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[Isolde]

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Oooh, a run in 45?! Meanwhile, I just laid out in the sun in my backyard. It's the damndest thing though. For the hour that I was out there, there was a lot of intermittent cloud cover, which drives me nuts and makes me feel like I'm wasting my time. Now that I'm inside, there's not a cloud in the sky!! Grrrr. That always happens though.

Enjoy your run, and I hope your TMJ feels better soon!!

[spacebebe01]

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I havent been running or laid in my back yard, in UK its quite chilly here, but I do lay in bed

[redhead77]

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LadyLush;1210210 wrote:

Geez, come on now what did I miss?

Anyway, all is well. Glad you are still here Red!

LL:l
You didn't miss a thing, I did. I thought you were addressing me with the response, since I missed the two responses under it. I wrote you back in a loving fashion, but I said something to the extent that I thought Rud was kind of an ugly name. We all know Rudy isn't ugly, so I was appalled about my response. I was also appalled that I decided to drink enough that I'd miss the two responses under it. I guess I could have deleted the post the next day, but I'm trying hard to keep it real. Even when it's painful for me.:upset: I believe this will be the last bump in my road. I want to turn my recovery elsewhere, outside of myself. I'd like to take what I've learned and help others. And it's really not a like at this point; it's a need.

RudyB;1209731 wrote: hey red, glad you're smiling.

you can get kombucha in any good health food store, and in better food stores you'll find it in what might be called a 'special drinks' section, like with fancy, natural sodas and such. in ny, many food stores have it, but ny tends to be avant garde. dunno about other states. hf store prob your best bet. it's not moldy, but it is fermented, and i don't know how that will interact w your health issues. can you have yogurt and miso? if so, i'm sure kombucha is fine. great luck w your guts!!!

hi everybody! bye everybody!

xo ru
Thanks for getting back to me on this. I will look in the health food store. I can tolerate kefir, and drink it regularly. Maybe it will turn out as well with kombucha.

Isolde;1209796 wrote: I get the same way! It makes me really enjoy cleaning. I hadn't ever heard that before, but then it happened to me and when I mentioned it to a friend of mine, he said that people often smoke when they have something mundane to do or something that they need to focus on. Maybe I need to get some new/better/stronger stuff, I've been putting off cleaning the house lately.



Enjoy! Hope it's not stale. :H

Me too, Is. I have a basement that I need to tackle. Maybe this will make it enjoyable. (if you had the chance to read my original reply this was what I wrote. ) I will add for me, that my basement will take a bit to be handled. I will only have the option for that once!

sjm;1210326 wrote: let's count our blessings and keep those less fortunate in our hearts.

Thanks SJM, this is lovely. Keeping the less fortunate in our hearts, and maybe even helping them with whatever ways, big or small, that we can muster. Talk about sending positive vibes into the universe...:l

I was able to arrange alternative childcare for the end of the week, and I just got done working three 12 hour shifts in a row (luckily my nanny comes home tonight). My work is under going some changes, so my days have been 13 or 14 hours. I'm sorry it took me so long to return for a follow up, but I couldn't find the energy to write about this sooner. I do hope, whatever had you feeling like you needed to take a break Ru, didn't have to do with my post about Rud. If it did, I hope you're all better now. And that you have a wonderful Sunday. It's cold here too (in the 40s), but I'm glad you're still running whether it's cold or not. Keep on keeping on (KOKO). For all of us!

[Doggygirl]

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hi rudyb and sjm and friends!!! i have drug out my nourishing traditions cook book with a new determination to actually make something from it one day. you all were a part of my inspiration so i wanted to let you all know i was thinking about you!!! i hope you are all having a fabulous weekend.

a run in 45 degree weather sounds awesome!! i'm heading out shortly to take a nice long power walk in that sort of weather. life is good.

dg

[Isolde]

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Happy Sunday everyone! I didn't start out feeling very optimistic about it, but my outlook has flipped 180?. Once again, I only slept about 6 hours, and I woke up feeling anxious (this has been happening a lot lately). After an hour of lying in bed and hoping that I could fall back asleep, I finally got up and made coffee.

I surprised myself last night. I went over to a friend's house who was having a party, and there was a ton of alcohol and bad food (pastry-laden appetizers, all manner of chips, cookies, cakes, etc.). I had 2 drinks over the course of about 4 hours, and a very small plate with the healthiest options I could find (a few pita chips with hummus, some fruit, and ONE cookie).

On the agenda today is hitting the gym and then cleaning the house (among a few other small chores). The gym motivation is currently being helped by Bronkaid, as 6 hours of sleep nightly doesn't have me waking up with boundless energy. And I got some new, and supposedly very good, smokeables that I'll try out before cleaning the house.

I went to my 2nd hot yoga class yesterday before going to the party. I can't believe how amazing it makes me feel. I've decided that it's my religion, and my home. I signed up for a 3 month unlimited package deal. The funny thing is that it's during yoga class that I can most see and feel the benefits of all of my weight training. There's so much more I want to say on the subject, but I don't feel that my brain is cooperating with me right now.

Speaking of which, recently I had been questioning whether taking piracetam was still doing anything for me. I usually don't take it on the weekends, and I've noticed recently that when I've been out in social situations and talking to people, I end up tripping over my words and not being able to express myself as well as I know I'm capable of. So it is most definitely still working! And so I'm off to take some now, and then to the gym. And perhaps I'll check back in later and elaborate some more on everything that's swirling around in my mind.

The bonfire threads have been pretty quiet this past week or so. What's everyone up to?

Wishing everyone an enjoyable Sunday. I'm thoroughly enjoying the dark overcast sky and rainy weather today. It feels... cleansing.

[RudyB]

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hey all, i'm so glad i checked in here before my 50 plus !!! degree run! it is so beautiful here today, sunny and wonderful!!!

shit red, my grumps about being on mwo had nothing to do w you or your deleted post that i missed, or anybody else who posts here. i realized after writing that, that i might've made some of you wonder, and i'm sorry and i sure didn't mean to! i think i can chalk it up to my own over-sensitivity and irritability, and the strangeness of human behavior getting under my skin (others', and sometimes my own, of course).

red, if you can take kefir, i betcha anything you will be dandy with kombucha. and i betcha anything it will actually make you feel really good. mine sits on my counter, the one i finally started, and it's starting to ferment and taste real nice, but without a mother!! i wonder if one will soon form, and if i should just leave it alone until then. i must admit, i'm tempted to drink some of it (it is really good, did i say?!), and if i do i could just add some more bought kombucha, maybe kick-start the mother (murph would have fun with that one!).

red again, i hear you on your basement (i have one too, and a garage), and on keeping it real ~ THANK YOU FOR THAT, for always giving realness the way that you do. for the mundane and overwhelming projects, i highly endorse smoking weed, also. it makes the necessary difference between task and project; it colors the otherwise shadowy-grey shades of the cleaning/organizing/purging experience into technicolor gradations.

i most especially resonate with your need to help; i feel it too. i have some ideas about how to do that, and you with your nursing and intelligence, i am sure do, too. with that pull to give back, i've decided the most effective thing that i can do at this point, while i uncover more specific ways to help, is to imagine how it will feel when this world no longer knows the needless suffering of addicts who can't kick their crippling behavior. i've been reading 'the law of attraction', by esther and jerry hicks, and you get the gist of that stuff: 'that which is like unto itself, is drawn.' for starters, i'm making it a regular practice to envision that kind of healed world, i'm envisioning people, one after one, shed the yoke of the beast, and come into their intended glory, turning their 180 and then themselves giving back. imagine the beauty that would bring into the world?! we could flourish as a species!

so glad you got some spare childcare going on, red. makes a shit ton of difference, huh? i got some this weekend too, in the form of the boy's father. imagine that!

i propose that 'rud' be one of my new nicknames, please. i myself have not a speck of yuck over that, i like being mistaken for one of lushie's good friends, and i think it's a funny fuckin sound for a name. so if you don't mind...

love you all. gonna run now...

xo rud

[RudyB]

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isolde, we cross posted. i am so digging your yoga vibe! i wish we had bikram closer to here (that is what you're doing, right?)! my neighbor gal is really into it, but the city is probably our best bet, and an hour and a half is a long hike for a class of that same length. instead, i'm going to dive into a not-hot yoga vibe myself, asap. i can totally relate to how the stretchy niceness of yoga would have you deepening -on all levels- on your other physical training.

speaking of, i'm outie for a run...!

[redhead77]

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Isolde, I'm glad your outlook has turned around. It sounds like you did very well at the party considering all the temptations! I'm off to hit the gym as well, after this post. Luckily, my gym has childcare for when I need it (like today). Then off to run errands with the wee ones and some chores around the house. Nothing too exciting on my end, but I'm just happy to be home after my long shifts. I haven't been sleeping well again, either. I must have woken up about 5 times last night. But since life doesn't stop, I'm plowing through it like you are.

Alright, last time I'm going to change this paragraph. I just want to keep it positive. I share the same feelings you do, in regard to MWO. I'm also incredibly self conscious at times, and it's something I need to work on. Today is one of those days for me! Rud, thanks for your response. It does make me feel better. Have a wonderful Sunday! And I hope you had fun on your run. Okay, I'm off for a while. :H

[RudyB]

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miss red, i sure do love you! it's all good here. i hope you had a wonderful time at the gym. my run was fantabulous. in fact, it is so warm here today (was), that i took off my shirt on my run! good thing i was wearing a bra. teehee. i feel so strong! i LOVE it. here's a song that got me started on my run, a song that is called 'the queen of the street', by my lovelies.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nVxzX8PsPsU[/video]]Reina de la Calle - Orishas - YouTube

on my way from the snowboard shop, i stopped at the tibetan shop, where i met the proprietor, who is cuban! he'd love to join my spanish-speakers group for adults, and has the same enthusiasm for culture and spanish language as i do. how cool! our group will start within the next few weeks...

life is good and the goose hangs high (still nobody has told me if they know that expression).

xo ru

[ifulovelife2]

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RudyB;1212034 wrote:
life is good and the goose hangs high (still nobody has told me if they know that expression).

xo ru

Yes of course. The idiom is known and obvious in its meaning. Clearly the goose behaved in a manner which you decided deserved the death sentence. You didn't just kill it but hanged it high for all to see and take note that if you are upset even slightly, you'll become murderous.

I'm pretty sure it couldn't possibly mean anything else.

[Isolde]

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Roo, your thread drifted onto the second page! That's not allowed. Hope you're having a wonderful Thanksgiving! :l

[RudyB]

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hey, thanks, isolde! i am having a wonderful holiday filled with family, which is partly why i'm absentee at the moment. i shall be back in full swing on the other side of the weekend. meanwhile, i hope you are enjoying yourself, too. thanks for looking after my thread, that's so darn sweet. i like being missed.

xo rudy

[taw]

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hey Rudy! Finally think I got semi caught up on your thread!!! Well, kinda...anyhoo....wanted to pop in and say hi!! Running, huh? Maybe I will give that a try!! A new hobby for me....

[ifulovelife2]

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For the god's sakes woman, how long do holidays go on for in Upstate NY? You're not back yet? Geesh!

[RudyB]

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hiya everybody! golly, i didn't mean to take such a hiatus from here! i used to spend so much time on the boards, but i don't know where i found it! guess my son must've been on the vids more than i care to remember. anywhoot, i'm back again, and i'm here to plead a favor. the following explains it all. don't be alarmed by all the capitals; i typed it in word or something so that i wouldn't accidentally delete it. bear with me, and i could really use some support, so thanks in advance...

My ex, my son’s father, has informed me that he’s moving into my house. He informed me of that this evening, just as I was about to put my son to bed. He informed me of that as he fired up the stove in my kitchen and began cooking bacon for his dinner, which he was about to prepare in ‘his’ house. Since we’re now in a custody battle, he says, he’s done playing nice. ‘I am living here, in this house, and I have a right to. I am done living in the woods.’ (‘The woods’, mind you, is the very same building that he spent all his money on, which has no toilet or running water, thanks to his un-crafty plan. And yes, unfortunately, he may very well have a legal right to live in this house! Eeee-ghads!)

See, he wants child support from me, and I won’t give it to him, which means I want it in the settlement agreement that he has 49% custody (as opposed to 50%, which would legally entitle him to suckle from my salary). So now he’s playing dirty, ‘cause he soiled himself with his bad investment in his building, and he wants me to wipe his ass by paying for it. he thinks I’m moneybags and that I owe it to him, partly because he ‘let’ me stay home with our son for the first two years of g’s life, while we spent ‘lavishly’ on food. (We spent much of j’s money surviving, because he’s not a proper man and he didn’t work for a living, he spent his savings instead. Duhh. Financial rule # 1 not to break.) In his mind, I get to keep the property (that was originally mine), and the monstrous building that he so foolishly built (once I give him a hefty chunk of change, that is), and he’s whining that it’s not fair. He wants more, and he wants it from my blood.

So I’m writing to ask you all for the favor –the honor- of your very positive, very strong –especially when collective- good vibes that this man is somehow made to* leave my house, and that this happens very soon.

*’made to’ because I know he won’t do it on his own unless I agree to subsidize his bizarre, entitled lifestyle with my not-endless funds.

Rather than focus on what I don’t want (like his incredibly bad energy anywhere near me), I am now choosing to focus on the best of all possible outcomes: that this man goes away immediately, and that this divorce resolves swiftly and justly.

Thank you so much for helping me to achieve that end. I really appreciate it. Just by imagining –even for a second- an expeditious and positive outcome for me and my son, you’ll be helping.

And now, I’m off to pen a note to my lawyer.

i love you all, and i've missed you.

xo rudy b