An amazing thing happened, maybe

[Ne/Neva Eva]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

PILL BOX! That is one piece of advice I can give unequivocally. Trust me, it's worth the $2.99. At one point I was taking so much, and so out of it, I couldn't count, much less figure out what I'd taken and when. Keep it really simple!

[GingerDust]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

Thanks! I'll pick one up when I pick up the Bronkaid. So far this day has totally gotten away from me. But it's been a good day anyway.

[GingerDust]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

I am plowed. I've only had six beers but I am beyond gone, and not in a good way. Not a kind way like beer is generally kind. I really hate this. Not liking it one bit.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

Sorry Ginger.
You'll feel better in a while. Then you won't have to do it ever again.

[GingerDust]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

Thanks, Ne. I was hoping to return to work but I'm going to give it another day.

[GingerDust]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

Last night was really bad. It was lie down or fall down. My husband was really mad at me because I was such a wreck and the house was in similar condition. I'd been canning, which is very messy work, but it took hours longer than it should have and I didn't clean up. I think it must have looked like this to him:



But I think the guys in the picture were having more fun than me.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

Morning, Ginger!
Nice piccie. I'm decorating (read massacring) pumpkins atm for a huge benefit tomorrow night. My dining room/kitchen look a lot like that, in orange. With glitter and flower petals thrown in. It's a hot mess. Ah, well. There's glitter involved, so all is well. It's over soon, everything will be cleaned up, and hopefully someone will notice the work I've put into it. And truthfully, no one will remember this years chaos. Even i forget, and sign up to do it year after year... (Actually, the dog might remember. She's been banned from glitter-y areas due to two baths in one day to remove the sparkly stuff from her fur. She doesn't mind the baths. She HATES being left out. spoiled mutt.)

Like everything else, there was an ebb and flow to this bac thing for me. Up, down, with no hint (I thought) as to what I'd find next. But the truth is that I think it can be planned for a bit. I did that toward the end. Counting pills, setting alarms, keeping track. That was a really good thing. Getting enough sleep, treating myself gingerly, and asking those around me to bear with...Those things made a huge difference, too.
I figured if it worked it would be the last time I would be making lame-o excuses about why I couldn't do things. (Go out/talk on the phone after 7pm. Be where I said I was going to be, when I said I was going to be. Get to work without a hangover, with my A-game on. Brush my teeth before I passed out. you know, the big things. )

And it worked. And now I'm still late a lot (dangit.) But it's 'cause I'm busy meeting expectations. Not because I can't plan a full day without something going awry.

My point is this: (Finally, Ne! sheesh!) It is an entirely individual decision about where/what/how to take the pills. But there is an end point. It is in sight. And then it's over.
Staying in one place, going down and staying in a more comfortable place, both with an eye to going up in the future, or staying right there and allowing the bac to do it's thing over the long term...Those are all good options. It's simply a tool. Using it, and other things, to find the goal, is a really good idea.
And you know what? Decisions about what to do and how and when? Much better left for the morning light, because the nights can really suck. Being exhausted is overwhelming.

Hang in there, Ginger! You make me laugh! I hope you'll stick around and play for a while, no matter what you decide!
:l

[GingerDust]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

Thanks, Ne. When I picked up the Bronkaid today, I picked up a package of allergy med too. It's Zyrtec-D. It seems to help a lot with both the swollen throat feeling and the breathing thing. I don't if that's due to a reaction to this dose of baclofen or a regular allergy. The other strange thing is that it does not make me sleepy and normally it would. It even seems to be countering balcofen sleepiness, at least so far. I have not taken the Bronkaid because I figure that I have enough of a mix going already!

Still going but I am going slower. So far I've only had 60 today so won't get above 140 today, probably more like 100. But it's a LOT more comfortable than it was before! Booze is still like an afterthought, not like the point of my day. But they're not getting warm, so it's not enough baclofen.

But people who are having trouble with the thick throat/breathing thing might want to try an allergy med. It's working for me so far (fingers crossed).

[bleep]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

I found that the best way to get comfortable on baclofen is to be consistent. Obviously that's impossible when you are titrating up, but try and help yourself by doing it smoothly. Leaping around in your dose just adds another element to deal with.

[RudyB]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

sounds like a bumpy ride, ginger. eeek. we've all been there. but bleep is right: stay steady. pill box might help. erratic can make you agro. above all, keep the faith: this will work!

as you've probably read on my thread, altering my dosing schedule so most of the bac went down earlier in the day made a HUGE improvement for me. when i was ramping up at night, i had that experience that you described several posts back: zooming around in physical hallucinations, and all kinds of other weirdness. (alas, i got behind on my dosing today, such that i have 80 mg still to take before early to bed. ergh. but the hallucinations were fun... ...oh, i SO relate to what you said about chasing the bac high! but now that i'm 'indifferent' again, i am not even inclined to do that anymore. cool!)

stay strong, woman!

[Bruunhilde]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

What bac high? How high did you go to get that? I'm wondering if its a dose level or a difference in how we react to bac - the successful vs the unsuccessful? Just curious.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

Hiya, Ginger!
Been a while. Did you decide to got down? How are you? Are you still visiting here?

Hope you're well!

[GingerDust]

An amazing thing happened, maybe

Ne/Neva Eva;1197891 wrote: Been a while. Did you decide to got down? How are you? Are you still visiting here?

I?m not around much, obviously.

Thanks for the supportive messages.

I?m doing good. I am not abstinent but haven?t been drunk in a while. I don?t know how long it?s been exactly, but it was still warm outside and the leaves were on the trees instead of on the lawn. Just now while writing this it occurred to me that hangovers are history. I don?t miss them one bit!

At first I felt ripped off that I couldn?t do the whole routine, but now I think what I got out of it is even better. I can drink but I just don?t do it to excess. And when I don?t drink, I?m okay with it. In some ways it?s even more of a miracle than what I had hoped for. It turns out that an amazing thing really did happen.

One warning to peeps about the modafinil (recommended by someone here). It is very powerful stuff! I would recommend starting with ? pill and see how that feels. Half a pill was too much for me. It also seemed to cancel-out the craving suppression thing that baclofen does so well. I didn?t like it.

I?m off to get ready for a party tonight and decorate. No crappy candy corn, trashy taffy or sniveling snack-sized candy at our house this year. We?re going to send trick-or-treaters into super hyped-up sugar buzzland!





I expect we'll have a few repeat customers.

Happy Halloween everyone! Now, go out there and be ghoulish, promote gluttony and tooth decay, and scare somebody sober!