Giving up....in a good way!

[daisy45]

Giving up....in a good way!

Taw, are you exercising? It may seem another task but if you get into it you will feel more energised and happier....

[taw]

Giving up....in a good way!

Hi Daisy!

Yes, I am walking at least 1/2 hour 5-6 times a week! It usually ends up to a little under 2 miles...it will give me energy right away, but within an hour or so, all I want to do is nap!!

I am still taking my vitamins, and eating much better...just a slow processes getting my insides to match what I am doing on the outside~

[StuckinLA]

Giving up....in a good way!

I kind of forget about this, but I white-knuckled it for 30 days in January. Day 29 is when I knew I'd eventually lose (didn't know when, felt like I had a good while yet in me, but eventually). I just knew I wasn't done with wanting to be a drunk... That's when I started bac, and it wasn't until 62 days sober that I was finally at 150 and drank--like a moron or, well, like a drunk :H

Point is, those 30 days (hell, all 62) were no less an unproductive blur than any of the previous 10 years. I was so pissed! If I'm sober, why am I not getting anything done!?

So I was sitting in my counselor's office one afternoon, saying something to that effect, like I've done absolutely nothing this semester. And she said You got sober. So really you've done a lot.

I ended up fucking that up, as we all know, and of course I told her that, too. Er, um, no the point here is about you. You are doing a ton of work right now! Of course you're exhausted. Of course you can't quite focus on things--because your mind in completely focused on other things. Your brain chemistry is rewiring itself, even without bac or anything else (I have no evidence for this, but it sure sounds good, no?).

So don't ya' dare go thinking that nothing's changed. Everything has changed. Best of all, this way things will get better every single day, instead of the old way when... won't even say it.

I'll go ahead and quote a Chicago author whom I'm certain you'd love and should totally check out--because her writing's awesome too, but she's amazing in person, just amazing--Sara Levine, Treasure Island!!!: Steer the boat, girlfriend!

That's my way of saying Stay the Course. And run over to Book Cellar or whichever local bookshop is local for you and buy that book! :H
:l

[Bruunhilde]

Giving up....in a good way!

I have the same problem - and although I've had too much to drink (one always turns into too many for me right now) every week, I'm also spending more time sober than drunk/hung, and the freaking headaches I'm getting are like knives in my eyes and the side of my head. How many times do you go through frickin' withdrawal anyways? I guess I keep going through it because I keep reverting after a few days? The good news is this time I'm more determined and less attracted to the alcohol. It has been the main thing that undermines my every goal and fogs my mind, but I now realize it's not the only thing that fogs my mind, I think my mind is naturally foggy but maybe its just detoxing. Like you said Taw, it will take a long time for my body to recover especially if I keep relapsing. Have you tried Milk Thistle to speed up your detox/recovery?

I am - for the record - not taking antabuse because I'm taking metformin and each one is really hard on the kidneys. I'm scared to death of kidney failure. And you're not supposed to drink on metformin either because it can cause lactic acid buildup which could be fatal or something like that.


Stuck, good point. Choosing to be sober is actually alot of work. The only people who would understand that are alcoholics.

But this headache is murder! It seems to be getting worse, going into my jaw. AaaahhHHH!

Oh Lord, won't you buy me a Mercedes Benz? I feel that would solve all my problems.

[redhead77]

Giving up....in a good way!

Reggie;1363055 wrote: Sorry me dear here is one I think you are trying to give the ciggies up and the booze...sorry if iam wrong Love Ya Red

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Huh. That was an interesting song. Thanks Reg. Yup, that's what I'm trying to do. Anyway, I just got done working 4 days in a row. Yesterday, I didn't do a full 12, but I had to run around in the morning and get last minute things for the boys. They went back to school today. I'm enjoying the peace and quiet of one kid at home this morning, now afternoon, while feeling totally wiped. I still haven't showered. Other than that, I am feeling better Taw. Thanks for asking.

What an inspirational post, Stuck! I'm not feeling very articulate at the moment. I will say, I think it takes time, Taw. We do a ton of damage when we drink excessively for an extended period of time. I know you've written your wine gave you energy in the evenings. Alcohol often has a stimulant like effect on me. It's much more pronounced without Nal. I'll be so exhausted and still have a ton of things that have to get done. I'll think, wouldn't a glass of wine or two help? No good. I can't even say I'm craving alcohol most of the time anymore. It's sheer habit. A crutch. That was supposed to be about you and it turned into something about me. But the point is, I can relate very well. The difference is you're AF. Yay!!! Keep on truckin'. :l

Speaking of energy, I have zero and have a ton to get done. That's not to say I'm going to turn to wine for it this afternoon.

Greetings to everyone else too! I'm glad you're moved, Ne. I'm going to make it over to your thread one of these days. You know I read it.

[redhead77]

Giving up....in a good way!

I wish I could buy you a Mercedes Benz, B. I would like to buy myself one first, tho. It would have working AC too. I hope your headache gets better. Headaches are the worst. Caffeine and ibuprofen always help me. And food. :l

[redhead77]

Giving up....in a good way!

Wait! That was a Janis Joplin song, wasn't it?

[redhead77]

Giving up....in a good way!

Of course it was.

[Bruunhilde]

Giving up....in a good way!

LOL, yes of course it was. Reggie's cigarette song was fun! I didn't like any other songs that person/s did but loved the argument format of the ciggie song. Very cute. Thanks for wishing you could buy me a MB, that song's been in my head inbetween headaches. Actually, I think WITH the headaches. Its my headache song. Just pops up. My friends all drive Porsches, I must make amends!

By the way, should I refer to you as Lord from now on? Or is Red still good?

[Bruunhilde]

Giving up....in a good way!

And I would be glad to buy you ALL a MB with A/C when my ship comes in. As daddy used to say when I asked for a horse.
ray:

[redhead77]

Giving up....in a good way!

:H I don't have any witty comments, B. I'm too brain dead today. Red is just fine. I've finally managed to dress myself. I have to run to the gas station since I'm out of cigs. That's what I need to motivate me out of the house. Oh Lord...

[Bruunhilde]

Giving up....in a good way!

I was thinking the same thing about not being witty myself, Red. I am brain dead!

[spacebebe01]

Giving up....in a good way!

Cigs are what often motivate me out of the house as well now I dont need to be going out to get drink.

It is so difficult to get this sober life sorted isnt it, I also feel tired and like crap a lot of the time Taw and really do believe that our bodies and minds have got so damaged by alcohol that it is going to take time to get right, but the shitty thing Im now thinking is its also going to take effort as well and thats what I am lacking right now, Im so used to coming into my house and pouring a drink and then sitting there and getting drunk that now Im not doing that Im just sitting here doing bugger all, and the maddest thing is I know exercise will sort this feeling out but Im damned if I can do it, sorry but Ive also turned this into being about me but Im trying to say that I think most of us feel this way.

:l

[taw]

Giving up....in a good way!

A few stolen minutes on a open computer, with a terrible keyboard....It is all about us! Never apologize guys and chicks! Mi thread, su thread...we are all in the same boat here, more or less! And it makes me feel better that you all can identify so I don't feel so totally and completely crazy!! Cause right now the alarms are going off left and right in my brain!! But I will not give in to them! I will not give in and drink....even tho I cannot stop eating for some reason the last couple days!! Geez, maybe it is the cooler weather, but I have been shoveling it in!! Pfffft! If it is not one thing, it is another....which reminds, time to go smoke!

[Bruunhilde]

Giving up....in a good way!

Sometimes the hot weather depresses the appetite, so it makes sense the cooler weather would bring it back and also your body maybe needs the calories. Didn't you say someone was saying you were too skinny? Maybe you lost weight and your body is trying to make up for it.

Ah, we're def all in the same boat. I for one am struggling at work this week, I can't get it together. However I did get on the treadmill yesterday and today despite the heat and did 20 minutes. That's a milestone for me lately. Ten years ago I would have laughed at someone saying that was a good effort.