Quick advice needed!
heya windy. glad it's going a bit better. man, restaurant people are a most miserable lot, aren't they? i mean the owners and managers most especially. waiters can be so much fun! but shit, i remember a pile of pissy managers from my days serving table. i sure as fuck hope he'll leave you alone when you do go back on wednesday. sounds like you have some time to do some more art, huh? i'm envious. in high school i had a great art teacher. we were assigned to paint a butterfly. mine turned into a grey moth. partly as a result of that i never felt i could do anything artistic (though teach's response to my moth was fairly compassionate). come to find at twenty years old, while i was in a relationship with a very talented artist who was, unfortunately, also abusively jealous and eleven years my senior, so had the upper hand automatically, that i can actually draw and paint to save my life. it's so very rewarding to do such things! i know that zone that you refer to, when you're in the creative mode. i miss it, and often think of going back there. but time is a factor, and it's hard to find that these days. but you've got some on your hands, so maybe you'll give yourself the gift of that zone again.
anywhoot, it's great that you have your dad. for the gaba and for other things.
let us know how you're doing on your time off, would ya?
and the half pint plus 22 oz of beer sounds familiar, though my drink was always more like your bf's. during the last year, anyway. one solid pint, every night. i felt hopeful on days when i didn't chase it with a beer. it's scary to be specific about our amounts when still consuming, i remember. now that it's behind me, it's much easier. good on you for doing so, and also for not striving toward abstinence with a vengance. we must know our limits, with booze AND with bac. and yes, i am sure i have read about folks who stop short at a dose less than indifference-inducing. that's ok, in my book. you can always go up if you choose to.
i'd better get back to bed...
abrazos y besones, windy.
rudy xoxo
heya windy. glad it's going a bit better. man, restaurant people are a most miserable lot, aren't they? i mean the owners and managers most especially. waiters can be so much fun! but shit, i remember a pile of pissy managers from my days serving table. i sure as fuck hope he'll leave you alone when you do go back on wednesday. sounds like you have some time to do some more art, huh? i'm envious. in high school i had a great art teacher. we were assigned to paint a butterfly. mine turned into a grey moth. partly as a result of that i never felt i could do anything artistic (though teach's response to my moth was fairly compassionate). come to find at twenty years old, while i was in a relationship with a very talented artist who was, unfortunately, also abusively jealous and eleven years my senior, so had the upper hand automatically, that i can actually draw and paint to save my life. it's so very rewarding to do such things! i know that zone that you refer to, when you're in the creative mode. i miss it, and often think of going back there. but time is a factor, and it's hard to find that these days. but you've got some on your hands, so maybe you'll give yourself the gift of that zone again.
anywhoot, it's great that you have your dad. for the gaba and for other things.
let us know how you're doing on your time off, would ya?
and the half pint plus 22 oz of beer sounds familiar, though my drink was always more like your bf's. during the last year, anyway. one solid pint, every night. i felt hopeful on days when i didn't chase it with a beer. it's scary to be specific about our amounts when still consuming, i remember. now that it's behind me, it's much easier. good on you for doing so, and also for not striving toward abstinence with a vengance. we must know our limits, with booze AND with bac. and yes, i am sure i have read about folks who stop short at a dose less than indifference-inducing. that's ok, in my book. you can always go up if you choose to.
i'd better get back to bed...
abrazos y besones, windy.
rudy xoxo
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