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[playland]

Totally new to forum, sort of new to bac

Dear Ne,
I was just reading back a bit on your posts, I had read them before, please don't be offended by my asking, because you know that I truly am a friend, so here is my question:

When reading your posts about starting nursing school, it feels to me like you don't really know why you are doing it. You don't like the idea of a CPR class that involves a few hours of time and don't like the idea of working with other people, you haven't been responsible to a working world for the last year and a half, and some other comments that just don't seem like your heart is in it, I'm wondering if you actually need to work and if not, perhaps just continue status quo.

I'm sure I don't know all of your back story or why you picked healthcare to begin with, but it feels like there is not very much positive and excited about your doing this thing. I've wondered about this for awhile, and it is probably not my concern to wonder, and I am just now having the courage to ask you about it.

I'm a nurse and can say that even if the CPR clas seems mindless, and all the other things you go thru to become a nurse, I think it is beyond worth it, I feel sad when people are negative about the thing that they have chosen to pursue, because why pursue it if it is not a passion.

I hope that you will go into your schooling with a feeling of excitement because believe me!!! it is so exciting and so fulfilling and you are the one that will benefit most from helping other people.

So love,
Play

[Bruunhilde]

Totally new to forum, sort of new to bac

Thanks Stuck. Right back atcha.

Love is all we need.

[StuckinLA]

Totally new to forum, sort of new to bac

Why'd peeps delete their posts? Oh well. Anyways, thank God summer's over in most places, but I guess it never really ends in California.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=nVjsGKrE6E8https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=nVjsGKrE6E8

Take care everyone. I'm doing well, and there's an update coming soon.

:l:l:l

[spacebebe01]

Totally new to forum, sort of new to bac

Just popping in to say hello and see how you all are, I havent been for a while and had no idea where you have been at with the bac Stuck, do you have any ideas on what to do now

:l

[StuckinLA]

Totally new to forum, sort of new to bac

Hi Space, thanks for stopping by. I've been following you a little on the topa thread, and I'm really sorry about your anxiety. I will try to say hello over there more often. And hello everyone else.

So what am I up to? That's a darned good question. Well, I decided to find out once and for all if the leg sensitivity and pain really is connected to bac, as I suspected it was. No one else seems to think it is, since nobody else has reported quite the same thing. But like I said, I was just pretty sure it's related because it started right when I started taking bac, and it's even in my very first post.

What this means is that I went steadily down, and now am at 30 mg/day. This was probably not a good idea, and I seriously DO NOT recommend it. I'm depressed as hell, anxious, and drinking. I can't imagine what this all would be like if I were on an AD or anything else on top of it. But the leg pain is nearly gone entirely. Not sure where that leaves me, actually.

That's not entirely true. It leaves me thinking I need to get my shit together. I bought a chair from IKEA that's going to be delivered this week, so I'll have a comfortable place to curl up at home. Whether I'm working or just watching random TV and movies on the internet, I simply don't care, as long as I have a place to sit that's not my desk and not the bar. I'm toying with the idea of buying a new Xbox since mine broke, and I'm even looking at TVs. Basically just distractions, but distractions that are better than drinking. Of course I don't really have the money, especially after the chair, and then I kind of spent way too much money at the bar this weekend...

So I guess ultimately I'm dealing with some brain chemistry that's been on a roller coaster, and I'm riding it out for the time being. That's about all I can say for sure right now. I'll stay on LDB for a while, see how things go, and from there who knows.

I'm OK, guys. Not great by any stretch, but OK. And I'm not going anywhere (ha!), so though I've let my thread languish for a while don't think I'm disappearing or anything. Hope everyone had a good holiday and is doing well.

:l

[Bruunhilde]

Totally new to forum, sort of new to bac

As I say to myself everytime I'm about to go on about my anxiety and panic, 'take a gabapentin' already. In fact, I just did while typing this because I keep forgetting and then wondering what in hell can i do besides work, sleep or mind numbing chores today? I can do a fun thing or two, can't I? I can't seem to come up with anything when I'm so anxious but now that it's down the hatch, maybe in half an hour I'll be typing something fun or outside having some fun.

Glad you got a chair, clearly a healthy reason for doing so also.

[joanna_d]

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i 'm afraid of being a drag, but you know meditation is a good thing to do Bruun.
it's a healthy way to pass time (duh) and meanwhile being good to your brain.
when i feel up to it, i'll post some guided meditations by Jon Kabat-Zinn (founder of the mindfulness based stress reduction program, that has helped lots of people with terminal diseases, and with unrelieveable pain, or depression) at my thread.

[Bruunhilde]

Totally new to forum, sort of new to bac

Hi Joanna, thanks, I do meditate every night in order to sleep - its the only way I can sleep unless I drink enough to pass out. I focus on my breath, keep refocusing, and release stories in my mind about my stress as just stories, focus on my breath, etc. Does help. I do need more - I have some guided meditation cd's - I forget the guy who leads them - and I have hypnotherapy cd's which aren't that different from meditation in that they have you focusing your thoughts and quieting your body and mind. Will have a look at your thread, thanks.

[StuckinLA]

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Well guys I guess my meditation is now called an Xbox. Went out and bought one yesterday, and holy crap did/do I not have the money for it. Worst part? I got home and unpacked it and played for a while and didn't even really have fun. I swear it's freaking compulsive. But at least I can play DVDs and watch Netflix on a real TV now if I want, instead of just on my laptop... that's pretty cool at least, and with a couple of games here I won't lack for distractions if I come home instead of going to the bar.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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This is sort of random, maybe.
I'm a little obsessed with this vitamin B thing. I don't get it. I need more clues, if you've got them. (This is very much a matter of satisfying my own curiosity! Sorry for that! But it could be really interesting...)

It confuses me. Too much vitamin B6 can cause peripheral neuropathy. That would sort of explain your symptoms. But not unless you're eating too much B6. B12, on the other hand, is made in the body, by the body. Actually by bacteria in the large intestine. Both Bs are needed in order to maintain healthy happy nerves, and the treatment for aching-legs-at-night is sometimes B12.

Of course, my 101 knowledge of this stuff and some google searching when I should be studying (like now) does not give me adequate knowledge on the matter. But it came up as a matter of discussion and I really am confounded. Especially when you throw bac into the mix.

So I know it's basically a non-issue, but it's piqued my interest and well, I keep coming back to it. So...You got any clues?

[StuckinLA]

Totally new to forum, sort of new to bac

I don't entirely get it either, nor do I have any clues. Perhaps the daily vitamin, bananas, and frequent vitamin water with both potassium and vitamin B was way more than I needed, especially given that the artificial Bs in multivitamins aren't excreted as readily as the natural ones in food. But being a drunk, I figured I'd be B deficient. Haven't had the levels checked since, but given that the pain is reduced to nearly gone I'm practically certain it's bac related.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Yep. That's the really confusing part. And interesting. It's pretty unlikely that it's ingestion, right? Or perhaps (and most likely?) its completely unrelated to the B. that's part of what I don't get. I know this is kind of silly. Thanks for humor ing me.

I'm on my phone because to open the comp would be the death knell of the studying I have to do. :-/

How's the Xbox? I tried to play with nephews when they were here. It would take way more time than I've got to get good. And then I'd be hooked. I'm old enough to have been the reigning Donkey Kong champ bac when it was an actual arcade game and I had to steal my parents quarters. I'm still proud (sorta) of the fact that some teenage boy said he didn't know girls could be that good. (Does all this make you embarrassed for me? No worries. I am...a middle aged nerd. Waddareyagonnado?) but be sure I could kick some kong ass. And Galaga too.

[Bruunhilde]

Totally new to forum, sort of new to bac

Hey you guys check out Holistic and the I inositol thread? How would that fit in, any idea?

[joanna_d]

Totally new to forum, sort of new to bac

hi Bruun, can you give me the links to those threads?

[spacebebe01]

Totally new to forum, sort of new to bac

Im just trying to catch up on your thread stuck, just wanted you to know Im still here with you x