Me, myself and getting sober

[MusiciansMallet]

Me, myself and getting sober

For a decline in the exchange rate,
And we can afford to take a plane

:H :H !!!
As a musician (i write all our material)... i can appreciate that poem; but what I quoted just cracked the sh*t outta me!

[playland]

Me, myself and getting sober

Hey space,
Friday here, how are you? What is new? I have the weekend to myself here in Barcelona, Wow, that never happens, wish all you GFs were here, I will go walking on the Ramblas on Saturday. The city is starting to be filled with tourists now from all over Europe, and will be this way all thru August, when most all of the residents of the city will take a month long Holiday and be gone from Barcelona due to the heat. The city will be taken over by tourists and mosts of the shops will be closed, the tourists will be in the city for the beach life and the restaruants.

Love
Play

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

Oh play I wish you would have told me I would have come over to see you, ryanair have some cheap flights. Oh well never mind another time eh Hope you have a nice time and chill out in the sun

[Bruunhilde]

Me, myself and getting sober

Hi Space,

What's happening in your world my friend? I wonder where everyone goes when it gets quiet, I guess just enjoying summer? Its gorgeous here and I'm inside! WTF! I have to go take advantage of the sun and stop letting things like my bald head and giant gut keep me from being seen in public.

I'm starting glutamine again, actually I've started it a couple of times lately but keep forgetting to take it even though the tub of powder is sitting on my kitchen counter and can't be missed. How does that happen? I tune out all the clutter of old magazines and books that need filing away, I don't see the piles of mail and sorted bills and paperwork... how? I'm selectively seeing I know, and maybe it keeps me from beating myself up about it.

Anyways, I thought I'd share something to get you answering and telling me how you are. I'm having wine nightly, a beer plus a bottle of wine. Its too much and its keeping me fat and lazy but it could be worse, I know. It has been much worse. So I'm trying not to beat myself up. Its my birthday in a couple of weeks and you may remember last year I said I have a whole year to get thin for my big bday? Oh well. Its still my goal but the target date has slipped. At least I'm not in the gin.

How are your boys and your energy and depression?

[StuckinLA]

Me, myself and getting sober

Hey Bruun. Hmmm, wine and gin, it's like you're summarizing my whole childhood :H
(Sorry, don't know why I had to throw that in there... my mom was 2 bottles of wine and a 1.75L of Beefeaters nightly, and weekends were, well, weekends. But she managed to sort herself out for a long time... 17 years before now going back to wine. I guess I'm just saying nothing is beyond fixing...)

But you say it like "at least I'm not in the gin." When really it's more like you are not in the gin. Little change of phrasing, but a big difference, ya' know? I mean that's a huge victory, every single day.

And Space, I second Bruun's post--how are ya' doing? I'm sooooo jealous of cheap Ryanair flights to, well, a lot of places in Europe from where you are. But here I am, in LA and a couple friends from Chicago, who I only see once or twice a year, were in San Diego for the weekend. It would have been $80 round trip on the train and you know what? I didn't go. How nice would it have been to get outta here for a weekend, I don't know, go to Sea World or something...

Anyway, just wanted to say it's great to hear from you Bruun. And I'm thinking about you, Space.

[Bruunhilde]

Me, myself and getting sober

Thanks Stuck, I like that name, LOL. I like the rephrasing, because yes, it's an accomplishment whether anyone outside these boards knows it or not.

How are YOU doing Stuck?

Stuck and Space, I could come up with many interesting phrases with your two monikers.

Cheers... :l

[StuckinLA]

Me, myself and getting sober

What's shakin' Space? I miss your voice around here.

:l

[playland]

Me, myself and getting sober

Hi Bruun and Stuck, boy things are quiet here, where is Space, quiet on the other med thread also, hmmm, well, I'm here in Spain, trying to keep to two or three glasses a night, want to increase my Topa but I have to wait till I get home in two weeks and must order more today so that I will have anew supply when I get back. Last time I ran out before I got home and what a fiasco that turned into, I'm not to organized, I keep putting things off till the next day.

Ok, just wanted to say Hi!

Love,
Play

[StuckinLA]

Me, myself and getting sober

Hi Play, sounds like you're doing well. And bravo, truly. If I were in Spain it would be no-holds barred right now (well, it kind of is anyway, really :H). Anyway, enjoy! Seriously.

And yeah, I'm more than a little worried about the crickets chirping around here...

[baclofan]

Me, myself and getting sober

Space, how are things, hope you're OK

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

Hi there maties,

I have got no reason why I havent been on here much lately, I have been drinking too much tho and then feeling pretty crap the next day, even when Im not drinking lots I still feel bad, I suppose that means I should not drink but ha! that would be the sensible thing to do wouldnt it. So Im still being in bad half the day then getting up around 12ish pottering about in the afternoon the having a drink in the ...I was about to say evening but I dont seem to be making it that far, its only 4pm now and Im on my first drink.

But,... topa came today so I am going to start that later, I have got enough for around a months trial to see how it goes. and also try to remember to take the L glut, I dont know how its so bloody hard to take that stuff, mine is in a big jar right next to the kettle but Like you Bruun I just dont seem to see it. This is the last of the meds really for me I think I have tried bac but could not get past around 100mg a day, although I did get quite a lot of help from taking around 40mg and actually only stopped because of the tiredness to see if it was bac causing it. It wasnt. So I am hoping that topa will help me both with my drinking and my mood as I have heard from others who have had some success with it.

Its great to turn this on and see you three, Bruun, Stuck and Play I get so much from you. and Its good that your swerving the gin Bruun, that is a massive change, the bottles of spirits for me are the worst, vodka has been my undoing so many times, but once again I have bought a 1/2 bottle today because Im sick of drinking lager and cant drink wine because of the hangovers, its probably a big mistake for me to get vodka but Ive got some lager there as well and Im not going to go out again to get any more, but I didnt really think it through when I got it, now Im home I realise it cant be a repalcement for lager as with lager I am kind of safe, it takes me a while to drink it and then makes me feel bloated and sick if I have too much which stops me drinking, with the vodka there is no turn off switch, I just drink it, get drunk but then want more so carry on. I can here people saying pour it away, Im even thinking that myself but the other part of my head is just saying oh its only 1/2 a bottle so just drink it slowley. I will see what I decide.

So now Ive yapped on about me, me, me once again but am just going to have a look around, I havent read anything else yet apart from the last few posts here.

xx

[StuckinLA]

Me, myself and getting sober

Keep yapping, Space, I missed your voice. I hear ya' with the 4 PM witching hour--that's right when I get out of class these days and head to the happy hour that's been my undoing so often. A couple pints is enough to get me on the bus home, but then it's the bartender-saga here all over again.

But hey, feel free to post drunk, especially on my thread! It's like a keg party over there :H and :upset:

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

I dont know whether to :H or :upset: but love ya stuck

[Bruunhilde]

Me, myself and getting sober

Swerved and missed last night and Monday night Space. Got hammered and got frisky with a guy at the bar. Pretty embarrassing. Its not like I'm 17 and it looks cute. Not that THAT looks cute either I guess. Felt so snot on Tuesday and with three hour time difference that I cave-manned in my hotel room all afternoon and evening by myself after our long morning meeting. Saw a great movie you've all heard of called "The Help" - I read the book on an airplane some time ago and they did a great job with the movie. Ironically I'm also reading "The Kid" which is a horrible (but great) hard history of blacks in America circa 1900's to now. It reminds me of that other popular book last year about a woman/girl who went from drugs/ho to being an attorney in SF by sheer grit. Seems my genre for this and last year is African American history which I love to read because its so real and I feel like it gives me a tiny window into what was a huge mess for so many - the impact of slavery and its aftermath. Anyways. It makes me grateful for what I have and provides perspective.

So what if I f-ed up this week. So what if I'll be fat for my bday. I still have time to get thinner before 50 is over.

Cheers, girls. Chin up and bottoms up onto the exercise bike or something. I totally forgot to do the treadmill this AM, musta been the hangover. Aw shit.

[windycitylady]

Me, myself and getting sober

Hey ladies! And Stuck! Well, everyone's kind of down in the dumps, huh? I'm no exception. Once I get my shit together, I'm gonna be back here a lot more. Trying to make a couple of big decisions, and my mental script is basically Will I? Won't I? I will! No, I won't! And I don't want to subject you guys to it.
I do have 5 months AF today. Wish I could stop crying every 15 fucking minutes and pat myself on the back for it.
(Sidenote: someone on my train just put on hand sanitizer, and it smelled delicious! Like flowery vodka! O I am so far from cured!)
Space, Bruun, I love you guys, and it breaks my heart to hear you both struggling. I wish I had something, anything more helpful to say. I don't, except that I'm rooting for you guys. Keep your heads up!
Bruun, I say you you use the random hookup as evidence of your beauty. Awesome reading you're doing! I do a lot of reading about Holocaust survivors for the same reasons. Have you tried the propanol (or whatever it's called) yet?
Space, I'm glad to hear you keep moving on from what's not working to trying the next thing. Any thoughts about going back to LDB? I'm the same way with vodka. There's no question about how the evening (morning, next day) will end. I know I'm a bad one to talk, but get back here more often! You got that shiny new laptop...
Stuck, I may have a little crush on you. Well, not a crush, but after reading your writing, I did immediately want to start recommending books to you, which is my grown up version of wanting to make you a mix tape. (Please tell me you've read at least one John O'Brien book!) Your voice is a welcome addition around here. I look forward to following your journey to its (inevtably happy) ending!
Buck up all! (Stuck, should there have been a comma after "up"?)