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[SlipperyPete]

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I think asinine was the wrong word. I guess I was thinking I was just babbling incoherently. Which I probably do sometimes, like on tuesdays, but today is also a tuesday. And then tomorrow is wednesday . Antelopes

RudyB;1164586 wrote: and be glad you get ANY response about your music! shit, even when i post songs that are in english, nobody remarks. don't be a crybaby, not about this, anyway.

:H

I wasn't crying at all. I was asked for some musical tips and wanted to know if NE liked it or if I should go in a different direction...no crying at all...OK maybe a lil bit

Next up on the non (stereo)typical rap playlist:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lLEYHM6eU4w&feature=related[/video]]Cha Cha Cha - Jimmy Luxury & The Tommy Rome Orchestra - YouTube
Only listen if you're in an upbeat mood and want to hear straight awesomeness

[Bruunhilde]

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For the record, I don't post re songs or any Youtube stuff because I can't access anything from my pc. Please don't think I don't appreciate your sharing, kids.

[SlipperyPete]

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Well I just got a pretty sweet job offer. I'm freaking out now though because of the background check, which has gotten me rejected before. FML

[Murphyx]

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Congrats! Maybe. What's the potential prob with the background check? Do they look into your medical history? For my work I need to have a CRB (Criminal Records Bureau) check, just to make sure I've not abducted and murdered anyone recently, but they don't check on med stuff.

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And do you normally get the job after that check Murph?

Sounds good Slippery.This comes with its own set of problems though, the main one is having to get out of bed before sundown if you start working. Have you considered this?

[SlipperyPete]

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It seems illegal for them to look into medical history...I'm more worried about the criminal check. The things we've done in the past...

And bleep, I've thought about it. My solution is, if I have to wake up early, I'll just stay up all night. I'm sure Ne would agree that's the best course of action :H

[SlipperyPete]

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Rudy, the book just came today

I just started War and Peace last night, but once I finish that I'll get to it. Thanks again! :h

[SlipperyPete]

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Well folks, 2 months ago today I started my bac journey, and I thought this was an appropriate time to write my feelings about it.

Sometimes it's hard for me to feel grateful for what bac has done for me. Not because of any failure on bac's part, but simply because my life is COMPLETELY different than it was 2 months ago. Even though 2 months isn't even a blink of an eye, my alcoholic life seems so far removed that it can be hard to realize how bleak my life was only a short time ago. I literally have to concentrate and think back to remember how I was. I won't ever forget where I came from, or the things I did, but I don't need to focus on the past to plan for the future.

And that's the best part...I CAN plan for the future! No longer am I trapped in a nightmare, unable to act due to fear, anxiety, shame and regret. The life that I have ahead of me will be decided by me, not by alcohol or alcoholic thinking.

Baclofen so far has been everything I'd hoped for, and so much more. I've tried AA, in-patient rehab, out-patient, sober homes, and a whole galaxy of medications, but nothing's ever done anything for me. I'm not one of those people that can pray in the morning, pray at night, and pray all day for someone to fix me. I'd always held on to the hope that someday something like this would come along, and I am so grateful that it did. I know people have different thoughts about what it means to be "normal," but I call bac my "normal pill." It's brought me back to how I felt when I was a kid, and still somewhat "normal." That anxiety-for-no-reason, depression-for-no-reason, self hatred, shame, and cycle of getting wasted every night, all of that is gone.

I know not everyone experiences this, but for me, bac has been nothing short of a freaking miracle. I am eternally grateful to bac, my doc, my family, and especially all of you wonderful people who have helped me find my way.

Thanks to everyone :h

[LadyLush]

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Pete,

Thanks for bringing me back to that moment too. And a whole lot of thanks for making me cry at work!:upset::l:l:l:l


LL

[RudyB]

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pete, that's beautiful. it should go into an archive of tomes on the beauty of sobriety and what baclofen can do to save your life. your story is so heartening.

now, you may not want to share, but what the heck did you do in your drinking days that gave you a permanent scar on your record?! maybe you should start a crimes thread...

[SlipperyPete]

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Lol sorry about that Lushy :l

Rudy, it's just a lot of little stuff, and then some drinking and driving and whatnot. No felonies, and most of the stuff has been dropped, but it's still quite a list. All alcohol-related. My friends think I'm a baby-killer or something when I tell them I get rejected because of the checks.

[Murphyx]

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Nice one Pete, you're a good egg!

[LadyLush]

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Murph,

That Avatar drives away coots!

Sorry Pete, wrong thread


LL:l

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That was a great post to read Slippery, thanks.

[SlipperyPete]

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I saw my doc today and he added Campral for anxiety/cravings. I wanted to just increase the bac since I'm 98.6% sure I'd be perfect if I went up to around 170-200 mg's, but he wanted to try this first and I don't blame him. I'm still not sure what risk he puts himself at for doing the bac, especially w/o trying an "FDA approved" alcoholism drug or whatever. So I'm gonna pick it up tomorrow and give it a whirl.

And my roomie just left forever
She turned out to be a very thoughtful young lady. She had the decency to vacate the premises when she would've been one-girl-too-many (I'm already regretting saying that), but best of all, she saved me a lot of time doing introspection by constantly pointing out every character flaw of mine. I didn't even have to ask God bless her!! :H