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[bottlestopper]

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Thanks Rudy and good luck for the start of term.

Last night I drank far too much probably 2 bottles of wine. It was like I was pushing something, I had terrible cravings at about 4pm, much earlier than my usual witching hour, sun was shining and two days left of my holiday so I wanted a glass of bubbly in the garden, had one, very nice, then two.

Went out for dinner with hubby, we shared a bottle of wine and there was half a bottle left, I told them to cork it and we would take it home (I just didnt want any more). Got home and hubby said lets have a glass of wine. I let him have the rest of the bottle cos it is his favourite. Then came my huge mistake I opened another bottle and drank 3/4 of it, did i want it, probably not, it was a habit. It was Saturday night, I was on holiday, I deserved it! Did I deserve the looks from hubbie when he said I thought you werent drinking - Yes. Did I deserve the hangover - yes, the feeling of failure.

So have I hit the switch, I think the answer here is brobably not. Am I drinking less, yes, but I need to listen to my logical voice, and still need to use willpower. I am going to go back AF for a few days, I have a party this weekend so that will be a test, but I will set myself a limit and not go past it. I need to stay on 120 for a while, the SE''s are much better, the sleeping is still rubbish, but other than that most SE's have gone. Then I will go up very slowly by say 10 a week.

Holiday is nearly over, back to reality tomorrow. Thanks for listtening and have a good Sunday everyone!

[SlipperyPete]

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Bottlestopper - having that stop button is amazing, isn't it? I think getting some AF days is a great idea, as is listening to the logical voice. I think soon your sleep will improve, and that should be a huge burden off your chest.

[bottlestopper]

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Hi guys just a quick update. I went down to 100 just over a week ago, to try to stop the terrible night terrors and apnea, and I am pleased to say it has worked. I am not getting the apnea, but still struggling with insomnia, waking up a lot in the night, but managing to stay in bed. Not getting a lot of sleep, but at least I am not waking up with the awful drowning feeling and the horrible anxiety.

The relief from anxiety when I first started bac has also gone and the anxiety is back, but I am handling it with the odd xanax and I also think it is worse because i am back to work on Monday without much sleep over the last few weeks. On the whole I feel, much, much better. No somnolence during the day, just the sleep issues really. The depression has lifted too. yeah!!

However, my drinking is getting worse again. I havent had an AF night now for nearly 2 weeks, most of the time it is only a couple of glasses of wine, but recently I have been sneaking the odd one in the kitchen when hubbie is not looking and with friends round last night I drank about 2 bottles of wine, and had horrible hangover in the night and this morning. Out on a girlie night tonight, so I know that will be similar. So I know I need to start going back up again.

I have to work on Monday, but I dont have to teach until Thursday, so any advice anyone. do I go up by 10 and make it much slower this time. Or should i go up by 20 today and stay here for a week, perhaps going up every friday so that I have the weekend to get over most of the side efffects. I am a bit scared to go back up and have the SE's return, but I am white knuckling any control over my drinking and that is not what I want, I want indifference.

Advice would be appreciated. Thank you

Those of you having terrible SE's, dont give up, just change your dose, go down a bit until they dissappear, they really do, I didnt believe it, but mine have.

[windycitylady]

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Bottlestopper! There you are, lady! I'm glad about the side effects being better, sorry about the drinking. I think you should go back up VERY SLOWLY. I do like the idea of doing it on fridays, so you have a couple days to see how it will effect you. I always have mondays and tuedays off, and I do something similar. Does your hubby know about the baclofen? Is he supportive?
So nice to hear from you! Keep me posted!