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[Murphyx]

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SlipperyPete;1143182 wrote:
So I believe I'm starting to sleep walk. I went to sleep in my bed with clothes on, yet woke up on the couch completely naked, stuff out of place, and for the second time, an unexplained pool of water(at least it tastes and smells like water) on the floor. Looks like the roomate that's arriving in a week will be in for a load of fun.:H

Yikes! I hope he/she is broad minded and not a pervert likely to take advantage of you in such circumstances. I'll be watching all the 'pranks on drunk people' clips on Break, hoping to spot you.

[RudyB]

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pete, yours is the perfect place to tell this: last night, around 2 am, when these things oft happen, i woke with another start and a very audible gasp, though i didn't believe i had been sleeping, to find a girl of about six with long curly hair gently placing a daisy on my chest. she was not my son! what was going on?! flashlight on, girl gone. oh my!

[SlipperyPete]

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Wow Rudy that is creeeepy! Hopefully she didn't look like Kesha:
I would've screamed like the little girl I was seeing

[RudyB]

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who's kesha?

if you want another good dream tale, mosey on over to my thread for the latest...

[SlipperyPete]

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Ke$ha: "Before I leave, brush my teeth with a bottle of Jack
Cause when I leave for the night, I ain?t coming back"

She's a new manufactured singer. Pretty terrible.

I'm not sure how to explain my situation to my new roomate. I think by when she gets here I'll be able to white knuckle sobriety for a little bit until the bac takes care of it. (2 af days in 3 days, go me!) But then she might be wondering why I'm constantly popping tons of muscle relaxers throughout the day haha. The problem won't be just her, but also to potential gf's. I've pretty much just avoided situations where people would be curious as to why I don't drive, or have disappeared for long periods of time(rehab). I kind of just want to slowly drop clues about my past, but I don't know. I've never properly explained myself to people before. Good news is I'm at a point where I think I can talk about my past without shame. I know a lot of people won't understand where I'm coming from, but I guess that's not my problem.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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hmmm. I had lots of quandary about that stuff. When I started to feel a little comfortable about where and who and what and how I was.
Isolde, bless her, said, "WHOA! hold on there. Sit tight, wait a little while, and THEN when the time is right, you can tell..." Those were not her words, but that's what I heard.

You know the first date rule, right? No ex-gf's, no sob stories, no drama. Polite chit chat and listening more than you speak and smiling and stuff. At least if you want a kiss and an answer the next time you call.
The roommate won't want to know much about you to begin with. Lots and lots and lots of time to air dirty laundry, literally and figuratively, ya' know. That's MY .02, anyway.

Kesha is such a train wreck it's hard for me to right her name. Hope she finds bac!

[RudyB]

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wow, great advice ne. would've saved me a lot of trouble and useless second dates if i had been on the alert for losers who didn't abide those rules.

i am asking self those same questions about disclosure of my details. what you both say resonates to the jingle with me. i am so proud of myself that i've been so prudent and self-respecting in this part of the process. in the past i disappointed myself often with my lack of verbal filter and smarts about sharing.

[SlipperyPete]

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Thanks NE, that makes sense. It's just when people really press me for info that I have problems. I'd like to develop a politician's ability to dodge questions, or flip a negative into a positive.
Her: So what have you been doing since you turned 16?
Me: Umm I really like dogs?

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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That's a really great answer, but you've got to tweak it to be effective.

"I really like dogs! Do you? What's your favorite kind? Oh, wait, are you a cat person?"

Truth be told, no one ever really presses on stuff that's deemed sensitive.

I ran into an ex-bf from college several years after we knew one another. I was visiting my brother at BU and in walked James! When I asked him that question, he laughed and said, "working on my golf swing." He became my brother's hero in that minute. pffft.
Of course, James is a trustfund baby the likes of which mere mortals cannot comprehend. And if he is not a politician by now, then he is out-politicking the politicians. But you get my point.

"I just started carving watermelons into beautiful shapes, drying them and selling them on Etsy! It is a labor of love. What about you?"
(You're from Seattle, which is only slightly less crazy-hippy than the Hudson River Valley, but only because it's newer and the drugs are more hard core. I'm sure everyone sells something on Etsy.)

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Ha! I stand corrected. Looked him up. Harvard MBA followed by trading, but on State Street. Sells computer stuff now, including, and I quote, "“Attack” (Competitive Displacement) Campaigns"
:H
He's one of us, for sure. (They almost all were.) Wonder if he's found MWO yet? Jaaaaames!? Are you here??? :H again

[SlipperyPete]

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Haha that's a great idea with the watermelons. Would work in Seattle since everyone here is a pot smoking vegan.

Anyone else have any input on this? I almost feel like being upfront with people since I met this one alcoholic at my last job. He was very unapologetic about his drinking and it was very refreshing, although being an alcoholic myself, I'm sure my reaction differed greatly from most people he meets.

[bleep]

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I was always pretty upfront about it, simply because I couldn't be bothered to hide it. It was always quite obvious by the end of the night anyway. I wouldn't go blurting it to strangers or anything like that, but anybody close to me was well aware of my issues with booze.

[SlipperyPete]

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Hey guys. I wanted to wait until I had something to say before I bumped my thread. I feel like in the last 2 or 3 days I've become a completely different person. I think the best way to describe it is that I've found the "on" switch to my brain. Due to drinking and (I think mainly) depression and anxiety, I had not really been "alive" since I turned 14. I don't know exactly how to describe it, but something was clearly off.

I think for me one of the biggest things is that I'm actually enjoying talking to people and having relationships. As pathetic as it sounds, I'd closed myself off from just about EVERYONE in my life. The only people that even really bothered with me were my immediate family. It's still hard for me to even understand how they had the patience to keep talking to me, but they are truly amazing people. Murphy had called himself a misanthrope, which described me perfectly. After not caring about myself or other people for so long, I'm trying to figure out why exactly I care about people now. But I DO care, which in and of itself for me is an absolutely crazy improvement.

I'm writing this for 2 reasons. One, these threads helped me immensely when I was lurking pre-bac, and 2, I'm actually ENJOYING writing about myself now. In the past, if the subject of me ever came up, I was desperate to change the topic immediately. I don't have to do that anymore.

[LadyLush]

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SP,

Isn't Baclofen wonderful? I am living again too! I found Baclofen by accident here when I was desperately looking for something to give me hope.
I found hope and a life I thought I would never find again. Actually a life better than before because gratitude means so very much more today than it did a very few short months ago.
I am smiling to the heavens for you too!

Cheers my friend for finding your way out :l

LL

[RudyB]

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hey pete!

that's great to read! i'm so happy for you. and at such a young age you're achieving this, what a life you will have!

what are you doing that's different, besides the bac and less/no (?) booze? what activities are you involved in that you dig but couldn't before? please do tell more about how your life has changed...