Me, myself and getting sober

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Me, myself and getting sober

SUPERSPACE. I super love it. Sorry you're not feeling it, but Batman and Spidey have bad days too. (I just watched part of one spiderman movie--the one where he has a black suit and he becomes bad-spidey. I SO get that. Some days I have my black suit on. Thing is, I don't want to wear it too much or it might just feckin' take over. If you haven't seen that part of the movie you will not have any idea of what I'm talking about. Sorry. )

spacebebe01;1322153 wrote:
... since Ive been taking seroquel Ive been very unsure about whether I want it or not, or what its doing for me, the crap that I get in my head is pretty well not there anymore but Im not sure I think that may have been the case on the venlafexine before the psychiatrist changed my meds.

Maybe the bad thoughts are more frequent when you're not sleeping well and the seroquel or other meds help you sleep? I dunno, of course, it's just a thought. I do know that it's my experience that not sleeping really messes up my thinking.

Friends are a pain in the ass, in some ways, but thank goodness for them. I'm trying to figure that all out, too. Who do I want to be friends with? How much time should I spend being friends/with friends? Does this (MWO) count? (Do you have to know a first and last name to be friends? :H Talk on the phone? Go to a concert? What???)

I'm sure you're in the middle of your day and out with your auntie now. I hope the visit goes well and that you're feeling better.
xo

[suneelca]

Me, myself and getting sober

Space -- really feel for you.

We're always walking a fine line on this forum, it seems, between relating our experience and sort of making suggestions about what one might do given one's situation. Given that I'm not a doctor, etc., and no one's situation is similar.

My experience -- and the reason I have been wanting to get off Seroquel, is that I was experiencing a lot of somnolence. I was attributing that, based on discussions with my pdoc, to the combination of Seroquel and Bac. But the transition off of Seroquel is rough in terms of 'rebound anxiety' and some paranoia, frankly, that has landed me in a blow up with people who work for me over the past week (not good at all). Plus there's added insomnia from taking away a sleep med.

A solution to the transitional anxiety! Bac earlier in the day, and ready to try upping the dose per Dr. A's observation in the book that he would add 20 to 40 mg of Bac to his regular dose of 120 mg on days when he felt particularly stressed and anxious.

For insomnia, using Lunesta plus some Advil PM (ibuprophen plus benadryl). Also, I find that Bac now energizes me if I take it earlier in the day -- the somnolence and anxiety resurfaces about four hours later, and so then, I take another dose.

To wit, I was diagnosed as bipolar -- which I think was incorrect as only Bac seems to have done the trick in terms of stabilizing me and pointing the way toward my leading a reasonably good life. I have much to work on, including connecting to the human race and not letting occasional anxiety get the best of me.

Moral of the story for me repeated: 1) Trying to get to a point where the only meds I take are Bac, and perhaps Lunesta and 2) I wish I'd never started Seroquel to begin with, now that I know what I know about the difficulties of getting off of it.

Hope you're having an okay day, and were able to stay awake!

[DizzyBee]

Me, myself and getting sober

spacebebe01;1321813 wrote: I like the idea of SuperSpace, I will start designing my outfit now, I need to loose some weight before I go running round in a Lycra one piece tho:H

Sorry I'm a bit late

BBBUUUTTT

:H:H:H:H:H

[DizzyBee]

Me, myself and getting sober

Sorry but I'm a speed reader and sometimes I just read bits and blotches - not nice, I know, hard habit to break. I did a degree in Communication/Media and then started my career as a media scanner. So I read more papers in a year than the average person does in their life in one year.

Guess when I became depressed. Been on a news diet ever since... I digress...

I first saw Space loving Superspace and then saw Ne's comment on Spidey having a black suit...

No, no, no. Now, don't you dare missy! You'll just have to (well if you have to diet first, thats your prerogative) first start out with your garden variety everyday SuperSpace outfit before you can try on your EvilSuperSpace outfit. There is only so much I can take in a day.

:l

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

Right now Im more SlothaSpace than superspace.

I havent got the energy to post on more than one thread, today went ok, I got my auntie to the hospital, saw my uncle and left them while I went and got a coffee, I cant sit for 2 hours in the ward with them, then went back and got her and took her home. I thin went to my sons school for parents evening and he got really good reports and marks from all his teachers except one, his art teacher, I asked her why she was the only one who had given him bad marks and she said he was too slow in class. He already is down for getting help when he needs it so why didnt she get help with him in the class, anyway I will sort that and Im so happy that he is happy and doing really well. He was nearly in special needs class because his reading and writing is slow so hes not going to suddenly jump to mastermind standard but he is improving loads.

Ive forgotten to take my bac and gabapentin at lunchtime because I was out, then at teatime cos I was still out but have taken 2 doses today and then 1 at bedtime is still at the right dosage just timed different. Also no other supps today but I will take my calcium and vit d that my doc recommended for my bones.

Im now done in, its not even 9pm and Im ready for bed.

Goodnight xx

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Me, myself and getting sober

DizzyBee;1322327 wrote: ... first start out with your garden variety everyday SuperSpace outfit before you can try on your EvilSuperSpace outfit. ...
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spacebebe01;1322377 wrote: Right now Im more SlothaSpace than superspace.

:H:H

I think I was watching the third spiderman movie. So there're at least two beforehand when he is squeaky clean and shiny, before he tries on the bad side.


Night, Space. Glad it was an okay day. Sorry you're wiped out, though. And congrats on the marks and kudos your son received. :l

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

Im still awake, every summer I get beetles in my kitchen, they make me sick, right now they are little baby size but I know soon they will be big horrible things. Does anyone know how to get rid of them, kill them, take one and torture it so the others run away. I dont care I just need them gone. I have just killed 5 of the baby ones but I know 100s are lurking somewhere waiting to grow and have more horrible babies of their own. I dont know where they are getting in and have tried pouring bleach all around the walls outside and inside but they still come in!! it doesnt seem to affect them.

[Bruunhilde]

Me, myself and getting sober

I think boiron? A white powder that is toxic? Notice how sure I am. Maybe also reaearch de.

Kindle if u r wondering...:h

[playland]

Me, myself and getting sober

What are the kind of beetles? Where did I see a post or article about boiron somewhere here in this forum somewhere, Dizz, do you know where that is? something about how the old time remedies are not being used any more because the drug companies pushed them out so they can make the money, including medications, insecticides, etc., it is here somewhere, or we can google it I suppose, I will look for it. Space, I hate those beetles also, if they are the same thing we call them "cockroaches", and they are pretty gross, they start tiny and grow fast and furious, promise I'm going to search for how to get rid of them.

[Bruunhilde]

Me, myself and getting sober

Play, I wrote something about that, and I was shopping for boron for ants and it works for roaches too. I spoke with the pharmacist about ordering it and he said people don't use these old time remedies anymore since other products are so heavily marketed. Very Profitable Poisons. My sister uses boron for vaginitis/yeast. Actually its boric acid.

DE works for fleas.

[playland]

Me, myself and getting sober

Bruun, do you buy it at the pharmacy or can you order it online? I want to start using it, can you remind me where your post was, I remember it now and it was an awesome post, I'm remembering it now and thinking how much I enjoyed it and was wanting to use the stuff.

woops, have to run, back later,
play

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

I have ordered some spray if that doesnt work I will get the boric acid. I dont like using these things because they kill spiders as well and I like spiders, but I need to do something I found another 7 today. I have hoovered and mopped everywhere. My back is really hurting but Ive got to get rid of them they creep me out. Last year when they got big when I came down to the kitchen of a night they would all be walking round then start running away when I turned the light on and I would have to try and shovel them all up and throw them outside and then try to squash them, or put them in the bin and pour bleach over them.

I want to change the subject now I think weve all spent enough time on beetle control

I didnt get up until 1.20 today, well that after getting up at 7 with my son then going back to bed, and I have felt ok since. but really I cant be spending 1/2 the day in bed all the time, well not everyday I need to do things.

I am still drinking too much, the increase in the bac is making no difference, Ive taken 60mg today already and dont know whether to just take the extra one tonight before bed, but Im not sure why Im taking it at the moment because .... hang on thats crap, my drinking is nothing like it was, what the hell am I talking about, but its still to much. I should use more will power but I just dont seem to have it right now. Im too exhausted to even think about it. Earlier on I was talking about going on a low carb diet, whatever, who am I trying to kid. I had a mars bar for breakfast today!! Oh well, onwards and upwards, or onwards and onwards on a very little incline up so long as its not onwards and downwards

My god I dont half waffle

[Bruunhilde]

Me, myself and getting sober

Thanks Play. No idea which thread. Try a word search for boric acid in posts by me if you want. I am not sure how much additional info was there tho.

Space. I had to start AB again; predictably with time I got out of control. At least this 3 day weekend wont be a sick one. I have gotten so fatigued and ill I canceled a biz trip which I never do even if I am violently barfing all night. Tgi AB.
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[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

Thats great Bruun, that your knocking the drink in the head with AB, I am not loosing control but definately drinking too much and staying up too late of a night and I am thinking Im not going to sort this with out some AF time which I can only seem to get from AB. Im still not decided.

[Bruunhilde]

Me, myself and getting sober

I understand but renember we make AL mu h more important than it Is. And AB seems like a big decision ... felt that way for me. But after dinner I had some chocolate and watched Tv and took melatonin Xanax and baclo to ensure I had no anxiety and would sleep. Slept at around midnight and didn't wake tip 9am! Totally need to catch up on real sleep. Here we go again.