I can not afford to drink anymore, health wise I am sooo bloated, tired, haggard looking, I never exercise, eat like shit, consume endless liquid calories each evening. I can't buy any clothes because I can't afford it because I am so addicted to smokes and booze, I probably spend around $800 a month on the two and I don't make a lot of money. I am stuck in a dead end job and I know it is the alcohol keeping me there.
And the endless bottles, I just looked at my kitchen and there are five empty wine bottles sitting on my counter and two empty ones in the fridge and I swear I just took out the f.....ing recycling!
Got into a fight with my teenage daughter this week and she called me an alcoholic for the first time. Nice.
Had a bad experience a couple of years ago when I was in a car accident. They require all your medical history, it was quite humiliating to sit there and go over that shit with a lawyer as he kept on finding notations from my family doctor about my alcoholism. I hate that doctor now and I finally have a nice new doctor and I don't want him to know how much I drink. The new doctor wanted me to get some blood work and I didn't because I knew that B12 deficiency marker would show up as it always does on my blood work.
And reading someones post on here about how their own mothers final days, just hit too close to home. I am very close to being an old single drunk woman living on her own. Dying on my own, broke. I had some money saved and I just realized I drank it all away. No money for my daughters University. Sorry kid, I drank your education away.
I know I am just whining here, I hate to feel sorry for myself but I really feel like I need a good clop to the noggin.
Does anyone know a Dr. in BC that would take a new patient and also prescribe me Baclofen? PM me if you can. Thanks.
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