Well, I'm still hopeful!! (see: mood)
Since I last posted I got sucked into a black hole of a project and have been working on it almost 24/7. Also my HD crashed and took along with it some HUGE files, my laptop died, I got rid of my iphone (my secondary relationship), my primary relationship has taken a nose dive (breakup imminent and rather unavoidable but still not expected at this time), I got sick with the flu and I'm still not quite over the respiratory congestion, I started stress smoking again (re:flu... ALSO NOT HELPFUL TO BREATHING), I picked a fight or two with everyone I know, cancelled other projects and had to disappoint people, etc., etc, etc.
So... it's been a horrific few weeks. Does any of this relate to baclofen?
Yes, possibly. U I did precipitously stop zoloft, thereby causing an emotional weaknesses in dealing with the stress of a tough project, which then snowballed. Or maybe, no. I was actually feeling really great after two weeks of zoloft-free life, and then this project came along. Maybe the culprit is THE PROJECT? Or?? Which is it ...one, both or neither, or something that I never considered????
Thanks for your meaured responses about stopping zoloft. I, too, felt it was a bit soon, but it sort of began happening after a few missed doses and I did not feel inclinded to arrest it. I wanted to take the chance, and I did. At first I felt GREAT. And for the next week I felt great on baclofen alone up until the project stress/relationship breakup/HD & laptop crash. I was titrating up well, making my goals, and my drinking/smoking/anxiety/depression was dramatically lessened and I was madly hopeful that I had, at last, found a solution to my behavior pattern. And then??? I still don't know what happened. I don't know what to attribute it to. Maybe just stress. Maybe lack of zoloft.
And now?? Well, maybe I should just post again in one week (project OVER by then!!!! YAY~~~)
I am still titrating up on baclofen. I was supposed to go for more today, but I just don't think I can do it. I cannot spare the brain space to even think about it. So... My 25/20/15 seems okay, and I am going to have to leave it as is for another week because I just can't deal with it.
I am still hopeful, and will come back and have time to read posts and restore my equilibrium in a week or so. I hate letting a project do this to my life. I hope I don't let it happen again.
cheers,
cb
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