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[keenegear89]

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Very sorry stuckinla! I was not thinking! I am very sick!

[TexasAg]

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Keen,
I'm sorry to hear. I don't think being all over the place with your dosage and times is the answer. I try to be very meticulous on my dosage and splitting up over the course of the day. Aproximately every 2 hours 1-20mg pill. I even set my cell phone alarms to buzz me. I'm at 160mg, with some SE's but nothing quite serious, so I'm afraid I can't be very helpful. Frankly, I don't know what the answer is besides calling Dr L again.

My prayers are with you.

Tex

[keenegear89]

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Thank you texasag and I do need the prayers! I have tried the 6 times a day thing and had the phone app remind me every 4hrs but I had mild anxiety. I should of have let it pass but I think I will try that today. I think what I will do is bump my dose to 400mg a day and stay there for a few weeks, then taper down very slowly! Good plan guys?

[keenegear89]

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400 is probably to much. I'll try 350 today. I just drank a beer, prayed and prayed for all you guys and feel great already!

[TexasAg]

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Keen, I don't think bouncing up and down on dosage is the answer. I only go up 20mg every 7-8 days and it takes me a while to get used to at 160mg. I can only imagine at 350. I also divide it up a lot more than every 4 hours. I take 1-20mg every 2hours a total of 8 pills during he day. I suggest you do something similar.

I'm really worried you're adding to your anxiety with the up and down dosage, that cannot be helpful.

I'll keep praying for you.

Tex

[baclofan]

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keenegear89;1375029 wrote: Here is my mood swing just in one day a couple days ago.

Morning: I had the worst depression I have ever had in my entire life! I looked in the mirror and saw the most ugliest person ever. It was so weird! I thought my face was drooping like an old mans face! I walked around all morning with my head down, thinking about ever sucidal thought to man kind! I am surprised I didn’t end my life. I did learn what a depressed person had to go through and it really sucks!

Afternoon: I felt the best I have ever felt in my life! I was walking around talking to every lady, I saw and was loving life! Which is weird for me because I have major social anxiety problems. I thought, I was the hottest guy in the world. I get very delusinal and think everthing is going to be ok and my bac problem was just in my head!

The evening: It was terrifying! I went to go get beer and as I was walking out the liquor store a cop near by turned his siren on and it was instant panic attack! I started shaking! Sweat poured off my body! My heart rate must have been 200! My blood pressure probably was 300/200! I felt like I was going to fall over in convulsions! I then went into the woods, chugged 10 beers in under 15 minutes! Took 200mg of bac! And all that never did subsided my anxiety! I just laid in bed sweating listening to my heart going crazy! It went on into the next morning at work!

Wow, this sounds like so called ultradian rapid cycling. IMHO, you should avoid rapid bac dose increases, and I highly enourage you to stay in close touch with a doctor.

[StuckinLA]

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Dude.

You're talking about numbers that make no sense whatsoever in this universe. I'll just point out one of them: 10 beers in 15 minutes is a beer every minute and a half.

I understand that you're going through a lot, and you're freaked out. But exaggerated numbers don't help anyone. BP 300/200? C'mon, you just made that up.

But the point is, whatever you're doing, stop doing it. At this point you could probably pick a dose at random, but let's go ahead and say 300mg/day--I mean hell, why not?. Count out the pills, put them in little baggies, write the times when you're going to take them right there on a piece of tape on the baggie--even doses throughout the day.

And then when the time comes, take the fucking pills. No more. No less. Just the pills in the damned baggie. And then wait until the time for the next little baggie of pills.

Do that for the next 4 days at least.

These aren't candies. They're not anti-anxiety pills (probably the opposite at this point). It's medicine. Medicine that a doctor prescribed to you, right? So take it like medicine and stop chugging beers while you're at it. You're just going to have to trust me on that one.

[EDIT to add this: Then go read some threads. I'd say start with the Bac at 300+ thread. It's pretty close to the top of the list right now.]

[keenegear89]

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10 beers in 10 minutes lol! Yeah I thought about that also. That is impossible!
Please don't investigate my numbers or my posts. Half the time I don't know what I did a minute ago. (either drunk, having panic attacks, delusional,depressed or have od'd).

I have found out today, I am blowing things way out of proportion! Especially when I get my anxiety problems and is under a lot of stress.

Like saying my dad is a hoarder. He does have a small apartment and he does have a lot of stuff in there but I can move around. I'm just not use to where things are and I bump into everything and get pissed off and started thinking about that hoarder show lol but I looked at it today and it's not that bad at all! I learned where all his shit is today.

My dad is finally being more comfortable with me being there since I was normal today. He's a cool guy. He even said there's beer in the fridge have a few to relax but don't get drunk. He thinks he's teaching me how to drink more responsible lol. Then he left for the day. He still won't let me leave in the middle of the night, which I don't blame him at all for but that does suck when I need a smoke but I got snus today in case I have a nic fit. His apartment complex has a very nice pool, I have found out about today so I've been chilling down there all day. I'm starting to like my new living place and I am grateful that I still do have a place to stay.

I told my dad I don't like ketchup on my eggs, and he understands and put cheese instead this morning so I just had to say something. I love my dad again and I won't be murder him any time soon lol.

Then there's the living in the woods thing. It sure felt like that yesterday! I was going back and forth for my bac and beer but I found a place way closer so that's a peace of mind.

I was reading on mwo about high dose bac side effects and a lot of the people experience some of the same sides I do. Ringing in the ears. I got that bad! I use to think i was in withdrawal and would take more bac, which I have learned is bad! People have had bad insomnia also but I've learned that you get deeper ream but my idiot ass would take more bac hoping to fall back asleep, which I have learned is bad!

Just glad, I'm learning a lot more now and I think i might be okay if I can get my mood swings under control. I really fucked up by taking it so randomly.

Dr Levin has been very helpful for me. I used to hate him because of all the problems I was having but I learned it was my own damn fault. He was right about me finding my dosing it's been working so far but I am still a bit concerned about it all. It does seem to take effect 3hrs as he said and seems that way so far. He told me to be careful not to over dose and I'll know when I do which is very true! I hope I can figure this all out soon! I want to be able to take the same amount every day every 4hrs.

Can someone please explain to me, what "switch" means? Earlier today, I think I might have experienced it but I don't know. It was very nice. I had a beer opened, sipped it and it sat there untouched for a half hour, I looked at it and didn't want the rest! It shocked me and it was awesome! I sure hope I stay this way!

Good luck to you all and thanks for all the help!

[spacebebe01]

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Hi Keen,

I havent read right through your thread yet just the last few pages, and just feel the need to say hello. I am concerned that your not looking a the big picture here, why did you start bac in the first place, its sometimes hard to remember why we started this. All I can really say is that I agree with what Stuck and Tex said, you need to get a dosage, split it up for the day and take it when planned, stop trying to use bac as an instant anxiety fix, its not. Once you know what your doing and why your doing it you should start feeling more stable, it sounds like everything is just up in the air in your life right now so you wont know what your doing and will panic about everything.

Even if you try to stick to plan for just a few days to start with Im sure you will soon start to feel better.

x

[keenegear89]

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Thanks guys I read all this when I was kinda normal the other day and Keene grew a damn brain yesterday! I started following your guys advice! I have been in such a train wreck! I have the worst mood swings in my life and I am really embarrassing myself and is very depressed right now. I don't know what the hell Ive been thinking. I would have panic attacks and start eating my bac like candy hoping it would go away then I'd feel fine for awhile and then skip doses lol. This has not been fun at all! I promise I understand now!

I don't know how I have lived like this for so long.

Yesterday, I started 1am 75mg, 7am 75mg, 1pm 75mg, 7pm 75mg. Going to stick with that until I am better.


My brain is still in a bad roller coaster. Panic attacks, depression, hallucinations angry, delusional blah blah you guys know the story and I am the biggest idiot on here.

I've been fighting the panic attacks and waiting for my next dose by drinking beer for now.

I just want to know how long will it take before I am normal again? Soon I hope! Sorry for being such a problem on here.

[keenegear89]

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Well for the last 4 days I have been taking, the same amount, every day, at the same time every day and the same brand of baclofen and things are not getting any better.

1am 75mg, 7am 75mg, 1pm 95mg and 7pm 95mg. I have mylans bac 10's, rivers 25's and walgreens 20's that the doctor prescribed.

I still have my roller coaster moods. I thought by now it would have quite but it hasn't.
I am afraid I am going to have to live like this until I get off the drug completely and let my own gaba-b do its thing.

Today, I am going to drop the 7pm dose from 95mg to 75mg and wait 4 days then drop the 1pm 95mg to 75mg so that way I will be at 75,75,75,75.

If that doesn't seem right to anyone please tell me. I got to get off this drug and I know now, I got to do it safely.

I learned not to go to the er every time I have my panic attacks. They can't help me and won't even try.

I don't think Dr Levin understand my situation very well because he hasn't had a patient as stupid as me before. He did prescribed me xanax for my panic attacks but I learned real quick that doesn't do anything for the mind but it does calm my body down a bit so that's good.

All you guys are probably sick of hearing from me but I am going to start writing in here instead, for my own benefits so I can read what I have wrote, instead of telling people and embarrassing myself in the process and God forbid nobody does what I have done and learn not to do what I have done.

A lot of the time I won't make any sense at all! Like right now. I currently feel drunk and very confused. Same thing as yesterday at about the same time!

I am going to stop writing right now because I have become very confused and will probably wonder around the street not knowing what to do.

[keenegear89]

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Okay, maybe I am getting better one day at a time. Usually, between 11-12 I feel like I am going through bac withdrawal. I get very confused and my pupils become pin points.

Today wasn't as server as yesterday and it was a lot easier to wait for my 1pm dose. I still have a feeling that this is going to take a few more weeks until my brain corrects it's self. What I don't understand, is bac withdrawal should only take 3 days according to wikipedia page and I am already on day 4 of the same dosing schedule. You'd would think that by now my brain would have corrected its self by now.

Yesterday at this time I fell asleep on the bus and woke up miles away from home lol but today I only got tired and was able to stay awake!

So things seem to be getting better each day!

I guess I won't be dropping my dosages yet. I'll stick with the same for the time being.