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    #1

    Me, myself and getting sober

    I have decided to start off a new thread for a couple of reasons, 1, I have a totally crap memory and want to try and diary my recovery and here is as good a place as any, 2, I welcome comments, advice or anyother thoughts from you all, and 3, bu making this public I am confirming my desire to be sober.
    I am presently around 2 weeks or so AF, Im not sure when I stopped drinking as that week of drinking is still hazy. I drank for about 5 days after around 4 weeks AF. Before that I drank for about another 5 days, the bender before that was for about 2 weeks. I havent always been a binge drinker, that started when I tried to stop drinking probably around 5 years until then I drank every day with barely a day AF although for a lot of that time I think I kinda functioned, which is something I no longer do when I drink.
    Anyway thats enough history back to today, I am staying sober right now using antabuse, I doubt if I would have made it 2 weeks without that, I am also taking Campral, Ciprilex and amityptoline, the last 3 meds are prescribed for me by my doctor and I got the antabuse from a family member because my doc refuses to prescribe it to me. I am spending a lot of time in bed, my depression is not good and my anxiety levels are pretty high although so far today I am feeling ok. Doc reduced Ciplralex dose on Friday wanting to change me to another antid because I have felt so bad since starting that on about 2 months ago. I am mostley feeling bad and white knuckling it right now knowing I cant drink due to antabuse. I have ordered bac on-line a few days ago and I also already ordered neurontin (?I think thats the name) before that to try and help me deal with my moods on very bad days.
    I did try bac earlier on in the year but was due to start a new job which I lost anyway due to drinking and rushed the titration and ended up drinking and taking high doses of bac, not at all something to be recommended. My family are totally opposed to me doing this, my son because of concirns over buying meds on-line and them being dangerouns, also he is concirned about taking meds without doctors support, my daughter because she thinks Im trying to take an easy way out and wangle my way back into drinking, also the expense. So I am worried about it not being me here when the post arrives and someone else opening the pakages.
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    Me, myself and getting sober

    perhaps you could call Dr. L and get a script and some advice from him?
    I'm pulling for you and can't wait to read your posts of indifference when it happens. grat.

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      gratitude;1204300 wrote: perhaps you could call Dr. L and get a script and some advice from him?
      I'm pulling for you and can't wait to read your posts of indifference when it happens. grat.
      spacebebe, I was thinking this exact same thing. Then you WOULD have the support of a doctor, and maybe then you would get more family support? Support sure helps I think.

      Congratulations on sucking this up and staying AF even though it sounds miserable. I hope the bac helps you with the anxiety and this can become more comfortable / eaiser. :l

      DG
      Sobriety Date = 5/22/08
      Nicotine Free Date = 2/27/07

      One day at a time.

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        Me, myself and getting sober

        hey bebe,

        good on getting started toward a better life! keep us posted on how it's going...

        all the best to you,

        rudy b

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          Me, myself and getting sober

          Hi bebe,

          I hope you're doing a little better today - I'm sure you've mentioned them but I don't recall, if you're taking gaba or tryptophan or some other supplements? Magnesium could help you out alot right now. It's calming and helps you detox so maybe you'll feel better faster.

          Congrats, keep up the good work, it will get better. Your daughter obviously doesn't understand addiction. We do, keep posting.
          :l

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            Space ,
            Tell us when you get the package. Are you taking Bac now for anxiety?


            LL
            The hardest arithmetic to master is that which enables us to count our blessings.

            *Don't look where you fall, look why you slipped*

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              Thanks for the replies, Im not taking bac now no, havent got any yet, but I do take magnesium although I didnt know it could help with anxiety I take it with my calcium and vit d because Im menopausal and dont want to go breaking bones all over the place, Ive got enough to deal with without a hip snapping every time I turn round! not sure what GABA or typrophan is but will look it up. I am feeling better though after reducing the dosage of cipralex and also less craving and I am thinking that is connected. My doctor is a knob where addiction and mental health is concierned but he is still saying he cant refer me to anyone else. I should probably change but dont know of a better doc and dont want to risk ending up with a worse one. I am in UK so no go with Dr. L. I could see Dr Chick but ?200 consultation fee & train fares is not on the cards for me right now.

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                Take more magnesium, seriously, its a huge deficit in the modern diet as is fish oil and both can help with depression over time.

                spacebebe01;1204585 wrote: Thanks for the replies, Im not taking bac now no, havent got any yet, but I do take magnesium although I didnt know it could help with anxiety I take it with my calcium and vit d because Im menopausal and dont want to go breaking bones all over the place, Ive got enough to deal with without a hip snapping every time I turn round! not sure what GABA or typrophan is but will look it up. I am feeling better though after reducing the dosage of cipralex and also less craving and I am thinking that is connected. My doctor is a knob where addiction and mental health is concierned but he is still saying he cant refer me to anyone else. I should probably change but dont know of a better doc and dont want to risk ending up with a worse one. I am in UK so no go with Dr. L. I could see Dr Chick but ?200 consultation fee & train fares is not on the cards for me right now.

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                  Me, myself and getting sober

                  Goodluck spacebebe01 hope it works out for you.


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                    I will start taking more magnesium today, I also take omega 3 oil and not sure if I need to take fish oil as well thanks Bruun. Thanks Mario

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                      god, spacebebe, you sure have a lot on your plate right now. i just re-read your first post, and here is what comes to mind, in no particular order...

                      time in bed, lotsa time in bed... how much do you exercise? is it a part of your daily routine? it's scientifically proven to be a highly effective mood enhancer. maybe increase movement in your life?

                      your family, oh your family! i'd say be as open and honest and simple with them as you can. tell them, 'look, i'm trying to get better from this crippling disease/problem/challenge/whatevertheywillhear, and i am exploring all options for recovery, with sincere hope that i'll soon stop drinking. i would appreciate your support in my efforts to be sober. it would mean a lot.' something like that.

                      see what you might do to get a script (though i think i hear that it's mighty difficult over there to do that, alas), to legitimize it for your family. failing that, print out some articles from the 'consolidated baclofen information thread' (i'll bump it so you'll see it on pg one), and share those with them. it is hoped that if they can tap into the sincerity of your wish to be sober, they will respect the efforts you put into finding a way to become that. it is hoped!!!

                      good luck, bebe! please keep us posted. i'll chime in again if i think of anything else....

                      xo rudy

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                        Thank Ruby, to be honest with you apart from getting a doctor on side, which I doubt is possible, Im not going to make much progress with my family over the meds, they are just totally against the whole idea. That is there opinion tho and Im prepared to carry on as planned they are very supportive of my getting sober in any other way, its just that they cannot understand why I feel the need for this. Its only after the years of trying every other way I can find that I am going the meds way. Im waiting on delivery of bac, still AF taking antabuse and campral, I think again today there have been times when I might have drank if not for the antabuse but Im prepared to carry on like this because I know its not forever, just until the bac arrives.

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                          Bruunhilde;1204715 wrote: Take more magnesium, seriously, its a huge deficit in the modern diet as is fish oil and both can help with depression over time.
                          I didn't know that, Bruun. I take 400mg at night in an attempt to help with my teeth clenching and to help my muscles relax (it's also good for regularity). How much would you recommend?
                          Better Living Through Chemistry

                          Switched at 180mgs of Baclofen on 1/31/11, and again on 10/8/11 at 200mgs.

                          Could've been a swan on a glassy lake, could've been a gull in a clipper's wake. Could've been a ladybug on a windchime, but she was born a dragonfly.
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                            spacebebe01;1204947 wrote: Thank Ruby, to be honest with you apart from getting a doctor on side, which I doubt is possible, Im not going to make much progress with my family over the meds, they are just totally against the whole idea. That is there opinion tho and Im prepared to carry on as planned they are very supportive of my getting sober in any other way, its just that they cannot understand why I feel the need for this. Its only after the years of trying every other way I can find that I am going the meds way. Im waiting on delivery of bac, still AF taking antabuse and campral, I think again today there have been times when I might have drank if not for the antabuse but Im prepared to carry on like this because I know its not forever, just until the bac arrives.
                            Even if you can't get your family on your side in regards to bac, hopefully just their support of you getting sober will be enough for now. I'm sure that they'll be much more supportive of bac once they begin to see the changes in you. Good for you for making a decision to do what you feel is right for you, even though your family isn't on the same page (at least not yet!). Good luck, and keep us posted!
                            Better Living Through Chemistry

                            Switched at 180mgs of Baclofen on 1/31/11, and again on 10/8/11 at 200mgs.

                            Could've been a swan on a glassy lake, could've been a gull in a clipper's wake. Could've been a ladybug on a windchime, but she was born a dragonfly.
                            ~Clutch

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                              I have just got an e-mail telling me that my bac is delayed and wont be here until the end of the month, Im well pissed off, oh well just have to wait longer, if I can I will order more from another company tommorrow. I hate it that Ive made a decision to do this and just want to get started and now i cant.

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