stumbled and fell

[struggles]

Good morning! I have not been on in a while and had a long stint of not drinking, until last week. Now I have been on a binge daily for a week. I woke up this morning feeling like crap, my stomach really hurts and I am sooooo disappointed in myself. I stopped taking the topa and realize I need to get back. I feel so alone in this because I hid my drinking from those around me who were supporting me. I know today will be tough and I have 16 beers in the fridge and that old thinking of just have a drink, it will make you feel better has been running through my head all morning. I am so upset:upset:

Why can't I do this? It sucks.

Thanks for listening.

[jaddyday]

stumbled and fell

Morning,

Unfortunately the vast majority of us will 'relapse' at some point during the process of recovery. I have gone through it countless times over the past five years and can really relate to your feelings of disappointment and guilt. Try to put these feelings to bed - they're not helpful (easier said than done I know). You CAN do it you just haven't got there yet. Through advancements in medication I believe that there is a solution now for most of us it's just a case of trial and error. When I relapsed in the past I felt that I had undone all the good work I had done - not true, it's all part of the journey.

Good luck and keep us informed.

Justin

[spacebebe01]

stumbled and fell

I agree everything Justin just said.

Try to take it easy on yourself you will be ok. You know what to do, drink plenty of water, eat small meals, take a nap if you need it, take your mind off things with tv, go for a walk....

Start taking the topa again, it worked before and come back on the topa tread, everyone will be pleased to hear from you

xx

[StuckinLA]

stumbled and fell

Don't stress yourself out. It happens... to a lot of people, all the time.

And those beers will make you feel better. This morning. Maybe even for the rest of today. But you gotta deal with the crap feeling eventually, so it's just a matter of when you want to deal with it.

If you're ready to give it a go, pour those beers down the sink. I know, I'm thinking the same thing, "but what if I cave, even later this afternoon! Then I just wasted 16 beers, and that's probably at least 20 bucks. Why pour them down the sink just to go buy more?"

I've done that same thing. Shit, I think last week. I had 3 beers in the fridge and drank 1 of them while pouring the other 2 out. But I really feel like it helps get your head back in the game.