Dog Days
Wow can't believe how time is flying, even in the extreme heat and summer doldrums life goes on...
I was drinking gallons of beer in the way of tall boys every day and wine (when I could get other than Boone's Farm or MD 20/20) before I stopped all together on 6/21. Since then I've had two let's call them "tests" where I bought a bottle of wine and drank it all. Both times I got buzzed, but not shit-faced drunk, and was just ready to get the episodes over with and get back on track. The hangovers were not worse than they used to be, but the drunk was not worth it, that's for sure...
Now up to 130 mg/day and having some new SEs that I've read about from other posts: numbness in my fingers and toes occasionally, some pretty bizarre dreams, hard to wake up at times. And very hard to focus on tasks, at work and even at home, simple things like household chores are major efforts. I think about booze sometimes, but it's with a kind of dispassionate detachment, so maybe it's the indifference? I hope so because I'd like to start decreasing my dosage.
Tonight I caught the thread about Bac and anxiety and I too feel as though I'm much more able to handle situations that used to throw me into sweats and keep me away from people.
Exercise is something I look forward to these days, where before it was a boring chore and difficult to do with a constant hangover so usually just blew it off. My weight had gone way up in the last 6 months so it was definitely time to deal with the beast once and for all - thank god for Dr. A!
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