Indifference, I think ????

[DrunkAndTiredInFLA]

Indifference, I think ????

Lo0p;1216113 wrote: Congratulations!! :welcome: to the dark side!! :devil::devil:

I guess it would be okay now for me to tell you I wanted to virtual-slap you a while ago. :H How are your SE's now?

LoOp, I am sure that if we would have met in person, things would not have went the way they did. I am a brutally honest person who doesn't take shit from people. And I wanted to do more than just virtual-slap some of you.

As for my SE's, I still have a slight cough, and I am very tired at times. I only get finger twitches when I am very sleepy. I don't think these SE's will ever go away until I am off of baclofen. However, there is a possibility that since I am no longer drinking that they won't be as bad as they were. Thank you for asking. =)

[DrunkAndTiredInFLA]

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Ne/Neva Eva;1213645 wrote: in?dif?fer?ence/inˈdif(ə)rəns/
Noun:
Lack of interest, concern



Edit: I think one of the reasons it's hard to trust that it's indifference is because it doesn't feel like a thing. right? You just don't care anymore...The lack of caring about booze isn't nearly as clear as the WANTING booze. Anyway. My thought for the day. Hope it's a good day for you in your whole new world!

I am glad that you posted your edit. That is exactly how I feel. lol It's odd not to care about it. lol I hope that makes sense. I think about it at the gas station and at the grocery store because that's where I usually buy it. But now, I am like beer, not interested. It's very strange to me. I questioned my indifference, because I read other people on here saying that they don't even think about it. My question is - how do you completely forget that you once bought beer, wine, or liquor from a certain store? Maybe it's easier to "forget" liquor, because they mostly sell that at a liquor store. But I don't believe that people drive by the liquor store and forget that they use to go there all the time. lol

On a side note - I am very interested in sweets. lol I bought a candy cane full of rolo's today. lol I have been craving sweets for about 2 months now. lol I have been going through ice cream quite a bit. lol

[redhead77]

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I won't go back to the garbage posted in the past. I'll just say congratulations D&T. Welcome to the other side. It's wonderful.

[SlipperyPete]

Indifference, I think ????

DrunkAndTiredInFLA;1216323 wrote: My question is - how do you completely forget that you once bought beer, wine, or liquor from a certain store?

I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that there's no emotion behind seeing alcohol anymore. A while ago I walked past a bodega with the front doors open and they had a shit ton of wine on display in the front. I remember thinking "wow, in the past this would have gotten me all hot and bothered, but now I could care less." When I was in the grocery store, usually the first aisle I went to was the beer aisle, which also has frozen foods on the other side. I went straight to that aisle, but for some frozen chicken, and had my back to the beer the whole time. I didn't even realize it at the time, but it popped into my head later how crazy that was.

rh77 - I always thought your name was capitalized, and I think I even typed it that way in the past. I messed up and I'm sorry, will you forgive me?

[DrunkAndTiredInFLA]

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redhead77;1216329 wrote: I won't go back to the garbage posted in the past. I'll just say congratulations D&T. Welcome to the other side. It's wonderful.

Oh, I see where it went. =)

[DrunkAndTiredInFLA]

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SlipperyPete;1216333 wrote: I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that there's no emotion behind seeing alcohol anymore. A while ago I walked past a bodega with the front doors open and they had a shit ton of wine on display in the front. I remember thinking "wow, in the past this would have gotten me all hot and bothered, but now I could care less." When I was in the grocery store, usually the first aisle I went to was the beer aisle, which also has frozen foods on the other side. I went straight to that aisle, but for some frozen chicken, and had my back to the beer the whole time. I didn't even realize it at the time, but it popped into my head later how crazy that was.

I see what you are saying. For instance, if I do think about it, I don't care for it. It's really strange, because I think about it, but I don't care about it like you said. I guess since it's so new to me, it's hard to wrap my brain around. lol I see beer, but I am like oh it's beer *shrug*, but there is no urge there. Right now, I think my brain is still use to beer being in my life, but I no longer crave beer. lol It's only been a week or so. Beer is no longer in my life, and I don't want it. But it's so strange to me. lol I worry that the ball is going to drop. Like this isn't going to last, because it has never happened before. There have a couple of days here and there when I didn't drink. But I also stayed away from the places that would tempt me to drank. The other day I went to the/my gas station to buy Ginger Ale, and thought to myself, "Wow, I am buying Ginger Ale, and I don't care that there is beer here." I was surprised. Sorry, I have a habit of over-analyzing everything. lol Like I said, I am just worried that this is temporary, but I hope it's not. Has anyone else experienced this?

[Lo0p]

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Yes. :H

I still get a kick out of it.

[DrunkAndTiredInFLA]

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Lo0p;1216362 wrote: Yes. :H

I still get a kick out of it.

lol @ yes. What is the yes for? Or are you just laughing to yourself still? lol

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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DrunkAndTiredInFLA;1216323 wrote: My question is - how do you completely forget that you once bought beer, wine, or liquor from a certain store? Maybe it's easier to "forget" liquor, because they mostly sell that at a liquor store. But I don't believe that people drive by the liquor store and forget that they use to go there all the time. lol

When I was titrating up Lo0p posted a story about just that...Forgetting about booze. I didn't believe him. I couldn't imagine it.
After I was indifferent I drank for a while. Actually, I think I got drunk first. That was awful. But then I drank--very little and only occasionally. It seemed like the thing to do, was habit, my husband was still drinking alcoholically, blah, blah...
Then I stopped and I haven't missed it. The further away I get from it the more I don't think about it. Even writing or reading about it here no longer brings associations of the pleasure or pain I got from it. It's just gone.

I go to the same stores and don't notice the booze aisle. At all. My pantry is full of beer and wine and some liquor. The only time I notice it or think about it is when I get annoyed because it takes up too much space. (I really have to find another place for that stuff!) You won't believe how indifferent indifference is.

Short answer: It just takes some time.

[Road to Recovery]

Indifference, I think ????

Ne/Neva Eva;1216458 wrote: When I was titrating up Lo0p posted a story about just that...Forgetting about booze. I didn't believe him. I couldn't imagine it.
After I was indifferent I drank for a while. Actually, I think I got drunk first. That was awful. But then I drank--very little and only occasionally. It seemed like the thing to do, was habit, my husband was still drinking alcoholically, blah, blah...
Then I stopped and I haven't missed it. The further away I get from it the more I don't think about it. Even writing or reading about it here no longer brings associations of the pleasure or pain I got from it. It's just gone.

I go to the same stores and don't notice the booze aisle. At all. My pantry is full of beer and wine and some liquor. The only time I notice it or think about it is when I get annoyed because it takes up too much space. (I really have to find another place for that stuff!) You won't believe how indifferent indifference is.

Short answer: It just takes some time.

Drunk and Tired -
True story. The liquor store I went to, that was 5 minutes from home? My wife and I were going to a social event and she wanted something to drink so she asked me to stop at the liquor store. I drove right to it and guess what? It had moved about 6 months ago! She said - "I wondered where you were going". Yes, you do forget

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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ROAD! Nice to *see* you!
And to think I was going to call you out in big bold letters this week. Nice timing.
:l

[Road to Recovery]

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Ne/Neva Eva;1216489 wrote: ROAD! Nice to *see* you!
And to think I was going to call you out in big bold letters this week. Nice timing.
:l

Call me out for whaaaaaat?:new:

[Lo0p]

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Sorry, clarified:

DrunkAndTiredInFLA;1216349 wrote: The other day I went to the/my gas station to buy Ginger Ale, and thought to myself, "Wow, I am buying Ginger Ale, and I don't care that there is beer here." I was surprised. [...] Has anyone else experienced this?
Lo0p;1216362 wrote: Yes. :H

I still get a kick out of it.

[DrunkAndTiredInFLA]

Indifference, I think ????

Thank you all so much for your support and helpfulness. =)

[DrunkAndTiredInFLA]

Indifference, I think ????

Ne/Neva Eva;1216458 wrote: When I was titrating up Lo0p posted a story about just that...Forgetting about booze. I didn't believe him. I couldn't imagine it.
After I was indifferent I drank for a while. Actually, I think I got drunk first. That was awful. But then I drank--very little and only occasionally. It seemed like the thing to do, was habit, my husband was still drinking alcoholically, blah, blah...
Then I stopped and I haven't missed it. The further away I get from it the more I don't think about it. Even writing or reading about it here no longer brings associations of the pleasure or pain I got from it. It's just gone.

Wow, this is great to hear! What exciting news for you and me. It's good to hear that you drank for a bit even though you were indifferent to it. I was worried about "falling off the wagon." I guess I shouldn't worry. The good news is that the drinking problem that I once had is either gone or on it's way to being gone. =)