Hoping this is the start of my journey to freedom

[gratitude]

Hoping this is the start of my journey to freedom

brilliant Jimmy,
what dose are you taking?? how ya doin'.:goodjob:

[Jimmy-Bac]

Hoping this is the start of my journey to freedom

Hi All,

I still feel something is happening. I went up to 280mg last night, but I did drink again as anxiety crept back in. I'm still trying to keep the acid reflux under control, which is my main problem at the moment. I'm going to try for another night off the alcohol tonight as the other day I felt so much better for it. I'm just keeping an eye on the tiredness and hoping freedom is just around the corner.

Just out of interest, do you know when it happens? Does something literally just click in your mind and you know you have reached the switch?

I'm getting excited thinking I might finally be there. Hopefully not long now. You guys have been amazing for making me feel cared about and I really appreciate it. I'm not sure I would have made it this far without your words of encouragement. :l

I hope my next post will be full of :H:H:H:H

Fingers crossed.

[jimmyjam]

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Good luck Jimmy bac.. I too have increased anxiety on bac. Once I was able to string a few AF days together everything was much clearer and my anxiety subsided. I know it's easier said than done but if you could just string a few AF days together. The alcoholic fog starts to lift and you think much clearer. Just my experience for what it's worth. Also lots of exercise and a few low dose Xanax or klonopin the first few AF days really helps.

[jimmyjam]

Hoping this is the start of my journey to freedom

Just to clarify, I titrated down my alcahol consumption as well ..didn't go cold turkey..which is not advisable from a medical standpoint.

[help4me]

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Hi Jimmy-Bac,

Congrats on getting to 280! You are most likely very close to your switch.

I switched at 275 and had drunk the night before. I remember feeling like I was never going to get to this 'switch' that everyone was talking about. I woke the next morning with the most god awful hangover, and just felt so totally sick the next day. I did not drink. I kept my dose at 275 over the next week and to my surprise, I completely did NOT care to drink that entire week...

I kept thinking to myself that this was the lonngggest recovery/hangover from a night of drinking I've ever had.... However, I slowly began to feel better and better, but still had ZERO desire/care to drink my beloved wine. This continued on and I realized that I had switched.

No bells & whistles, just a complete lack of lust for booze anymore. So, at the dose you are at, keep going up slowly... Sounds to me like you are just about there!!!! God speed

[Jimmy-Bac]

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I think I'm free



Alcohol free for the 3rd night running. Will post tomorrow night to hopefully confirm 'The Switch'. Excited and nervous at the same time.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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That makes me so, so happy. And thrilled. And beyond.

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Call it whenever you want, JimmyB. It's not something that is take-bac-able. It just keeps on going. And giving.

(It's not, for instance, the second date on the stone. You've just extended that little ol' dash in between those dates a loooooooooooong way.)

Oh. Wait. I'll hold off for the congratulations until tomorrow night's confirmation.

[RudyB]

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hiya jimmy! lookin good from here! i'm'a go to bed now, and will check in again tomorrow. hope you'll still be feeling very well then. i suspect you will. life gets better and better, doesn't it? thanks for sharing.

[Jimmy-Bac]

Hoping this is the start of my journey to freedom

Hi All,

I believe the switch has indeed happened. Alcohol isn't even a consideration at the moment. I'm finding a bombardment of emotions flooding in. I still feel alone, but not in a bad way. I have already contacted 4 friends I lost touch with and told them I have been on a long emotional journey and that I would like to reconnect with them. My heart feels weird. Like it has opened up and I want to share my feelings with everyone.

All these years I have been devoid of emotions, trapping them in. Now they are all unravelling and I'm trying to take it all in. Luckily I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow, so can help to make sense of what is happening. For years I've wanted to be able to appreciate the simple things around me, but have been trapped in a bubble. Now I will begin exploring and I'm sure start seeing the beauty all around me.

I can't make sense of it all just yet, but I believe the journey to freedom has just begun. I hope you all are well and will post back as soon as I start making sense.

Life has just begun. :l

[daisy45]

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Lovely to hear JimmyBac!!!! Wish you all the best!!!!:l

[SlipperyPete]

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Jimmy, that's great to hear

And it just gets better and better

[gratitude]

Hoping this is the start of my journey to freedom

holy crap that's cool. yiiiiiiiippppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

[RudyB]

Hoping this is the start of my journey to freedom

jimmyyyyy! this is so great! i am thrilled to the gills for you! another score for the free!

you remind me of how i feel these days. like i posted on my thread recently, i walk to my classroom through the whole long building just so i can say hello and grin at people. i'm sure they want some of what i'm on!

you also remind me that i've been meaning to reach out to an old friend and ex bf with whom i had a real nice soulful connection. he died once from drug overdose and came back to life a renewed spirit, having seen the light and beauty of an etherial existence that most of us don't know until we're gone for good from this plane. sounds a little like what you and i and so many others are experiencing on the other side of baclofen and being drunk, doesn't it?

abrazos!
rudy

[LadyLush]

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RudyB;1184752 wrote: you also remind me that i've been meaning to reach out to an old friend and ex bf with whom i had a real nice soulful connection. he died once from drug overdose and came back to life a renewed spirit, having seen the light and beauty of an etherial existence that most of us don't know until we're gone for good from this plane. sounds a little, though, like what you and i and so many others are experiencing on the other side of baclofen and being drunk, doesn't it?

abrazos!
rudy

Great analogy Rudy! Yay Jimmy! Hopefully you will continue to live this life of freedom.
So right with the dash too:l Neva!

LL

[Jimmy-Bac]

Hoping this is the start of my journey to freedom

Hi All,

It's been a while since I updated my progress. Through lack of reading and research on my behalf, I struggled with 300mg a day for 10days before realising I could have come down sooner. Doh! Anyway, I dropped to 260mg for the last 2 days and my breathing has improved a lot and i'm getting a better nights sleep. I guess I'll drop a steady 40mg every few days and see how I go.

In between the crazy tiredness, I'm still having these wonderful dreams of being free and how much I want to do with my life. Now I'm dropping down and the side effects wear off, it's looking more like a great reality.

I had a bit of a shocker as the online pharmacy is having problems with deliveries. I can now confirm 4rx and aclepsa are in fact the same compnany. I shall add that to the online ordering section. Anyway, I have no pills on the way and I'm down to a 3 day supply which isn't a good feeling. Luckily living in Spain, most chemists seem happy to hand over 1 box of 25mg at a time, so this week my family & I are on a chemist run! All the chemists within 10km over the next week and see what we can haul in.

It's a nice feeling going back down and starting to feel that freedom coming again. I've had many set backs this week, any or all of them enough for me to drink, but I haven't touched a drop! Amazing really and I have to keep reminding myself of that. Safe to say a few Months ago I would have consumed around 12 bottles of wine in the last week and would have been giving it the 'poor me' treatment. Now, just some refreshing sparkling water, a few different vitamins and a 'I'll manage just fine' attitude. Just great!

On another note. I saw my Psychiatrist last Thursday. She just looked at me and said 'wow'. She said it's the best I have looked since i first saw her 3 years ago. She was amazed at the fact I had just stopped drinking. The session went very well and ended with a hug and her saying next time we meet it can be over coffee to discuss how good life is. And with that I walked away and said to the receptionist 'mo more appointments for me. I'm fixed' She have me a big smile and I walked out in to the glorious Spanish sunshine.

I sense there's a pattern emerging here. A very good pattern which I like very much. Now, I just need to focus on the titration down without rushing it and step by step keep walking towards that freedom with a glow in my heart and a spring in my step.