just got my own bac!

[Murphyx]

just got my own bac!

RudyB;1140723 wrote: i once caught crabs, but i think they were from a vintage pair of corduroy whatchamacalits (those short pants that horsie people wear). i then gave them to a guy with the biggest knob i've ever known. i never slept with him again! but that was okay. he didn't feel right sleeping with a white woman anyway.

...well not with one who gave him crabs. He probably wondered what else you might be riddled with. :H

Plus you buy secondhand clothes?

[bleep]

just got my own bac!

i'm listening to the boatmans call as a result of the posts in another thread, and it's one of the best albums ever, i feel duty bound to state.

i second all these questions about getting crabs from your clothes purchases? where in god's name are you buying your clothing from?

i'm glad you decided to continue posting here. a blog that suddenly started where you are now would make little sense anyway, and going back to fill in the story would be hollow. please keep the posts coming...

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

why thank-ye bleep. i shall do. i have missed posting on others' threads, so i'll do more of that, too.

i'm emerging from the voracious need to tell my story in infinite detail. now i realize that that was part of the process; getting to indifference is a pretty HUGE change. and certainly one worth writing about. indeed, all of life's often beautiful details are vibrant again. things like the cheap washcloths really being the best cause they're the perfect weight for washing my face, have been like omens of hope to me.

ok, so the cords. i bought them at the salvation army in '88, burlington, vt. that was the only place to which i could trace the crabs. (and i haven't had crabs since then. if you ever get them, just shave off all of your hair there, it'll make getting rid of them tons easier.)

yes, i did and still do shop at the salva (endearment for that favorite second hand store). they have tons of great stuff that you'll find w a little patience. (and, like i said, i haven't gotten crabs since. that was just a fluke. and i always wash the clothes first.) some of it brand new, much of it as-if new. i get many compliments on my skirts, and i love telling those who might appreciate it that i got them at the salvation army. i find lots of shirts for my son for 99 cents. they get stained pretty quickly, and it's no great shakes to turn them into rags. (the ones w sentimental value i save for a quilt or some crafty project i'll be doing now that i'm not drinking.)

yep, the world is my oyster.

[Murphyx]

just got my own bac!

OK, moving away from your pubic area for just one minute if I may (although I can't promise not to delve back into that in the future), how come you're rowing on a creek? To me a creek means a small tributary to a river. Generally, one needs a lake or relatively wide and straight river to row.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

well, murph, i had the same question. it surely doesn't seem like a creek, but that's what they call it. it spills into the hudson, and by comparison it is a creek; not nearly as long nor as deep as that majestic river that was inspiration for some of the finest paintings the world has ever seen. we round the bend, and there we are on the capital H.

Murphyx;1141174 wrote: OK, moving away from your pubic area for just one minute if I may (although I can't promise not to delve back into that in the future)

i love your turn of phrase, murph. i'm sure the innuendo was purely intentional. go ahead, delve any time!

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

look, i did a quote thingy! took me a minute to figure it out, but i did it! next up: you tube videos! (and they might not all be in spanish.)

[Murphyx]

just got my own bac!

RudyB;1141279 wrote:
i love your turn of phrase, murph. i'm sure the innuendo was purely intentional. go ahead, delve any time!

Haaaa an innuendonic response! I'm pretty sure there is such a word as innuendonic, if not, there should be.

I've got a different sort of snus arriving on Weds.
Oliver Twist, Original, Chewing Tobacco Bits

It's called chewing tobacco but it's not. It's basically a squished up tobacco leaf which you use in the same was as regular snus. Hopefully it holds together and doesn't end up like loose snus, which sounds gross no matter how many apples you wash it down with.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

ha ha
i've gotten a shipment from bro in law, can't remember if i told you that exciting tidbit. and i'm smoking a little less, not even snussin' much. i just don't like it the way i used to. i suck in the somke and it feels gross. phew. maybe i'm gonna just drop them like i have in the past. maybe. but i think i'll light up and read right now.

great row today, folks! the real helen was in front of me, and she is GOOD. they only called me by my given name, though, alas. we were 8 in the boat and rowed forever, putting me in a deep meditative state. i didn't go too deep. i just rowed and rowed and rowed. at 7 am, to boot! baclofen tried to keep me in bed, but i overcame.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

so, i'm gonna go up to 220. i have been at 200 for about ten days, and i don't think it's quite enough. i knew there must've been a reason i felt a little too giddy about my fabled switch last week. i've had ale a few times in the past four days. not ever getting drunk, nowhere near that, but reaching for it in a way that feels a little too familiar. like it's gonna do something for me that i can't do on my own. like it's somehow better than food or ginger bevvies or weeding.

i'm not freaked out or anything, not at all. and that's so much thanks to you kind folk here who have shared your wisdom and experiences. seems we all have to play with our doses a bit to find what's right. and it isn't always static.

i was a bit attached to not going beyond 200. that's enough! i'd tell myself, in that typical rudy-competitive-with-herself way. that should be enough! but apparently, it's not. i mean, it could be, with a little more white knuckling. but my hand has been injured, my palms are calloused, and i have blisters on my thumbs, so i don't want to ask any more from these very important extentions of my core.

so i'm going up today. wish me luck. the se's i can manage; i'll have support w my son, and i have no job to do other than on myself. i am so very lucky!

and i just pulled poison ivy for over an hour. very satisfying. now, we can pick berries with a lot less fear of repurcussions. btw, i am finding wild rasperries -and strawberries- EVERYWHERE! how cool is that?!

alright, peace out, folks. enjoy your independence!

xo rudy bee

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

and bleep, as usual your input is spot on. i DO have every reason to keep pecking away at the keys here with my six fingers. i am, afterall, still a cockroach. (reference to some story someone told about the hindered typist, as i am.)

[bleep]

just got my own bac!

cool, i hope it goes well. one of the nice things about going up that not many people realise, is that it makes coming down very easy. if you later decide that 200 is your level and reduce to it, it is far easier to cope with having gone down to it than having gone up to it. all that becomes redundant after a while anyway though, once you fully adjust to a level.

best of luck! and this no capitals thing is really growing on me. i'm sorely tempted to expand it's use into the rest of my posts...

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

glad i can be a positive influence, bleep.

and yeah, what's the harm in going up? coming down will happen at some point, and it will be easy.

now, i WILL lie down for a rest.

[RudyB]

just got my own bac!

you know, i think there IS a lot to be said for the good practice of splitting up doses into frequent and small installments. (thanks, seNor bleep!) now that i'm living the free life here at home, no work pulling at my shirttails, i've been doing just that, and i can't believe how well i can go go go without needing to lie down and crash, which i didn't DO afterall, btw. instead i've been weeding and planting. there are very few square feet not mulched or planted in my quarter acre garden. wow!

and i LOVe not having a child cloying at me every too-often! these days without g have been heavenly! to think i used to drink about them, not knowing what to do with my time. well not no more! springtime is a great time to get sober!


i was gonna go into the city on wed to see jarabe de palo in central park, but, after listening to their latest album, i've decided against it. too much effort and energy to see a band whose latest music is too jumpy and rock-y for me. phew. i've just saved myself a lot of effort! i'll go rowing tomorrow evening instead, and feel quite happy just to stay close by home.

la vida es buena.

[Murphyx]

just got my own bac!

Why just go up 20? Add another 20 or 40 and enjoy the ride. Good things may come of it.

[taw]

just got my own bac!

How goes the poison ivy, Rudy?