Me, myself and getting sober

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

Of course its ok for you to ask me anything red, my pain can be pretty much all over, over the past couple of weeks it has been mostly in my neck and head and has been agonising at times but also I get very bad back pain that can even stop me walking and pain in my arms and legs, today my arms haven't been too good but I have at least been able to use them. I do need to see my doc and ask him more about the morphine, I really don't want to go there but then when pain is stopping me functioning and it could stop that then I will consider it. But I don't wanto to be taking it every day, right now I take dihydrocodene every day but obviously that would have to stop I think if I go on morphine as they are both opiates. I have seen the same doc for years and trust him and can talk easily to him on every subject except for drinking which his opinion is that I just need to not drink at all and if I do drink then all my problems are because of that. Yes he was pretty crap when I was drinking as he had no advice other than |I had to stop and wouldn't look at the meds, BUT I don't know if any other gp's in the UK do either, he said its standard recommended practice to not prescribe off label so he would only offer me Campral. He was nice and sympathetic but just said he could not do any more than to refer me to the alcohol treatment unit which I went to. But then drank again so ended up in the same state.

Do you still take the naltrexone Red, it is so hard to make the choice and accept the bad hair. I have reduced the med I take that is doing it to my hair but don't want to go down too low and risk drinking heavily again. Like you I will have to accept that I will have to have the very thin bad hair if going down stops the craving reduction I have had but still don't like it.

I do keep on saying to myself that I want to spend less time on MWO but find myself just needing to take a peek every day and then I end up being pulled in by something

space :lx

[redhead77]

Me, myself and getting sober

Hey Bebe,

I stopped taking the naltrexone. I made a decision that if I had to take it I would, but decided to try another way. I'm only taking baclofen. I ended up increasing my dose quite a bit. Unfortunately, I think you can end up losing indifference if you take baclofen and continue to drink after indifference. You end up chasing the switch so to speak. It's kind of hard to explain, but if you don't (or me anyway) find other ways to cope with life post indifference and still use alcohol on a very regular basis, I think you can get lose your indifference and maybe need to go up even higher to find it again. I think anyway. I don't have all of the answers, I just know how it seems to go with me. I wonder if that happens to other people out there too. It's not something anyone is talking about, but I have a strong suspicion that I'm not the only person that's happened to.

I'm sorry you have to live with this pain. I know you're scared of the morphine and I understand. I guess it's impossible to live your life without something to help you manage it better. Did your doctor say there would be nowhere else to go after the morphine? There's oxycontin and oxycodone and some strong pain killers like that too. Not that you want to even think alone those lines.

Just know that I'm thinking of you. :l

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

Hi Red, no my doctor didn't say that there was no where else to go after the morphine I just kind of assumed that. I still haven't been to see him to have a proper talk about it so I will see how things go.

I do think that there are people who have had a lot of not so great experiences with the meds, but they give up and don't come on here anymore so we don't hear about it. Or they are still around but don't want to talk about their struggles. I know when I posted that I had problems with bac I didn't seem to have anyone to talk to about it so I just stopped talking about it then. Fortuinately for me this thread carried on without my taking bac so I could carry on coming here and getting support but I think the people who are just posting on the bac threads may well go when they stop. I can remember tho when I started we did have our own threads and move the conversations between them whereas now, although I haven't really read them the threads seem to be subject related not about the person anymore. I may well be wrong there as I say I haven't read about much these days.

I received the first of the coursework for the degree Im starting so am going to have to start working out my time now instead of just drifting through the days.

I hope you are well Red, and anyone else out there, if you are reading this please pop in to say hello

I am also thinking of you Red x (will talk more soon)

space xox