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    spacebebe01;1316968 wrote: ...Why dont I not drink the lager, I panic that I will start craving vodka and thats now becoming a fear, thats a change in attitude, vodka was never a fear before it was a forbidden fruit.

    The thought of leaving the estate I live on is giving me panic attacks, I have never eally got rid of the panic attacks but now the worry of them happening is causing me anxiety.

    ...

    Im wondering what the bac is doing for me right now...
    You don't want to give up the lager because you're worried you'll start to love vodka again, but you're thinking of giving up the baclofen. Do you not think that the baclofen is the only thing that is keeping you from the vodka, regardless of the lager?

    One of the first 'signs' of indifference is often that people don't like their drink of choice. That was the case for me, certainly. I could not drink the wine I had lived on and for. I still can't.

    spacebebe01;1316990 wrote:


    Its interesting that you say you think I could go up on the baclofen when I was thinking of coming down.

    ....

    In fact I have just answered my question, no I dont think I should because my biggest problems now are my depression and my back, so they are what I need to sort out.
    You repeatedly refer to anxiety and panic in many of your posts, but you insist that it's the depression that is the fundamental root of the problem. The two things are very closely linked, obviously. But add to it that we know that anxiety disorders are directly related to addictive behaviors. This is not something that Ameisen "discovered". It's in the scientific research, and it's not a guess. It's fact. Anxiety often equals addiction, and subsequent depression.
    And what's more is that the people with diagnosed anxiety disorders find it much more difficult to get and stay sober.

    I was going to follow up on this thought in PM because I have no interest in being labelled as a baclofen-or-bust person again. But as a follow up to my last PM to you, and for public consumption, I'll say this:

    It is clear that people who take baclofen regularly and at much lower doses than what some of us do have success with abstinence or sobriety.
    I have read where you've written that you weren't sure what was different now, which medicine was helping you stick to the lager, which one was helping you go to bed with some tea and some clear-headedness.
    There is only one that does that, Space. It's not the combination, it's not the other (very positive) things you are doing to get and stay well. It's baclofen.
    I say that for many reasons, but NOT because I believe baclofen is such a great medicine. (I don't believe that.)
    One of the reasons is that you have never actually taken baclofen regularly and for a long period of time before. Now you have. And it's working.
    Another reason is because we have suggested repeatedly that super-HDB is the only way to reach indifference. I'm not so sure about that. The studies recently published have shown the opposite, though they are mostly higher than the 80mg...

    I can't speak to how to manage the other issues you are dealing with, Space. But I can speak to the effectiveness of baclofen to manage drinking. And I also know it to be true that a couple of lagers of a night may make you feel lethargic and lousy and depressed. The hangovers I get from even a glass of wine are just that feeling...It's one of the reasons I drink so rarely. I hate the way I feel the next day! No headache, no obvious sign of a "hangover", just feeling lousy and depressed and...anxious.

    I wouldn't be surprised if some of the painkillers have that affect as well. (But I don't know for sure.) And COS is absolutely on the mark about the codeine. Acetaminophen is so bad for the liver that people without liver problems get liver problems. You can get the painkiller without the acetaminophen, by the way. That's just an aside, though, and largely beside the point I'm trying to make!

    Hang in there, sister.
    :h

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      Hi Space

      I missed your updates on our thread so I came here to see how you are doing. I really feel for you on the chronic pain management. I struggle with depression and other stuff but am a big baby with pain and can't imagine how bad it must be to have it around as a constant companion.

      I must chip in my two cents worth here. My dad was diagnosed with epilepsy and anxiety and my mom was diagnosed with bipolar and depression. So with our usual family psychiatrist (:H) being on maternity leave, her husband stood in. He is a psychiatry professor and has written several books on the topic of depression and anxiety. I asked him what the difference between anxiety and depression is and he said simply: there is none, its just the two sides of the same coin.

      Anyway, lots of positive thoughts coming your way,
      :h

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        Ne/Neva Eva;1317200 wrote: You don't want to give up the lager because you're worried you'll start to love vodka again, but you're thinking of giving up the baclofen.

        When you put it that way I do sound a bit unhinged, thats because I am:H sometimes I cant see whats right in front of my nose. (this is me space)

        One of the first 'signs' of indifference is often that people don't like their drink of choice. That was the case for me, certainly. I could not drink the wine I had lived on and for. I still can't.

        I didnt know that happened, it is encouraging ( and this bit was me as well)

        You are all right, COS, Ne and Dizzy and thanks for giving me such valid points to think about. I agree with the psychiatrist about anxiety and depression being the same illness just different sides of it, or maybe different symptoms to it.

        As I think I have said, its not se's or anything else that makes me uneasy about bac, its the fact that I get it online, well woppie doo, so do lots of other peeps so I do need to stop worrying about it, bac online is very very much better than vodka from the shop.

        Thinking about the possibility of reaching indifferance by taking a low dose over time I am now thinking about going up with the bac, today I will have taken 50mg so I will go up by 10mg a day every 5 days until Im at 80mg and stay there and see what happens. I actually feel excited at doing that, it seems like Im doing something possitive. I have enough pills here to start doing that now. Although I do disagree with you Ne about the combination of meds Im on, things changed for me when I started taking the serequel, although I dont like the se's from it I have to admit it is helping me massively, so the reduction of symptoms of my illness is probably whats making a massive in me as well. It has stopped me thinking the horrible shit which used to make me want to drink to shut my head up.

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          I still havent got the hang of this quoting thing, I putin things that I hoped would come up as 2 quotess by Ne with my comments in between, but not it looks like Ne said all of that. She didnt..

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            Hi Space. You may even want to move slower. When I got up higher I did 10mg about every 4 days. There's no rush and less likely to get rough SE's if you take it slow. 10 every day seems a bit ambitious.

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              I am intending to do 10mg every 5 days, which will take me 15 days to get to 80mg which is where I want to try and stay and hopefully that will work better for me.

              How long have you been taking bac for now COS, are you sleeping better now

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                Hi Space,
                I was just remembering that at hospital they use the bac for a muscle relaxant so in that way it might help the back pain, the seroquel they use for behavior management (for psych patients) and it does make people sleepy, that's about all I know about those two drugs.

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                  Today has been my worst day regarding cravings, I went up to 60mg bac yesterday and have taken 50mg today. I would say that I havent been having cravings at all over the past few weeks, just wanted a lager of an evening but not craving. Ive no idea what this is about.

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                    ps....I tried watching Family Guy to take my mind off things and now Ive just got ROCK LOBSTER stuck in my head as well as everything else:H

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                      DizzyBee;1317217 wrote: Hi Space

                      I missed your updates on our thread so I came here to see how you are doing. I really feel for you on the chronic pain management. I struggle with depression and other stuff but am a big baby with pain and can't imagine how bad it must be to have it around as a constant companion.

                      I must chip in my two cents worth here. My dad was diagnosed with epilepsy and anxiety and my mom was diagnosed with bipolar and depression. So with our usual family psychiatrist (:H) being on maternity leave, her husband stood in. He is a psychiatry professor and has written several books on the topic of depression and anxiety. I asked him what the difference between anxiety and depression is and he said simply: there is none, its just the two sides of the same coin.

                      Anyway, lots of positive thoughts coming your way,
                      :h

                      That sort of thinking is why psychiatry won't be around in 10 years time: Amygdala in Bipolar Disorder -- Neurotransmitter.net

                      We can see how the brain functions now and how medications affect it. The brain is highly complex and the amygdala is like some sort of central control box which can go wrong in a million different ways resulting in all sorts of diagnoses.
                      BACLOFENISTA

                      baclofenuk.com

                      http://www.theendofmyaddiction.org





                      Olivier Ameisen

                      In addiction, suppression of symptoms should suppress the disease altogether since addiction is, as he observed, a "symptom-driven disease". Of all "anticraving medications used in animals, only one - baclofen - has the unique property of suppressing the motivation to consume cocaine, heroin, alcohol, nicotine and d-amphetamine"

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                        Yep Otter, right now Im not really interested in arguments about science. Im looking for some support, help and advice.

                        Thanks

                        EDIT In fact I dont give a flying fuck about all the scientific discussion and bullshit that goes on on here I really dont. I think some peeps round here must know what Im going thru right now and I asked for help, thanks otter, your nonsense reply was the only one I got

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                          playland;1317696 wrote: Hi Space,
                          I was just remembering that at hospital they use the bac for a muscle relaxant so in that way it might help the back pain, the seroquel they use for behavior management (for psych patients) and it does make people sleepy, that's about all I know about those two drugs.

                          play
                          Baclofen is a rather benign and well tolerated substance with a much better safety profile than quetiapine (Seroquel). Baclofen agonizes very selectively the GABA B receptors and quetiapine antagonizes the 2 major excitatory neurotransmitters (dopamine and norepinephine) along with serotonin. Quetiapine is well known to cause tardive dyskinesia and has many other common side effects. I have been around a few people that take Seroquel before bed and (no offense) they are all pretty much like being in the company of a zombie from Night Of The Living Dead. One woman was carrying on a relationship with me and I came to find out that she's married, but she just never cared about a thing. Nothing.

                          Baclofen is a very strong sedative when you're GABAergic system is within the low-normal range. I would frequently fall asleep at random when I was titrating up the dose whilst titrating down the dose of Librium and I would fall asleep in the craziest of places.

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                            Hi Space. I'm sorry it's been so quiet today, sister. HUGE :ls to you. I'm zonked and that's all I've got at the moment. Hopefully when you wake up and see this, you'll already be on the mend, ready to face the day with the same attitude.
                            'cause I gotta appreciate a woman who is calling it as she sees it and asking for what she needs flat out. It's a great way to cut through bull shit and get what you need.
                            Huge across-the-ocean :ls.
                            Have a tea for me. With anything but soy milk, if you would. I can't stomach that stuff either.
                            Hang in.
                            (btw I've been meaning to ask you, or to google since I don't want to sound like a chump, what is the deal with supper and tea time and dinner? Where's lunch? Do kids actually stop what they're doing and have tea??? Like a snack?)

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                              Sorry, I was not trying to offend you. The whole argument over whether or not this is an anxiety related illness I find crazy. People come here going on about not having anxiety or being this or that. It really is of no concern what you call it. If you have cravings, you have anxiety.

                              Baclofen works well. My experience and from what I have read and seen is that you just have to struggle on with it. It may be for some it reduces dnnking to a manageable level. If that allows them to live a reasonable life then great. I don't advocate baclofen because I think in every case it brings abstinence and that abstinence is for everyone. For some, it is the only way, for others, maybe not.

                              What I don't think is a good thing is to beat yourself up about the whole thing. Don't set the bar so high you can't jump over it. I read on some traditional alcohol recovery site that once someone achieves sobriety it takes two years for their body to return to normal. I think that is right. You may achieve sobriety but that is just the beginning.

                              My advice is to just hang in there and treat it like you are in a fight that you will win. You may lose some rounds as you go on but you will win in the end. You might even get knocked down a few times.

                              Ameisen says baclofen treatment is effortless. What he means by that is it doesn't require will power and fighting off cravings. It works on the limbic region of the brain, the amygdala etc. That is why I put that science in, because all those conditions are just referring to that part of the brain. What you call them really doesn't matter at all. Baclofen works by calming it down. That allows you to think without being overwhelmed by involuntary thought processes which force you to drink.

                              You just have to keep going forward with this medication. The side effects go away. If the dose becomes too high and you feel anxious from it, then reduce, stop taking it for a while, then start again. I don't know what else to say. I think you can achieve a lot on low dose and changing your diet and life style. Exercise more. I don't know. It is all individual but baclofen gives you a massive tool.

                              Look, I really want everyone to succeed with this treatment. I have seen first hand how successful it can be but don't think it isn't a struggle because it is. When people say to "believe" in it, they aren't saying that it succeeds because you have to believe it it. They are saying that because messing around with the way your head works is not fun and pretty scary stuff so you have to just go with it and trust people that they are telling the truth when they say it will work.

                              Just hang in there. Anyway, you asked why I deleted a lot of my posts. Now you know. I wish I had somewhere I could exchange ideas about what is behind this treatment because it gives me reason to believe it works and I think it is important you understand why it works. I don't think it is helpful people coming here and saying, "but what if you have bipolar, it might not work". Stuff the labels. Craving is a brain disorder which can be calmed down with baclofen. You can then get the space to get well.

                              Keep the faith bebe!
                              BACLOFENISTA

                              baclofenuk.com

                              http://www.theendofmyaddiction.org





                              Olivier Ameisen

                              In addiction, suppression of symptoms should suppress the disease altogether since addiction is, as he observed, a "symptom-driven disease". Of all "anticraving medications used in animals, only one - baclofen - has the unique property of suppressing the motivation to consume cocaine, heroin, alcohol, nicotine and d-amphetamine"

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                                Sorry if I offended you Otter, I was in a tizz, I appreciate your replys

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