So for the past few weeks I have read probably 100 or more threads on this site and ordered Dr. A's book. The more I read the more excited I got for my first order of Bac to arrive. I was tremendously interested in curbing my cravings and dealing with the related anxiety which I hadn't made the connection to alcohol until my current research.
This is day 3 and I am honesly already experiencing relief! I am also experiencing solomance (I wondered what that would feel like). But who the f#$% cares! I cought myself with a warm beer twice last night because I hadn't taken a sip in so long! That hasn't happened to me in a VERY long time. Also from day one I noticed a significant decrease in my anxiety. Normally when I go on dates (sober) my heart races and it is so absolutely stressful. I almost always put myself in a position to be able to drink (Bar, concert, eg..) to calm my nerves. Almost every woman in the past 3 years I have been with comments on my heart pounding out of my chest when we are holding each other. Yesterday, I noticed myslef calmly chatting away and I hadn't even slammed a few beers before going out.
So far this is exactly what I was hoping would happen. Placebo? Maybe. But the way I feel is incredible, like there is a light in my darkness after all these years. If this is the miracle that I think it quite possibly may be, why in the world isn't this mainstream? If it is common for Tobacco addiction to be treated with meds then why in the world doesnt the medical community get on board with Bac for AL addiction?!?!
I mean this med could quite possibly save my life. I am journaling my daily experience in detail to eventually share assuming this path leads me out of the fog I have lived in for 15 years.
To AL and its related anxiety - You can kiss my Bac ass!
:thanks:
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