Normally a problem binge drinker, I just got back from a day in the the ER made necessary by a 4 week, Prednisone fueled, drinking extravaganza. After finishing a weeks worth of steroids called Medrol dose pak (methyl-prednisolone) I suddenly began to drink during the day, every day. This was not my usual drinking pattern by any means but the anxiety coursing through my body was unbearable. A few weeks later I attempted to go to rehab but ended up walking out when they tried to put my belongings in garbage bags.
From there I upped my drinking, starting in the morning and drinking all day and into the wee hours of the night. I did not want to eat or sleep or leave my apartment, I could not stand to be in my body and alcohol was the only thing that could make being alive manageable. At that point even alcohol wasn't enough so I dug through old medications and found Topamax and Baclofen. I started taking those like candy out of desperation to try and quell the severe anxiety flooding my body. But then I ran out of Baclofen and all hell broke loose. Heart palpitations, weird sensations running down the side of my face, red blotches appearing on my cheeks, peeing every 3 mins, visual and auditory hallucinations and the usual horrific anxiety. At the ER I told them everything and they got me into hospital clothes and took away my belongings. My blood pressure was 169/90. They gave me a Xanax and I slept for 3 hours. I was woken up by the supervisor and told they were sending me home. He concurred that steroids can cause severe emotional disturbances and anxiety, he gave me a 14 day prescription for 10 mg of Atarax. I walked home in a Xanax stupor having had nothing to eat for days. My life sucked.
Upon arriving home, the Gods and Goddesses had spoken!! Waiting for me was an email from Virtuous labs saying that they had sent me a FREE package of 6000mg of Baclofen!! I had been trying to buy some from them before I went to the ER but they were not answering my pleas. There office was closed due to a death in the family and some other workers were in the hospital so they were way behind in answering inquiries. The guy felt terrible and so he shipped off a free order! I still can't believe it.
I spent the next few days reading every Baclofen post here on MWO. I took notes and made a whole research file on Baclofen, I am also halfway through Olivier Amiesen's Book, a story that so far has made me laugh and cry.
Just to clarify, my normal anxiety levels, without steroids, are unbearably high and i drink to feel normal or to get some relief from anxiety. I have done this for years. I am formally diagnosed with PTSD. But that is just a word and doesn't really exemplify the terrible anxiety that prevents me from living my life. of course alcohol just made things worse ultimately but it was all I had until now. Amiesen spoke for me when he talked about his anxiety and how it created his need to drink.
So last night I just took 10 mg of Bac at around 5pm. By 8pm a certain calmness filled my body that I have never felt before. I had a silly grin on my face and had to stop myself from giggling. I took another 10mg this morning and again roughly 3 hours later a calmness came upon me. I have to say I am thrilled!
My name is Andrea
here is my plan:
Days 1(Dec 20).......10mg at 5pm
Days 2 - 4: 30mg (10/10/10)
days 5 - 7 (Dec 24-26): 40mg (10/10/20)
Days 8 - 14(Dec 27 - Jan 2): 50mg (10/20/20)
Week 3 (Jan 3): 70 mg (20/20/30)
Week 4 (Jan 10): 90 mg (30/30/30)
Week 5 (Jan 17): 110 mg (30/40/40)
Week 6 (Jan 24): 130 mg (40/40/50)
Week 7 (Jan 31): 150 mg (50/50/50)
Week 8: 170 mg (50/60/60)
Week 9: 190 mg
week 10: 210 mg
week 11: 230 mg
week 12: 250 mg
week 13: 270 mg
week 14: 290 mg
week 15: 310
week 16: 330
From there I upped my drinking, starting in the morning and drinking all day and into the wee hours of the night. I did not want to eat or sleep or leave my apartment, I could not stand to be in my body and alcohol was the only thing that could make being alive manageable. At that point even alcohol wasn't enough so I dug through old medications and found Topamax and Baclofen. I started taking those like candy out of desperation to try and quell the severe anxiety flooding my body. But then I ran out of Baclofen and all hell broke loose. Heart palpitations, weird sensations running down the side of my face, red blotches appearing on my cheeks, peeing every 3 mins, visual and auditory hallucinations and the usual horrific anxiety. At the ER I told them everything and they got me into hospital clothes and took away my belongings. My blood pressure was 169/90. They gave me a Xanax and I slept for 3 hours. I was woken up by the supervisor and told they were sending me home. He concurred that steroids can cause severe emotional disturbances and anxiety, he gave me a 14 day prescription for 10 mg of Atarax. I walked home in a Xanax stupor having had nothing to eat for days. My life sucked.
Upon arriving home, the Gods and Goddesses had spoken!! Waiting for me was an email from Virtuous labs saying that they had sent me a FREE package of 6000mg of Baclofen!! I had been trying to buy some from them before I went to the ER but they were not answering my pleas. There office was closed due to a death in the family and some other workers were in the hospital so they were way behind in answering inquiries. The guy felt terrible and so he shipped off a free order! I still can't believe it.
I spent the next few days reading every Baclofen post here on MWO. I took notes and made a whole research file on Baclofen, I am also halfway through Olivier Amiesen's Book, a story that so far has made me laugh and cry.
Just to clarify, my normal anxiety levels, without steroids, are unbearably high and i drink to feel normal or to get some relief from anxiety. I have done this for years. I am formally diagnosed with PTSD. But that is just a word and doesn't really exemplify the terrible anxiety that prevents me from living my life. of course alcohol just made things worse ultimately but it was all I had until now. Amiesen spoke for me when he talked about his anxiety and how it created his need to drink.
So last night I just took 10 mg of Bac at around 5pm. By 8pm a certain calmness filled my body that I have never felt before. I had a silly grin on my face and had to stop myself from giggling. I took another 10mg this morning and again roughly 3 hours later a calmness came upon me. I have to say I am thrilled!
My name is Andrea
here is my plan:
Days 1(Dec 20).......10mg at 5pm
Days 2 - 4: 30mg (10/10/10)
days 5 - 7 (Dec 24-26): 40mg (10/10/20)
Days 8 - 14(Dec 27 - Jan 2): 50mg (10/20/20)
Week 3 (Jan 3): 70 mg (20/20/30)
Week 4 (Jan 10): 90 mg (30/30/30)
Week 5 (Jan 17): 110 mg (30/40/40)
Week 6 (Jan 24): 130 mg (40/40/50)
Week 7 (Jan 31): 150 mg (50/50/50)
Week 8: 170 mg (50/60/60)
Week 9: 190 mg
week 10: 210 mg
week 11: 230 mg
week 12: 250 mg
week 13: 270 mg
week 14: 290 mg
week 15: 310
week 16: 330
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