xo rudy
Hi Rudy
Well, you've pressed my "importance of exercise" button (again), so I have to respond by saying what's on my mind.
We rent a house in VT (about 4.5 hours from "home" in CT). In December and January and most of February, its cold and gray and it often seems like such a long drive to torture ourselves in the preternatural cold. And even once we get there it seems too windy, or cold or cloudy or all of the above...or its RAINING...but invariably if we go up the mountain we find that our layers keep us perfectly warm and the snow has been groomed and there is something edgeable and fun to ski on. My wife usually has had enough of this "fun" after 3 or 4 runs and then I often stay out and ride the quad as a single and usually have a great time meeting the young and the old, the locals and the tourists and the weekenders and the skiiers and the boarders and the college students who ski at our area. Its not exactly a "community" but it gets me out of the house and out of my shell and connecting in some small way with others. All of which makes me feel better.
The other thing you mention is that the 'upliftment from exercise lasts for hours'. This is exactly what I experience. The persistent anxiety that floats along with me (like the cloud of dust surrounding Pigpen (remember him?) in Peanuts cartoons) dissipates within minutes of starting exercise for me. When I'm running (outdoors or on the treadmill) I KNOW with absolute certainty that I will feel calm and normal in no more than 5 minutes running and that within 10 minutes my head will clear (no fog) and my thoughts will become organized and practical. For the rest of the run I float in a kind of stress-free zone of sharp focus and well-being and concentration. It is a great, great "happy" feeling. I wish I could bottle it and save it and keep it going but after some hours it dissipates and I often feel the anxiety leaking back in again. If I exercise in the afternoon or for most of the day, the good feeling often lasts up to and including bedtime. The bummer is that while you would think sleep would be refreshing, its often the early morning when the anxiety insinuates its way back into my brain and I wake up already worrying about all kinds of things (many that are in the past and many that are in the future but exagerrated). I don't like to go to the gym early in the morning so this is often the hardest part of the day. Shower, dressing, coffee and getting outside to go to work often help take the edge off.
Lastly, and interestingly (to me, anyway) I think I need the exercise more now that I don't drink. For better or worse, my evening martinis regulated the anxiety pretty well and without them I find that I have to get regular exercise (almost like a replacement for the alcohol). I think I may be nearly as addicted to the chemical benefits of exercise as I was to alcohol. I haven't read anybody else say this, but its what I'm experiencing.
Sorry for going on and on.
I've got my fingers crossed for more snow before next weekend!
Cass
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