I didn't know her and I'm sorry for your loss. But I have to say this makes me so, so , so angry at Al. It's like this demon we willingly invite into our lives. I'm so mad, he will not take my life, son-of-a-bitch. I'm angry and I'm done hearing about people who lose their lives either prematurely or ... eventually. Grrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!
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I didn't know her and I'm sorry for your loss. But I have to say this makes me so, so , so angry at Al. It's like this demon we willingly invite into our lives. I'm so mad, he will not take my life, son-of-a-bitch. I'm angry and I'm done hearing about people who lose their lives either prematurely or ... eventually. Grrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!
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I am so sorry to hear about these two lives lost to AL. Mama and Ne, my thoughts and prayers are with you both.
Ne, please do not try to carry this on your shoulders. :l Please reach out if you need to talk about it.
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I was lucky. My 12 year old adopted daughter took a huge amount of tylenol but here little friends told their parents who told me and I got her to the hospital on time. My life would have been so sad if she would have succeeded. She is a loving, mature, successful 24 year old now. Azurmyst, you and I could have had paralell experiences if we hadn't been tipped off and had her admitted to hospital in time.
Suicide wreaks so many lives. My heart goes out to all the loved ones of the people who just couldn't cope any more. So sad.Tipplerette
I do this for my children, my grandchildren, my health, my peace of mind, and mostly for the opportunity to learn to live with my true, unfiltered, clear-headed, vulnerable self.
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RIP to both of them.
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azurmyst;1286607 wrote: so sorry for your loss. I too am a survivor of suicide. my daughter committed suicide when she was 14. I am very sorry. I went through counseling and EMDR it really helped me, all the best to you friend.
And Mamma and Neve ,im so very sorry xx
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NE,
I am so sorry to hear about this. You must remember that this is not a result of anything you did or didn't do. Unfortunately, Michelle must have felt very hopeless, I have been there. When I was 20, my friends and I would always get together at the house and drink and have a great time - we all enjoyed our time together so much and everyone seemed happy. One Saturday afternoon, a friend was at another friends house and one friend said " I need to go outside and check on something. While outside, he heard a gunshot. He rushed inside and found my other friend had shot himself and died. No one knew he was feeling so low - There may have been warning signs along the way but no one saw them.
People sometimes say "How can someone do that? Don't they know that they are hurting other people? What a coward - took the easy way out of his problems"
Well after I heard the news, the following weekend while at my sister's house - drinking, getting ready to go to a party with my friends - my sister and husband were leaving to go out as well and my sister said as she was leaving - "Have fun tonight; don't kill yourself". There in that instance - that one innocent comment, something inside my head snapped. Like a lightswitch, "don't kill yourself". In that instance, my brain snapped - don't kill yourself. It became my every thought - constant thoughts of killing myself. Use one of the guns - use a knife - I feel so hopeless - I am never going to feel normal again - just kill yourself already - it's over, you won't live to see next week.
When we talk about suicide - we think "he had everything going for him. Great job, great family, has money". But it's not always about what you have, sometimes it's this thought - however it got there - it is telling you that everything is hopeless. My thoughts - My car payment is due this Friday - yah but who cares you are going to be dead soon anyway. Hey - I got a raise at work! Who cares, you are going to kill yourself. I am starting to feel better about life - yah but you are going to kill yourself.
My sister had to remove the guns from the house, I couldn't eat, I couldn't see my friends, I just wanted to lay on the couch and try to understand why this was happening to me. How is this possible?
I finally told my mother and she took me in to see a docctor and I was put on anti deppressants. Slowly but surely, I started to feel normal again. The thoughts were becoming less frequent - I could finally see myself being around long term.
That feeling of hopelessness - it is very very scary. You are all alone. Know one could say anything to make it go away.
There are those that get angry and in the heat of the moment do something that can't take back - they are gone. But also, there are those that suffer, feel hopeless - sometimes they reach out for help, sometimes they surrender - it's too much.
I wrote this here in hopes to help some understand what some people are going through and how they can be driven to such extreme actions. If anyone feels what I have written is innappropriate - I will remove it.
Take care my friends.
Jim
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