Baclofen, here we go........

[mycall]

So, after attempting to con my GP into prescribing Baclofen for an entirely random complaint, I eventually ended up with a prescription for l pack (84 x 10mg)
Clearly, this isn't going to last very long in the scheme of things, but will enable me to see if i have any massive probs with se's before ordering online.

I am very, very excited, nervous and just a little bit daunted. I hope so much that this can work for me like it has for many of you.

So, yesterday, I started with three 5mg doses spread over the day. Felt fine, although a little spacey and had a weird night's sleep which culminated in an horrific nightmare. Could really do without waking up shouting 'No God, No!' every morning but hopefully that will pass.
Shall do the same today and then add another 5mg tomorrow, adding 5mg every other day. Dunno if that sounds OK?

I feel I must try to moderate my drinking as I start on this journey. Don't feel like I can just stop completely right now, that thought sends me into a nasty little 'poor me' frame of mind and I can do without that atm. Gotta focus on the positive!

I know I have a way to go, but I'm generally a very optimistic person, (won't use the glass half full analogy ) and have a lot of faith that this is going to be a positive experience.

Think this place will be a godsend

Wishing you all a happy Wednesday .....

[Seethepony]

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Go for it, mycall... probably be a good idea ordering more online right now rather than when you wake up and find you have no baclofen left.
Don't worry about a thing, just take the baclofen, steadily increasing the dose and things should fall into place. It's a good sign if 15 mg has a perceptible effect - probably means you won't ever need huge doses to find indifference.
Good luck to you and anyone else out there trying this stuff.

[mycall]

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Ah, thanks Pony,

I'm such a light weight - just holding the pack in my hand had me thinking I was starting to feel indifferent

I think I'm one of those people who placebos work on. Doesn't matter - the end result is the only issue for me, whether its pure Bac magic, my ultra suggestable brain or a combination of the two .....

[tiptronic_ct]

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Hey, mc

I'm sure baclofen will work for you too. The very best of luck with it.

I do think you should place an order immediately. There is really very little point in starting out with the amount you have. That'll also help you to work out a plan - e.g. deciding on a titration schedule and such. I take it you've read through the scientific articles and threads about side-effects, for example?

[mycall]

Baclofen, here we go........

Thank you for your message, I am just about to place an order. Just wanted to make sure I wasn't violently sick or anything on bac before splashing out on ordering.

Is there anyone who orders from the UK who can give me a guesstimate on delivery times?

So this is day three. Took 3 x 5mg yesterday.

Side effects consist of feeling a little swimmy in the head (can't seem to think straight), bit sleepy and have had some really vivid dreams (nightmare on the first night - not nice, but just unusually memorable last night)

I also seem to be pretty driven, which I like! For instance, very intent on cleaning and sorting out my house. This is not normal for me, believe me Anyway, I could just be imagining this but what the heck?

This is what I'm wondering. when people say they feel indifferent to booze, what exactly does that mean? If I fancy a coke, and someone says 'do you want ordinary or diet?' I always choose diet, because I have to keep an eye on my weight and I really can't tell the difference between the two. So if/when one hits the 'switch' is it a similar thing. like, I could have diet coke, fat coke, or a glass of wine, so I think I'll have a diet coke cos it is lower in cals than the other two and it won't have me posting inappropriate status updates on facebook or falling into bed fully clothed (including shoes!)

Also, really hoping to have my low level anxiety improve. I have always been an anxious person. Remember as a child getting into such a panic if my parents went out, that they might have an accident or something. Now this has transferred to worrying about the health and safety of my daughters and hubby (he has advanced prostrate cancer so a fair bit to worry about even without anxiety issues)

Love reading people's posts describing how their anxiety has improved.

Anyhoo, happy Thursday everyone ...

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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mycall;1171997 wrote:

I also seem to be pretty driven, which I like! For instance, very intent on cleaning and sorting out my house. This is not normal for me, believe me Anyway, I could just be imagining this but what the heck?
I KNOW! I love this SE (or whatever)! You would not believe how much different my home looks/feels. It's unreal. And others will testify that this is not at all the Ne-status-quo. I could go on and on and on about it...

mycall;1171997 wrote: This is what I'm wondering. when people say they feel indifferent to booze, what exactly does that mean? If I fancy a coke, and someone says 'do you want ordinary or diet?' I always choose diet, because I have to keep an eye on my weight and I really can't tell the difference between the two. So if/when one hits the 'switch' is it a similar thing. like, I could have diet coke, fat coke, or a glass of wine, so I think I'll have a diet coke cos it is lower in cals than the other two and it won't have me posting inappropriate status updates on facebook or falling into bed fully clothed (including shoes!)

Love the analogy. I think there have been times when it's like choosing a diet coke (ugh!) over the stuff that is actually yummy. But mostly, I just don't care, don't want it, don't think about it. If it's on the table in front of me I still don't covet it. If it's in my glass, I don't really care about it. It's hard to describe. It's sort of like having a soda. Only sometimes I crave soda. The fizzy. The tooth-rotting-sweet. What's not to love? And there is no substitute for an ice-cold-coke-in-a-can, you know? I feel more strongly about that than I do about a frosty beer or a nice chardonnay. Now a really nice chardonnay, or since it's fall, a red, might turn my head because how often does one get to partake? But I can't even remember the kind of red wine I like atm and it's not worth my energy to figure out. (Not beaujolais, though 'tis the season. It's too early for cab. OH! Zinfandel. The red stuff. How much fun would it be to have a really, really nice Zin with a great meal? Not that much fun, actually. A glass of milk will suffice. Who'da thunk. Point is, you won't believe it 'cause you won't remember what it's like to give a hoot.

mycall;1171997 wrote: Also, really hoping to have my low level anxiety improve. I have always been an anxious person. Remember as a child getting into such a panic if my parents went out, that they might have an accident or something. Now this has transferred to worrying about the health and safety of my daughters and hubby (he has advanced prostrate cancer so a fair bit to worry about even without anxiety issues)

I'm really, really sorry about your husband's health. I'm really, really glad that you are doing this for yourself in the midst of that. It will be that much more valuable, I think.
You nailed what I call my anxiety, or irrational fears, with your recollections and current fears. There's a big difference in the irrational ones, ie. "My large dog is going to be attacked by a literally rabid Bad Dog on one of our walks" in my very peaceful neighborhood. I happen to know for a fact that there hasn't been a case of rabies in this county for more than 50 years. (don't ask how I know. I just do.) I also know that though the media would have us believe that there are vicious, malicious Bad Dogs roaming our city streets, I've been in dog rescue for 15 years and have yet to meet one. Yet I had scenarios and solutions for just such an event. Really. I would lay awake at night thinking about how I would deal with such a thing. Now it's just gone and I often walk my dog off leash and even allow her to greet other dogs! Imagine that. (ftr, I don't have kids, so my poor dog is the recipient of much of my irrational fear.)

That said, MyWay, (love the name) the anxiety might get worse before it gets better. Especially since you've got a very full, very stressful, very emotional plate. Plan accordingly, okay? Just my two cents...

Sun's up. Gotta run! Take good care! (Don't run out!!! That's never fun. And almost all of us have done it. Murphyx can help with the timing/where to order/how to manage the ordering thing.)

[mycall]

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Ne, you really can tell the difference between sugar and diet coke? I think I'm in the minority on this one but I really can't. Same with outrageously expensive champagne and dirt cheap Cava (not sure if you have Cava in the U.S, dry sparkly white wine - my downfall!) I'm clearly a very cheap date

I can totally relate to your dog story - just replace the word dog with daughters and we're defs on the same page. I just feel that it's only a matter of time before something bad happens. Then I start worrying that I'm attracting bad stuff with my negative thoughts - arrrgghhhh!!

A lot of what you say is in past tense ('I used to' etc) So do you now feel in control of these irrational thoughts? I'm not expecting to never worry again, just hoping I can chill a bit and be a bit more normal about it......

Yeah, the cancer is a real roller coaster ride, but I would be lying if I said that my drinking escalated as a result of it. That plane left the runway long before he was diagnosed!

Anyway, thanks for the response, very much appreciated

Off to de-clutter the loft now - even if bac doesn't do the job regarding the booze, at least I'll have a swanky, spotlessly clean house

[mycall]

Baclofen, here we go........

Have such a weird taste in my mouth. Can't describe it really, but it's kind of a metallic taste, quite unpleasant.
Not sure if it's a bac thang but bit of a coincidence if not.....

[mycall]

Baclofen, here we go........

..... and also, if eating were an olympic event, just hand me the gold now :0

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Baclofen, here we go........

mycall;1172121 wrote:

A lot of what you say is in past tense ('I used to' etc) So do you now feel in control of these irrational thoughts? I'm not expecting to never worry again, just hoping I can chill a bit and be a bit more normal about it......

Yep. It's gone. As well as regret and remorse and shame. When that stuff comes rolling around and tries to ride on that endless carousel in my mind I *see* it for what it is: Tentacles of that nasty beast. And she's got to go forever. So I send 'em packing.

Without all the silly analogy, the truth is that I can mostly recognize those thoughts for what they are. When I can't I have some trusted friends who help me out with that. (All of 'em I've made here!) And I can assess what's going on and try to deal with it. Exercise. Diet. Meditate. Share. Something. I believe it's chemical, mostly. But I'm trying to own the things, too. The other really amazing thing about it is that it happens much, much less often. Amazing stuff, this sobriety!

Bac(k) to the cheesy analogies: I'm taking a broom and a dustpan to that clutter in my mind, too. If it looks like my home, just after indifference, oy vey! I can only imagine that before and after. (btw, take some pre-pix! I wish I had. Then when I'm feeling blue I could look at the discombobulation of the before and compare it to the relative order of today.)

[Murphyx]

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Ne/Neva Eva;1172004 wrote:
Murphyx can help with the timing/where to order/how to manage the ordering thing.

Hiya MyCall

Have you ordered yet?

[mycall]

Baclofen, here we go........

Indeed I have. Hoping my pathetic, little stash will last until D.Day

[Murphyx]

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Exciting times huh? Where did you order from and what is the EDA?

[SlipperyPete]

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Wow thanks pieapple. I was just about to ask MyCall where I can get some wholesale Gucci shoes!

MyCall - good luck on your journey. If there's one thing bac's good at, it's chilling you out!

[mycall]

Baclofen, here we go........

So, went up a mahoossssive 100% today, from 10mg to 20 mgs - hardcore!!

Am quite nervous about all this, espesh as the new school year starts here on Wednesday and, as a teacher, I need to be (or at least, seem to be) 'together'.

I do feel slightly more chilled. The things I normally worry about seem to be kind of put on the back burner. I am aware of them, but feel a bit .... detached from them... make sense?

Anyway, after reading more of the stories on here, feel very inspired that this will work for me .....