Just thinking about it. Not sure I should be worried or not.
I am at 220 mg. I just went back up to 230 and have the lame SE's again. Tinnitus, zappy feelings, etc. Oh well.
Bad timing as I have to drive down to New Mexico for some exec meetings and I am sure there will be booze at night. I think I am ok with that for the most part. At least at 6 am this morning I am. Maybe the bac is kicking in again. Dunno.
So any of you fellow bac'ers go through that? I feel bad for having that beer on my b-day and calling it a reward now. Now thinking about wine. I went to a movie on 7/4. I almost got a glass of wine. It was so crowded that the bar was unattended. Noticed people managed to get some booze later but I did not get up to grab one. Once upon of time I would have.
Man my life is a bore. Just same routine every f'n day. No extra $ to plan an exciting trip overseas like I once would. That would keep me going.
Get up at 5:30, drink some energy drink. Feed the critters. Shower, get dressed. Computers are already on as they are set to turn on and I have folks from India that need access at ungodly hours.
Work, rarely take a break unless I have a business trip coming up and do fun things like get a haircut and get my car washed (unless I am flying).
Work. Stop around 4ish. Cook. Maybe clean up or let the wife do it. Sit down, throw on Boardwalk Empire or the series of the week. Watch that. Figure out what I will take to sleep like benadryl or something.
Put the cat in her special room so she does not wake us up at 4:30. Go to sleep and do it again. Lame.
One day this mortgage will be paid off maybe 14 more months. I keep thinking I will do whatever I want then. Maybe I won't.
I'd like to move south of the border and open up a beachside B&B or restaurant and bar. My wife probably would not be on board for that. I really want to get back to being fluent in Spanish one way or another.
Enough of my rambling.
So more bac or just deal with the thoughts? I already have SE's at 220mg and 230 is helping. Just in a funk maybe? Find a way to plan a trip? I still can't walk very well thanks to the remnants of gout and hobbies are hard to do because of it. Doc was not help.
:thanks:
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