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[StuckinLA]

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Son. Of. A. *@#%! It's impossible to argue with these wily Welshmen...

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Don't call me that!

I don't know...
I always regret using my real name. But what the hell. I give it out to all and sundry.

I'm glad you went bac to sleep. Cat naps will have to do for a while. You will be AMAZED at the 20 minute nap. And two hour stretches at night for a little bit.
I love Hitchens and am so grateful for his wit, intelligence, cynicism and atheism. But I am even more grateful that I am nothing like him. At all. One is enough.

Tag, you will know the switch in this way: You will not only not be drinking a beer, you will certainly not be putting it into something so no one knows you're drinking a beer. And you will not care. At all. And for a while, beer (and most things) might not taste or smell at all appetizing. When they do, you will find that one, or less than one, is just about perfect. But you won't notice at all, because you won't care. (Except when the dinner bill comes and what used to amount to more than $100 only amounts to about $60. That's nice. )
And thanks. Bacatcha.

Normal is, apparently, buying a gald dang washing machine. On credit. It is sometimes excruciating.

But I'm studying.

Energizer bunny like. Which is what I thought you were referring to in your initial, unedited post. *sigh*

[redhead77]

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StuckinLA;1373016 wrote: Couple of quick things:

So there's no way I can comment on anyone's choice for their particular bunny, but it's kinda like do you need to know it'll work in an emergency, or does it have to go on and on forever...

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Imagine my surprise when I caught up on the threads. I'm quite used to my SEs. I don't need to broadcast them the WWW anymore. But I will say, I think I might need to rotate my batteries. Cause who really knows what the best one is for your tools or 'toys'. :H

[taw]

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Hey Stuck! Get your reading and laundry done? How's your class? Keeping them in line?

Awfully quiet around here again.....think I will go post an update on my thread!

xo
T

[StuckinLA]

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Hiya, Taw, and everyone! Sorry I've been MIA for a minute, as I got distracted by the logistics of RedH's battery-rotation problem. Funny how issues like that can quickly multiply like... rabbits.

Now that the serious stuff is out of the way, we can move on to the lighter things. Like yes, I did get the laundry done, though not put away so it's pretty much making the greatest cat's nest ever right now in the bedroom.

Then I went to the gym, where I did virtually nothing because all the treadmills were taken when I got done on the rowing machine. And instead of continuing with the rowing thing I just went home... Or, to the bar rather.

Where my Lord, is it possible for the bartender to be any more beautiful? No, the answer is clearly no. Last night and tonight we talked about the Sunday Labor Day party she went to. Man, did she have a good time. She was wasted, and not eating because I guess BBQ makes her ill. Of course, Jaeger bombs, Hennessey, vodka, and some kind of mixed tequila drink, all laid out in their own red cup couldn't have helped her tummy much either. Crazy people, all of them! By the end of the night she says she kept getting the Jaeger cup and the Hennessey cup mixed up. Easy mistake, I suppose.

Then she blacked out for the most part, and finally slept next to her toilet. And I really wish I could've been there to tuck her in with a pillow and blanket, because sleeping next to the toilet without those really sucks, ya' know? Anyway, that was our conversation last night. With some random discussion of how she buys tons of the same sweatpants and T shirts... not sure how we there but I could've stayed for days, given that I've seen her in those sweatpants exactly 1 time.

Tonight she still wasn't feeling great, and there's a new development. He sexagenarian boyfriend came to pick her up that night, and she doesn't really remember the ride home at all, and now he's not speaking to her. She can't imagine what she said, but we were having fun imagining what it might've been. And she's not broken up about it at all, so at least there's that.

And she's calling me by my first name a lot more lately. And I'm not spending nearly as much time down there, as I'm in every night but only having 1 club soda or, the past 2 nights, 1 Guiness. Actually that's not true: tonight I went in and had a club soda, then left to get smokes and peanut M & Ms, but was then too lazy to walk up the hill so went back for a Guiness. Whatever, the point is that I don't hang out there all night anymore. And as I'm leaving she gets this sad face, I want to say almost pouty in the cutest damned possible way, as she says Bye Stuck. She's not waving yet, even though I've started kinda blowing kisses like a retard, but let's hope!

So that's that. Home is... home + peanut M & Ms that I'm seriously considering eating by taking a spoonful of peanut butter and dipping into the bag, then treating the whole thing like a lollipop. Maybe not.

Hope it's a great one all around MWO. Though I gotta say my Spidey-sense is tingling. NE's studying her nonexistent balls off, I know that, and Windy's getting settled in her new room, so we're cool there. Taw, well you just checked in, and we know RedH is preoccupied so that's OK, even though I'd freaking appreciate an update to know how that's working out.

Space? How are you doing? And did I miss anyone? If I did I miss you, too *sigh*.

I think I might be out of emotis. So Hugs n' Hearts times a dozen.

[EDIT: Nope, I've got 2 more. :l:l]

[spacebebe01]

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Hi Stuck, Im ok thanks, I just havent been posting but have just been reading, nothing to say really and Ive been so tired, but one upside to this was last night I felt so crap I poured away 1/2 of my 2nd can of lager, I have been worried about the amount I had been drinkiing and really need to get it back down again so I hope thats the start of it.

Im so happy things are going well in your life, you deserve it :l

[StuckinLA]

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I heart you so much, Space. I'm glad you're doing OK. Just rest up and relax after the wedding, K? You did such a great job and pulled everything off spectacularly, and under a whole bunch of pressure. You pretty much did the impossible, and you earned all the time you need to relax and read.

I (and we) just worry a little and like to hear from you. 'Cause you've got a pretty voice... well, in writing anyway, but I'm sure it's just as pretty in real life.

:l:l:l

[StuckinLA]

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Holy cow, guys, I let my thread slip down to page 2! I'm not sure that's happened before, and it felt... hell, who am I kidding, it felt fine.

Because I'm all bac'd out still, and not really feeling like trying to write long posts that may or may not be read, given the recent climate here. And bac paranoia is real: every new person who shows up asking for help, I feel like they're a fake, and only trying to suck up my time and energy and getting me emotionally invested in something that'll fail on purpose. So that I'll, I don't know, feel so devastated I'll give up, too? I obviously can't share PM info, but if this one guy is real I feel like sh-t. At the same time, if he's real then he just simply will not listen to directions or do anything to help himself. Then I called out a couple other people, and if they're real I feel like sh-t, but it's the same thing: bac is not rocket science. It's fucking medicine. Take it like a damned prescription, people. Why is that so difficult?

I was the same way when I started freaking out, I know. But someone says they're freaking out, and so they take another handful of pills? I don't believe them. If that's really what you're doing, you're doing it wrong.

And then anyone who asks me about benzos, in public but especially in PM, can just stop right there. I've never taken them, I know nothing about them, and I have absolutely no opinion.

Because there are goddamned trolls here, and I can't help but feel like they're targeting me because I'm active pretty much every day. And I have no idea what they're trying to accomplish, other than to make me feel bad. I'm not turning bac, or actually I am, because I hit the f-cking switch and coming down is what you bloody well do at that point. I'm just looking for a comfortable maintenance dose right now. So that can't be it, right? I mean WTF?

If you're going to be an a-hole, at least be an a-hole with some middling amount of intelligence. I don't know, maybe I just won't be as active, and solve the problem that way. But then we're a forum that lets calls for help sit unanswered, and the the trolls f-cking know that. I'm not saying they're stupid, I'm just saying they're not smart.

And this is not the post I wanted to use to resurrect my thread from the depths of page 2, because there are very real things to say. But I really can't bring myself to care enough to say them. Because it's now quarter after 4, and I'm exhausted. Wanna know how bac'd out I really am? I tried to pay my rent twice this month. That's right, on the 30th I freaked the F out, thought I was going to be late, rushed off to mail a check. Then a day or 2 ago I got a very confused phone call from my landlord, asking me why he was looking at 2 checks for September's rent.

:H, at least I'm a super-responsible scatterbrain!

And my mom sent home baked cookies! The vast majority of which I will give to my students because I don't need to be fatter.

And the bartender asked if she should take a class or just get a tutor to get her GED, and I offered to tutor her! And I will keep relentlessly offering until she accepts my totally ulterior-motivated help.

Hope it's a good one, everybody. :l:l:l

Even the trolls. Especially the trolls, actually. Turn those frowns upside down, boys and girls! Life isn't so bad--you just can't see that because you're spending too much time here. Maybe try AA instead? Seems like you might fit in better there and find it more helpful.

[taw]

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Morning Stuck!! Hope you got some good sleep!!!!! Hey, just heard about some quakes out your way...all good???

I personally want to say thank you for being so active here, and always answering the new members and being on Troll Patrol! They are part of the reason I left here before!!

Have a good day, Stuck!

[TexasAg]

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Good morning Stuck, I was wondering where everyone was.

You gotta keep posting...especially about the bartender. I'm living vicariously through you, so get some already!

Cheers,

Day 56 on Bac - 160 mg
Binge free - 28 days
AF - 6 days

[redhead77]

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Hey Stuck,

I don't have an update on the battery rotation. In all honesty, I've been very tired lately. Not caring too much what batteries I have.

Don't let the trolls get you down too much. Not that I'm one to talk. They annoy me too (sometimes worse). I've totally wanted to write this place off many times because of the drama. If you do that, then they've won. That's what they want. Maybe. And maybe they just want to get well too and don't know how.

I have a party I have to get ready for tomorrow. It was my daughter's 4th birthday this week. But I wanted to respond to your question, because somehow I missed your post on 9/5.

Have a good night!

[spacebebe01]

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Hi Stuck

I hope you do stay active here, your daily posts have meant so much to me and I would miss not hearing from you way tooo much. Try not to let them bother you, I know its hard, especially when it concerns trying to help newcomers then its downright wrong, but if you let them stop you posting then we all lose, mostly you.

Hope the party goes well red, arr, the little sweetie 4 years old, I think she will love it

[ifulovelife2]

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There are trolls here, there always have been trolls here and there always will be. It's an open, public forum and many members of the general public are complete arseholes. Alcoholic members of the general public are alcoholic arseholes. They're the worst kind. Trust me, I know this because I used to be one. Actually, I wasn't just an alcoholic arsehole, I was an extremely dangerous and cruel alcoholic and if someone had described me as an 'arsehole', they either really didn't know me or were just being kind and overlooking just how despicable I really was. Now I'm just a recovering alcoholic arsehole. And slightly less arseholish (real word!) than I used to be...I hope.

My point (apart from the fact I like writing the word 'arsehole' almost as much as I do 'gusset') is...ummm...I can't remember...errr...oh I know: I really do enjoy watching chicks play naked Twister. Yes, that's it. No, that can't be it. Wrong thread. Wrong forum! Oh, I remember: we've all seen the annoying "Don't Feed The Trolls" pictures people display when someone makes repeated inflammatory posts. It's true, the more you respond to their posts, the more incentive they have to continue. I know it's difficult when they are deliberately trying to derail threads and posting misinformation. But rather than engaging them directly, it really is much better to just ignore them and post as if they never had. Perhaps place a simple warning at the end of your post, so that newbies know the troll is talking bollocks but honestly, trying to directly engage them in order to stop them is like trying to stuff a turd back up a dog's arse when he's taken a dump where he shouldn't have: impractical, messy, pointless and will quite possibly get you arrested if it isn't your dog. Admittedly the last point isn't pertinent to this discussion.

Anyhoo, to the really important subject: Dildos!
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Oh yes, before I forget, Stuck can you please advise me on the best benzos please? And should I take them orally or can I stick them up my bum like I do with cocaine. I'm not the only one who does that right? Right?

Don't stop posting. If you do, I will be miffed. You don't want to see me miffed.:l

[StuckinLA]

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Good morning everyone (for me),

I've been so irrationally pissed off the last couple days. Almost manically pissed, maybe a little anxious on top of it. I couldn't for the life of me figure it out, but I think I might finally have a clue: I f-cking hate the goddamned pills again. Like seriously hate them. Not as much as at certain moments on the way up, but maybe close, and it hadn't occurred to think that was it.

But yeah, for the past few days that's it. Because they worked, and that's flipping amazing. Like, seriously, mind-warpingly, never in a million years would have thought possible, amazing.

Yeah, great, so now they worked and I'm still off foggy in the head and can't sleep or concentrate or anything, I fall asleep all over the place, and can't wait to come down. But can't come down too quickly, blah blah blah. And then I got pretty paranoid about all kinds of stuff, and misinterpreting things here, things in email, things in real life. Sucks.

I was going to write all this out last night, and I was also going to add "Please, for Christ's holy sake, don't watch The Grey with Liam Neeson right before bed," but I got super tired and went to bed.

Um, and guys, I think I just slept for 8 straight hours...

So what's up, world, you look a bit different this morning. But not that different, because I still have so, so much work to do. Oh, and if y'all remember that soul-crushing online tutoring job I have? Yeah, that starts again today, so I've got to spend 3 hours today and 3 hours tomorrow commenting on student essays.

And I've really gotta get to that now, and to everything else. Thank you all so much for checking in on me.

Oh, and M, you could stick 'em up your arse but be very careful, you don't want to end up like in that scene from Trainspotting in the "Worst Toilet in Scotland." I really want to make a joke about how shitty it'd be to end up in Scotland in the first place, but I've actually never been there... Maybe it's lovely?

Peace out, peeps, for most of today anyway. Love ya' all. :l:l:l

[spacebebe01]

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Im not Scottish, but Ive been there a few times and there is a lot of it thats beautiful some arts could possibly listed as the most beautiful place on earth, but it has its shitholes like everywhere else, and Im coming to think that shitholes the world round are problably pretty similar, because their shittieness is all fueled by the same man made problems.