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[StuckinLA]

Totally new to forum, sort of new to bac

OK, so this is one of those weird things where I keep saying everything's fine, but clearly isn't. Like I'm all happy that I'm not getting bad hangovers, and haha, no consequences. But going in to the bathroom just now, I looked in the mirror and realized that I already showered this morning, before I made coffee and came on MWO. I stood there for a sec, really unsure about things, and almost showered again just to make sure, but running a hand through my hair it's clear that I really did already shower (I use this spikey glue stuff, and the only way to get rid of it is shampoo, so like I said, I for sure already showered this AM).

Well, wish me luck with the boss and with grading papers today. I'd be a lot more comfortable about this whole thing with a normal hangover, even though I'd feel a whole lot worse, at least I'd know what to expect...

[taw]

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Aww, Stuck! Good luck....stop and get a Revive!!!!! or a shot of espresso!! Blame it on the earthquake if he asks!!!

[ifulovelife2]

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Yeah, good luck, SiLA.

And thank God you're not like some of the people* on here who consider a daily shower a chore.


*You know who you are, you dirty girl!!!!!!

[StuckinLA]

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Thanks guys. I just helped a Mexican nun get on the bus with her cart of whatever Mexican nuns push around, so I should be good.

[taw]

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How about some Peanut M&M's and AB for when you are home? Maybe try that before stashing a bottle....Just an idea....you can tell me to go pound, too if drinking is what will get you through! Turst me I understand!!

[StuckinLA]

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I probably won't stash a bottle, or even try to sneak any beers. But I will fo' sho' get a Bloody Mary probably before getting on the plane tomorrow. And then there's some good ol' fashioned partying to be had with the friends who know I'm drinking again. But not with my Ex, thank Christ.

Don't know how you guys do it, AB is the one thing I won't try. I cannot handle feeling trapped. And, to me at least, I know that's how I'd feel. Anyway, I have mad respect for you guys, but just being honest with y'all about where I'm at, with everything.

I dunno, you'll get plenty of updates still. And an update on today, which i survived, when I'm at my computer instead of my phone. And maybe something about the bartender? In my limited experience, there's no greater aphrodisiac than the phrase "I'm leaving town tomorrow." :H

Oh and before I forget the details: going up to 225 tomorrow.

[taw]

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I was wondering about the bartender....have not heard much lately about her...offer to buy her a drink on your way out of town!!

Keep us posted!!

[TexasAg]

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Morning Stuck, how did the meeting and grading papers with the boss go?

Cheers!

Day 27 on Bac - 80mg
AF - 8/8/12
BBF (binge beast free) ? 8/8/12

[StuckinLA]

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Good morning (for me), folks!

OK, so last night I started fading pretty quickly, and couldn't really concentrate to compose my thoughts, but it was in a slightly panicky-fading way, which has returned a bit. So what did I do? Left random, uncomposed thoughts on everybody else's threads!

So I was in the office yesterday from 10-4:30, and that's the closest I've come to an actual workday in quite some time. It was yucky, but it was air conditioned, and the department did my us lunch (Korean BBQ = delicious). My "boss" was actually a former student from my department. Don't know her all that well, but have had a class or two with her. She's stepping in to a new full time position where I teach. But not where I'm teaching anymore, as I'm actually moving to a different starting in like 2 weeks. So this woman was my boss for all of yesterday, and our only task was to read through the final papers for my 15 students, and then compare our grades--to make sure I'm not being super-lenient or a total dick.

It wouldn't have been that bad, except for the weird hangover-from-hell. Like a ninja hangover, just when I thought I was all in the clear, my head would feel like it was about to explode, and that would snap me back to attention, and I'd realize I had been spacing out for a little while. Nobody seemed to notice.

So then I ran into a couple old friends who were stopping by the office. The girl, I happened to sleep with a few times, and she's not speaking to me now (for several months, actually) because of this big to-do about the last bender I was on, and how towards the tail end of it we were in my office, sharing a vodka tonic that I had in my water bottle, and let's just say we ended up getting a bit frisky. A few weeks later, in sobriety, while standing in line at the cafeteria, it may have come out that I didn't immediately remember what happened in the office. One of those, I did remember, but not without prompting--I know you all know what I'm talking about. Like "Where did I leave my car last night?" But then as soon as you find it it all comes back...

Anyway, so the other friend is a truly awesome guy, and I'm fairly certain they're dating now, which is great. (Truly.) But perhaps a tad awkward all the same... Fast forward to cleaning out my office for the last time, and finding a bunch of her stuff that she'd stored there over the summer, which I bagged up and had to bring home.

So I'm sitting at the bar with, among other things, a Trick-or-Treat pumpkin basket full of Ring Pops. I didn't exactly phrase it as a marriage proposal or anything, but the bartender did accept a Ring Pop. She's been having a rough couple of days, with one of the regulars kind of doing whatever he wants, and the bar's owner letting him get away with it, and completely disregarding the bartender's feelings, etc. So she's been venting a little to me, which I'm perfectly happy with. Because she's so, so pretty, and making these consciously cute angry faces. And we talked about a whole bunch of stuff, and some random dude sat down next to me, and we got to talking a bit while he got smashed on Heiniken, and so the bartender chatted with both of us, and my writing came up. And she was like someday you'll end up writing about all this, kind of gesturing to the whole room. And I was like how do you know I'm not already? I think she might have blushed a little, but it's hard to tell as her complexion is slightly on the darker side (she's Latina, guess I've not yet mentioned that).

I could've sworn I had enough to hit the $10 tab, so it was kind of a bonus when one of the guys bought me a round. But then when I tried to cash out it was only $8, so what I thought was my 4th shot + beer was actually only my 3rd... and anyway had to pay cash again... My credit card credit union is going to start thinking I'm sobering up or something...

Not sure what I was expecting... a good bye hug? Maybe at least a high-five, but alas no. It was getting pretty busy by the time I left, though. Part of the reason I was leaving, as it gets really cramped in there. Usually it's all hipsters (ugh), but lately the bar's going through one of its phases where it's a lesbian bar. Goes in waves, as they're gay friendly, but try not to be too friendly, as once that's the scene it's hard to get away from it, if that makes sense. Point is, now I'm a little more conflicted about leaving when it's crowded. :H

No hug, no high-five, just good bye. Maybe absence will make the heart grow fonder? Well, my heart at least. :upset:

Unfortunately, when I got home I wasn't really liking the "buzzed" feeling, because it wasn't really a buzz. Just felt kinda crappy, and "decided" to just keep going to get to where I could go to bed/pass out immediately. Which, like I said waaaaaay up at the beginning (sorry this is so long!), I almost did watching some Rachel Maddow on the laptop, and posting here, and finally did get to bed and get to passed out.

Thanks for asking (bet you wish you hadn't! :H). Hope it's a good day all around. I need to pack and get ready to go. T minus 4 hours until my taxi is here, so I'll catch you guys L8er.

[taw]

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Happy packing! Have a safe trip! and yes, we have internet here....most of the time...depending on how quickly Com Ed works after the storms that will be coming thru today!!

[spacebebe01]

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Have a good trip Stuck, I hope it all goes well for you visiting your folks.

[StuckinLA]

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Good morning everyone. Will have a longer update soon, 'cause the flight blew a lot with anxiety and SEs. But a friend ended up picking me up from the airport & we had a lovely night at an all night diner having milkshakes and French fries. Just got home, & it's 5 AM. So a couple hours sleep before meeting my new lawyer.

Anyway just wanted to let everyone know I'm safe and sound and have plenty of bac.

[spacebebe01]

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Glad you got there ok

[taw]

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Woohoo!! Welcome to Chicago! Going to be great weather here for the next few days!

Good luck with your lawyer!

[TexasAg]

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Enjoy your trip! Looking forward to hearing about it......

Cheers!

Day 28 on Bac - 80mg
AF - 8/8/12
BBF (binge beast free) – 8/8/12