin. because i'm so damn literal and unfunny these days i even bore myself. can i borrow some of your humor until i get my own bac? much appreciated.
xo to you both, and happy sunday.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

the sun is shining, tables are turned

we are emerging here in new york from days of rain, as am i, from months of shadowy living.

i changed my signature quote to lyrics from my current favorite song (which, if anyone cares to, is worth a listen. i'd love to know how much you like it; you can find it on you tube). i've added to it at least twice, as the lyrics speak to what so many of us are going through, or will go through soon. la mari of chambao has the most exquisite, haunting voice. she is also a cancer survivor. a chambao is a tent often pitched on a beach for a party (like in southern spain, oooh), to help shelter from the sun and wind. some of chambao's videos feature these parties which are full of very happy feelings.

my next trip might be to spain, where i will find some joyous people, to dance with barefoot on a beach, and play with language like a favorite beach toy.