Hi all, I am a long time lurker and first time poster. I have been a daily drinker for the past 20+ years, and finally reached rock bottom October 2010. At this time I made a half arsed attempt at ending my life, which thankfully didn't work!
Shortly after this i stumbled across Dr A and his wonderful book, and having been unsuccessful in persuading my Dr to prescribe bac, went ahead and ordered online.
During november and december 2010 I gradually titrated my way up and up reaching the dizzy heights of 350mg and having a few alcohol free days here and there. Crucially though I did not manage the SE very well and after a bad bout of insomnia or sleepiness, would drop the doseage and return to drinking. This went on for a month or so until I was drinking as much as ever and only taking 50mg of bac a day.
Fast forward to around a month ago, and i decided to try loop style, straight up to 200mg....not a great success, worst headaches and nausia, truly thought i was going to die. The next day, i backed down to 150mg (thankfully no SE) and have gradually over the last few weeks titrated up to 325mg and stayed at that level for a week. I should add that I weigh 95kg.
So looking back on the last two weeks, I have been AF for 12 of the last 14 days, with the last 7 days my first week without alcohol in my adult life! Even writing this seems like a dream. I cannot say that i noticed a 'switch' i just decided one night not to drink, and have tried to stick with it, so far not a lot of willpower has been required.
I am now titrating back down, to explore my maintenance dose (currently at 200mg) and no cravings so far. I am absolutely scared that I will relapse, and the pills will stop working, but so far so good.
Thank you all for such a wonderful community, i have learnt so much from you all over the past 6 months.
:thanks:
Shortly after this i stumbled across Dr A and his wonderful book, and having been unsuccessful in persuading my Dr to prescribe bac, went ahead and ordered online.
During november and december 2010 I gradually titrated my way up and up reaching the dizzy heights of 350mg and having a few alcohol free days here and there. Crucially though I did not manage the SE very well and after a bad bout of insomnia or sleepiness, would drop the doseage and return to drinking. This went on for a month or so until I was drinking as much as ever and only taking 50mg of bac a day.
Fast forward to around a month ago, and i decided to try loop style, straight up to 200mg....not a great success, worst headaches and nausia, truly thought i was going to die. The next day, i backed down to 150mg (thankfully no SE) and have gradually over the last few weeks titrated up to 325mg and stayed at that level for a week. I should add that I weigh 95kg.
So looking back on the last two weeks, I have been AF for 12 of the last 14 days, with the last 7 days my first week without alcohol in my adult life! Even writing this seems like a dream. I cannot say that i noticed a 'switch' i just decided one night not to drink, and have tried to stick with it, so far not a lot of willpower has been required.
I am now titrating back down, to explore my maintenance dose (currently at 200mg) and no cravings so far. I am absolutely scared that I will relapse, and the pills will stop working, but so far so good.
Thank you all for such a wonderful community, i have learnt so much from you all over the past 6 months.
:thanks:
(and thanks, and you're welcome!)
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